I am the Moon

A/n: I do not own Inuyasha, Rumikio Takahashi does.

Of Brothers and Mates

Father and I were back to back fighting a horde of Tsuchigumo youki. My thoughts drifted briefly on Naraku and I released a huge amount of yoki through my fang that threw me back into my father.
“Keep your power focused daughter!” he commanded.
“Hai!” I yelled.
The arachnids were surrounding us and I stepped forward and yelled. A huge surge of yoki again was released but this time I killed three. I released my Dakkasou and burned a rather large one. It screamed and spewed its venom at me. I quickly produced a barrier to protect myself and my father pulled Bakusaiga and sent a powerful blast that decimated the main contingent of Tsuchigumo. I stepped from his side and followed Bakusaiga's blast with one of my fang. The arachnids were destroyed. My chest was heaving from using so much yoki and my father looked down at me.
“You have to channel tighter and with more control; if not your own power could kill you.” He said emotionlessly.
“It is not like Bakusaiga Father. This is your fang not mine. I am learning to channel through your power.” I seethed.
“My fang is your fang Asuna. I passed my power to you through virtue of birth, use it!” he snapped.
“We beat them did we not?” I snapped back.
“Control your tongue.” He commanded.
I was furious at him for admonishing me but knew he was right.
“Hai. I am sorry for speaking to you as such.” I said softly and bowed.
“You are still young. I am proud of what you have accomplished thus far. Your fang has no name as of yet but it will.” He said putting a hand on my shoulder.
“Are you still going to have a fang commissioned for Youshiro?” I asked as we left the field of battle.
“Hai. He shows promise and is very impatient to learn.” He said.
“Did you want us, the three of us I mean?” I asked.
“That is an ignorant question.” He replied.
“Is it? Osamu sees the inside of a dojo rarely and he seems castigated much.” I said quietly.
“Your twin is difficult to say the least but it does not mean I do not care for my pups!” he growled.
“I meant no disrespect Father. It just seems you are disappointed at times.” I commented.
“Some of your behaviors have been disappointing. Your brother is impertinent and rude, you are more like me.” He said looking down at me.
I looked up at him and saw regret in his eyes.
“How do you compare me to you?” I asked curiously.
“Pain early on in life. Too much responsibility and little freedom.” He said.
“The mantle of Lordship.” I said in realization.
“Hai. I have done my best to train you but you have still had pain.” He commented quietly.
“I brought that upon myself my Lord. I am not a pup.” I said sighing.
“You are my pup as much as Hitoro and Kazuo are yours.” He said looking away.
“Do you think you have failed me in particular?” I asked astonished.
“Yes.” He sighed.
“Your own father felt as such with you did he not?” I asked.
“It matters not. Come let us know what Yuudai has learned.”
“Hai.” I said following him.
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I stood in the library and looked for a leather bound volume that I knew was hard to find. I think my father was the one responsible. Touga was the Inu no Taisho. There was much written but truly not much known. My father hardly spoke of his sire. I know because of my grand sire that Inuyasha and Sesshomaru were at odds. There were family secrets and family legends in that book.
“Damn.” I muttered.
I gave up for now and decided that I would look later. I intended to go into the grounds surrounding the palace and practice with my fang. Osamu and I had drifted since I had met Katashi and I had regretted it. I decided to visit his chambers and I heard feminine laughter and moans. I rolled my eyes at his many female conquests. I did not know who more of a man whore was; my own brother or Sheng before we mated.
“Osamu cover up I am coming in.” I called out loudly.
I heard Damnit very loudly spoken and I opened the shoji door. Osamu jumped up and covered himself and the female grabbed for her yukata.
“Hello brother, I thought we could speak. You may leave.” I said to him then her.
My twin was a gorgeous piece of inu male. His hair was silver like mine and he did not bear the crescent moon but the stripes on his cheek. His eyes were those of our mother and were lazy and sensual. His pouty mouth was in a frown. He ran a hand through his short hair; it only came to above his shoulders.
“This had better be that you are telling me you are dying because if it is not I am going to kill you myself!” he snarled.
“Fuck your whore later!” I snarled back.
“Asuna you are one to speak. What do you want?” he said sighing.
“Do you have blue balls brother?” I asked amused.
“Kami yes, you bitch!” he snarled again.
“Well why do you not dress and join me in the gardens?” I asked sweetly.
“I will be there in five minutes.” He said angry.
I walked out of his chambers and smirked on my way to the gardens. He was very angry but I wanted him to be willing to fight. I sat patiently below one of my favorite sakura trees and waited. To his credit he was out here quicker than five minutes and he wore white hakamas with a short yukata that was open. I saw his claws clenching and unclenching.
“I was about to come sister that was very cruel of you and needless to say my temper is short.” He snapped.
“I want you to come with me on a campaign against Katashi. He has made moves against us.” I said simply.
“I am no warrior.” He said annoyed.
“Well you would be there in a more reconsince position. You have a way with females and in bed tongues have a way of wagging.” I said.
“You want me to rut for information?” he asked in disbelief.
“Hai.” I said staring at him.
“You have lost your fucking mind!” he snarled at me.
“I have? You are good at rutting around here. Why not put it to good use.” I replied.
“Mating has dulled your senses and your common sense. Kami Asuna you are an idiot to even ask!” he muttered.
“You belong by my side brother. I would like for my womb mate to be by my side. You can help me defeat the one who dishonored me so.” I said.
“You are manipulative Asuna.”
“I have been told by many that. I can train you in our mental powers further.” I stated.
“I will go ok? Can I go finish what I started?” he snapped.
“Go!” I said smirking.
“Thank you my Lady.” He said sarcastically.
I was ecstatically happy that my twin was going to be there to help me and I intended to train him some, I wanted to fix him and my father's fracturing relationship.
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I was frustrated and I wanted to lash out. Katashi was making a lot of noise and actually had the support of the Northern Ookami tribes. Kami, I would have to face him. He was angry and he still wanted to force the bond. I had made Sheng swear a blood oath that if he faced his former Lord, he was to say I forced the mating on him. Katashi knew I could be very persuasive. I spirited the pups to Edo and when it came time to face my former mate; I would be ready. I actually had Osamu in the dojo and training hard. He was good with a sword but I intended to make him better.
“Damn it Asuna! You are gonna take an ear off!” he yelled at me.
“It would grow back.” I said laughing.
“You damn warrior types.” He growled.
He thrust his katana at me and I blocked and swept him with my leg and knocking him on his rear. He glared up at me and I gave him my hand and he jerked me down.
“Bitch.” He muttered.
“You state the obvious.” I grinned.
“You are enjoying this.” He groaned.
“Hai…I am the eldest.” I laughed again.
“By what ten or so minutes?” he countered.
“I should have listened to you about Katashi in the first place, I am sorry.” I admitted.
“Do not mention it. You seem happy with Sheng.” He answered.
“Hai but I have made a mess of quite a bit; if you only knew.” I said looking away.
“Why not try me, we are womb mates after all.” He smiled.
“I would have to path it to you.” I said.
-Go ahead. - He answered in my head.
-You cannot say a word, swear to the Kamis! - I pathed.
-I promise. You sound like me. - He replied.
-I have rutted with someone that I know is very taboo. - I thought.
-An ookami? - He thought jokingly.
-Worse! - I replied.
-Worse than an ookami? Just tell me. - He thought.
-Naraku. - I thought forebodingly.
“Excuse me?” he choked.
“Hai.” I said looking down.
“He is dead!” he hissed quietly.
“Not in the past.” I admitted.
“Kami Asuna!” he swore.
“I know Osamu. He was able to help me defeat Jing and he helped me figure everything out.” I replied quietly.
“So you went back and rutted with him?” he said astonished.
“That was not my intention.”
“How did you first go back?” he asked again in astonishment.
“Projection.” I said.
He sat down and looked up at me in wonder.
“You have more abilities than mother and father put together. Mother cannot do that. You have developed your psi abilities far beyond what you should have been able.” He replied.
“Sheng also has Uppyr in him. Our link enables me to amplify my own power.” I stated.
“I want that Asuna. I want that kind of power. To hell with the inu abilities. Projection to the past? You are amazing.” He stated.
“It has been a curse till I was able to control it. I did not originally appear to him by choice.” I said.
“Well was it any good?” he asked amused.
“Oh Kami yes. He is like a drug. I guess the forbidden aspect makes it more exciting.” I said looking at him.
“I would say yes.” He laughed.
“Are you ashamed of me?” I asked him worried.
“Why? Kami no. I am proud beyond words. Big sister breaks the rules. You can teach me these things?” he asked me enthusiastically.
“Yes. You may need to find a mate and form the same bond that Sheng and I have.”
“No mate. I enjoy my freedom.” He stated seriously.
“There is freedom and then there is freedom.” I stated looking at him in the eye.
“My you have changed.” He said smiling.
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“You will do this because you love me Sheng.” I said patiently.
“You are asking me to betray us.” He said angered.
“Kami sake I am trying to save your neck in case.” I said flustered.
“You are asking me to be a coward. Asuna, I have never loved a female like I have you. I would die for you and you would not let me.” He said touching my cheek.
“I love you. I cannot live without you, our pups need you.” I whispered.
“You wound me with your pleas. Kami you would make anyone walk through the Netherworld for you. I cannot deny your wishes. I do this under duress.” He said sighing loudly.
“You are not easily manipulated remember? I have to appeal to your parental senses.” I said with a gentle smile.
“I am to say you forced yourself on me.” He said in disbelief.
“Hai. It is sort of true; I mean I did seduce you in He Gang.” I pointed out.
“I was so unwilling.” He laughed sardonically.
“You asked me to rein in my beast if you remember.” I said.
“Hai I did.” He smiled.
“So it is technically not a lie.” I said.
“Kami this is embarrassing.” He said.
“I will not lose you, do you hear me. I will commit seppuku before that will happen.” I said passionately.
“You are not ningen. Do not be foolish.” He admonished me.
“Fine then do as I ask.” I begged.
“You are actually begging me. I think I like you in supplication.” He whispered.
“Kami Sheng.” I groaned as he started an erotic mental barrage.
“If I have to say that you forced me to rut with you then you have to rut with me.” He said seductively.
It felt as though I was being stroked from the inside out. I was already panting and he had not physically touched me. Our bond continued to strengthen and it was amazing.
“Lie down Koi.” He whispered hoarsely.
I laid down on the futon and my back arched. It felt as though he was touching and stroking my breasts and nether region. It was as if my mating mark was being licked and he was inside of me.
“Sheng.” I cried out.
I was shaking my head side to side and moaning. He still had not physically touched me and I was so close to completion. He threw me over the edge when he intensified the pressure on my engorged nub and made the phantom penetration harder. I screamed his name and I knew he was shaking himself. I trembled as he leaned down and kissed me passionately. I opened my mouth to his tongue and he explored my mouth. He pulled away to get some air and grinned down at me.
“I have been meditating and practicing.” He said with a devilish grin.
“I am speechless.” I said coming down from my high.
“That is a rarity.” He joked.
I lightly hit him and he caught my wrist. We looked at each other and I stared at his soft lips. I sat up and caught him in a kiss and plundered his mouth. I was going to have a very busy afternoon.
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I was heading to Kyoto to see about rumors of Katashi's men on Western soil. I had taken Osamu and Yuudai with me. We had made camp thirty or so miles north of Kyoto and settled in. Osamu and I had been working on strengthening his abilities and his telekinesis was coming along quite well. I was mentally exhausted from all the training and needed sleep. I lay beneath a huge old oak tree and fell asleep. I also was going to use the opportunity to project to my twin. I fell into a deeper sleep and I managed to show my phantom self to Osamu.
“Asuna?” he asked suspiciously.
-Hai. - I remarked.
“This is incredible.” He said in awe.
-It is easier to do in sleep; you have to be much focused though. - I said in his mind.
I shimmered in and out for a moment and looked at the forest.
“What is wrong?” he asked.
-I have to go see something. Go and wake me up. - I pleaded.
“Hai.” He said standing up and going to my prone form and shaking me awake. I sat up and nodded my thanks.
“I will be back soon. Why not practice and try to appear to me later?” I asked as I stood.
I lifted my nose and scented a very faint smell.
“What are you scenting?” he asked curious.
“Nothing probably.” I answered.
“Liar.” He accused.
“I will tell you later.” I hissed.
I left and went deeper into the woods. The scent was moving and I was thrilled and terrified at the same time. I pulsed my aura and I almost instantly felt hands come around my neck. There was no pressure behind it and I stood completely still.
“You are being reckless or do you crave my touch?” he cooed in my ear.
“Who is being reckless here? I am in my own lands.” I retorted.
I heard him chuckle and he reached into my haori and cupped my breasts. I moaned under his touch.
“Did you send the Tsuchigumo against us?” I asked as he lazily dragged single claws across my nipples.
“No but is was amusing to see. You are quite the little taiyouki my beautiful little inu.” He said licking the shell of my ear.
I shuddered under his touch and tried to keep my head clear, it was difficult because I would have just rather given in to my desire.
“What are you planning Naraku.” I moaned.
“At this exact moment I am planning on tasting you.” He whispered then dragged his tongue along me neck below my ear.
He had busied his hands with untying my hakamas. He slid his hands to my backside and squeezed and then slowly dragged my bottoms down.
“No armor today?” he whispered.
“You are in a strange mood.” I gasped as he gently ran claws over my nestle of curls.
“I am always jovial when I plan torture.” He cooed.
He spread my nether lips and felt the moisture there. He smiled lustfully and slid down my body. He stopped when his mouth was parallel to my center. He ran his tongue over my opening and I groaned. I looked down and saw him shut his eyes momentarily. He plunged his tongue inside of me and I was breathless. He licked me lightly then flicked his tongue over my clitoris and I started burning with lust so profound. My claws fisted in his ebony waves and I could see him eyeing me for my reactions. He continued to lick and flick his slick organ against my clit and proceeded to plunge two fingers into my wet and tight core. He pumped his fingers in and out of in time to his carnal abuse of my bundle of nerves. My claws scratched his scalp and he growled. I moaned his name and he sped up his ministrations.
“Naraku.” I cried out quietly.
He suckled my clit and I yelped in surprise. I convulsed around his fingers and I released violently. He lazily licked my clean and slowly slid back up my body. He kissed me slowly and I tasted myself and I groaned.
“You want me inside of you do you not?” he whispered roughly.
“Kami yes.” I whined.
“Not today.” He said pulling away from me.
I stared at him as if he had truly gone mad. He chuckled evilly and I slapped him. He pulled me forward by the back of my neck and sucked my lower lip into his mouth. I clawed at him and he released me.
“You fucking bastard.” I snarled.
“Language my lady.” He smirked.
I pushed him and he did not expect it and he landed against the forest floor. I had turned the tables on him and I pounced. I pinned him and quickly tore the knot to his own hakamas and freed his erection. I grasped him firmly and my eyes dared him to move. I darted my tongue out and licked the head.
“Bitch.” He groaned.
“Mmm yes.” I replied as I busied my mouth.
He threw his head back and I grinned. He continued to underestimate me. He always had everything planned out perfectly. I dragged my tongue down his shaft and back up it. I had him grasped firmly at the base of his impressive girth. I took him into my mouth and sucked on his head. He growled so fiercely I looked up and saw his eyes were a more intense red. I refused to take all of him for now and he was straining. I continued to lick him up and down and sucked gently on the head. I reached down with my other hand and grasped his sac and rolled it gently. He tried to thrust into my mouth and let out a frustrated snarl. I ran my tongue up his shaft and pulled away and looked at him expectantly.
“It is not good to tease an inu, we can and do bite.” I purred.
“Do not tease now, I want to hurt you as it is.” He raged.
“You see I hold your sacred parts in my claws, who has the upper hand? Hmm?” I said and stroked him hard.
“Kami.” He groaned.
I continued to stroke him and I moved my lips to inside of his right thigh. I took long licks and open mouth kisses. I was denying him and loving it. I was not vicious but I sank my fangs into a vein in his thigh and tasted his blood. I could feel him shuddering and decided to end his torture. I moved my head and my lips to his and he met my lips with repressed need. He could taste his own blood on my tongue and he ravished my mouth. He abused my tongue and he was growling into my mouth. He sat all the way up and I straddled his hips. I would not let him enter me and I took his staff and ran the head against my clit.
“Now.” He rasped.
“Tell me you have to have me.” I grunted.
I was getting myself hot and desperate with need. My wetness covered his manhood and we were both straining.
“Now.” He cried.
“Tell me you need me Naraku.” I whispered harshly.
“Damn you. I need you.” He cried.
I impaled myself on him and he let out a harsh breath. He moved within me urgently. I met his thrusts with my own.
“You are the evil one.” He cried against my neck.
“Am I?” I said incoherently.
“Kami you are so wet.” He whispered roughly.
“Harder. I need you.” I cried against his ear.
His thrusts became erratic and harder and I was moaning my pleasure into his ear. I felt the impending orgasm start to overtake us both. I could not contain my scream and he shouted himself. He had stiffened and released inside of me at the time as I convulsed around him.
“You have ruined me.” He replied so quietly I had barely heard him.
I leaned back still connected to him and stretched. He ran his hands up my stomach and over my scar from my impalement. I looked down through hooded eyes. He looked up at me in askance.
“Jing.” I replied casually.
He continued to run his hands up till he cupped my breasts. I sat up urgently and he also looked up.
“Katashi.” I breathed.
I was still half clothed and I scrambled. Naraku pulled me to him and we disappeared into his miasma. We reappeared further into the forest.
“That is a handy ability.” I said lightly.
“That name, I recognize that name.” he said to me.
“I was mated to him and you removed his mark from me.” I whispered.
His eyes flashed with anger for what I did not understand. He looked at me and I could not tell his thoughts.
“Why can I not hear your thoughts very often?” I asked forcing him to look at me.
“You said yourself I shield very well.” He replied.
“I would know your thoughts.” I demanded.
“Back down my little inu.” He said calmly.
“You are still hanyou aren't you?” I asked.
“What does it matter?” he growled.
“It does not except that your two halves would be at war.” I said shrugging.
He narrowed his eyes at me and pulled me forward for another kiss. This one devastated me in its gentleness. He let me feel his overwhelming desire. I shuddered under the kiss and deepened it. I groaned in anger when I felt Katashi's aura again. I realized he must feel mine.
“Straighten your clothes. I am going to deal with him.” He snarled.
This side of him was thrilling me and I straightened up my hakamas and haori. He pushed me behind him.
“Do not be afraid of me.” He said.
“I am not afraid of you.” I replied.
The scent of our coupling was heavy in the air. I heard horrendous growling and I looked up and saw the eyes of the inu I still loved.
-Osamu grab Yuudai and get here quickly. - I thought to my brother.
-Hai! - He thought back urgently.
“Who in the Kami are you?” Katashi snarled to Naraku.
“None of your business.” Naraku said smoothly.
“Get out of here Katashi. You trespass on Western lands.” I yelled.
“We have been in this conversation before Koi.” He growled terribly.
“You heard the Lady dog, get out of here.” Naraku hissed.
Katashi drew his fang and I realized I did not have mine. Naraku looked down at me and then a tentacle erupted from his body and he grabbed Katashi. He threw him violently against a tree and grabbed me into his arms.
“You must leave before too many see you.” I demanded of him.
“You act as if you care.” He laughed.
“I like the rutting you idiot.” I said lightly.
“Ah yes. Like I said you have ruined me for any other.” He said kissing me again.
I was astonished at his displays and I pushed him away.
“Go now!” I demanded.
“I shall see you again my little inu.” He swore and disappeared into his miasma.
Katashi was getting up and I turned in time to block his fang with both of my dirks.
“You hateful bitch.” He snarled.
“Me? What about yourself?” I snapped back.
“How many males have you whored yourself to?” he raged.
I threw some of my Dakkasou at him and it burned his flesh in several places. His rage was a palatable thing and he threw his own blue fire at me. It caught me in the chest and I damned myself for my carelessness about my fang. I did not scream as the plasma burned me.
“You had an heir already. You mated me knowing that my own progeny would not inherit from you. How dare you espouse your self righteous crap to me?” I snarled through the pain.
“You had already whored yourself to my own advisor and brother!” he yelled.
“By accident. It happened by accident. We were going mad after the bonding in Shenyang. I forced it Katashi. Do not blame him. You do not understand anything. Besides it was your own folly that started your damn war and got Sheng hurt in the first place.” I yelled.
“I did not know it was her!” he cried angrily.
“But you knew you had a pup! You see nothing wrong. You can deny the mother but you cannot deny the pup.” I screamed in rage.
“How many have had you Asuna?” he demanded.
“You lost any right to know anything when you denied Jing's pup.” I said savagely.
My brother appeared with my weapon and Yuudai brought up the rear. The pain and rage could almost be seen it was so thick. Osamu threw the fang to me and I caught it easily. I started to channel my yoki and I yelled at Osamu and Yuudai to move. Katashi saw my move and brought his own fang up and protected himself from the blast that ensued. I was thrown back against my twin and general. Katashi too was thrown and he was bleeding. I started to get up and go to him but Osamu held me back.
“No!” I screamed.
“Let me go.” I raged.
“Sister you have injured him, we must go.” He demanded.
“I should not have. Osamu please let me help him.” I screamed at him.
“No sister! He dishonored you and the House of the Moon.” He hissed.
Osamu pulled me back and Yuudai helped him drag me away. I cried out and sobbed. I hated him and loved him at the same time. We had both wronged each other and our union had been so fractured.
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Yuudai and Osamu had actually dragged me to Kyoto that night. Katashi's plasma could continue to burn and I had to see a healer. When Osamu and I were alone I poured out the whole sordid story to him. My father had a small compound built in Kyoto to house members of his household that would come this way. It was not a palace but it was home away from home. My twin looked at me and just held me as I sobbed.
“This is why I will not mate.” He said lifting my chin.
“I have made a mess.” I cried.
“No more than I sister.” He said chuckling.
“Osamu how can you joke?” I sniffed.
“Because my big bad sister and heir to the West have males fighting over her for love and not her position.” He smiled.
“This is funny?” I asked.
“Think about it. You are wanted for you and not your title.” He said smiling.
“That makes it better?” I asked.
“A little.” He whispered.
“You really are crazy.” I said laying my head in his lap.
“You are a beautiful onna. I have even seen ningen men stare at you with lust. I am not surprised that you attract this attention.” He said running his claws though my hair as did when we were small pups.
“Do you remember sleeping together in our true forms when were still infant pups?” I asked tiredly.
“Hai. You are much sleeker and more beautiful than I.” he laughed.
“You're male. You are supposed to be bigger and stockier.” I laughed.
“Hai. You were born with all the power though. The beautiful and terrible Asuna.” He smirked.
“You think I am terrible?” I asked.
“No stupid.” He said.
“You do not want a mate ever?” I asked looking up at him.
“No. I have always been close to you. I have never needed another kind of relationship like that. Honestly until very recently we have always been so close.” He said still running his claws through my hair.
“I am so sorry.” I sobbed again.
“Sister this is not you.” He said gently.
“I know. I will stop.” I said wiping my eyes.
“You do not have to change for me. I am always the same old Osamu.” He said.
“Not exactly the same.” I said giggling a little.
“Kami Asuna you are awful.” He said pushing me off if him.
I laughed genuinely and grinned at him.
“What are you like rutting? Are you loud?” I asked amused.
“Asuna!” he growled.
“Why do my questions offend you? I mean tell me!” I said as if I was a pup again.
“What exactly do you want to know.” He said cringing.
“Do you moan a lot? Does your beast take over?” I said sitting up.
“Kami you have turned into me!” he laughed.
“Answer the questions.” I chided.
“Yes I am loud. Every once in awhile my beast takes over. No, I have never felt the urge to mark anyone. Do you want to know how long I can rut for?” he asked sarcastically.
I nodded yes.
“Awhile in most cases. This is embarrassing.” He said standing.
“Why? Who else can you be this honest with? I told you about you know who.” I said pouting.
“Because you are my sister and I should not be discussing these things at all.” He said stretching.
“Who was the best?” I asked.
“Sister, I will not answer that.” He admonished me.
“My beast takes over with Sheng almost every time.” I offered.
“Really?” he asked in surprise.
“Hai. The hanyou is just addicting, I cannot place my finger on it. It is always intense and I almost always pass out.” I said quietly.
“You are asking because you do not understand your own responses.” He said in realization.
“Hai.”
“The hanyou is beyond almost all of our understanding. I would imagine he never does anything half way and that would include his personal habits. Your mate; you are tied to him in every way. I can only imagine the intensity of both types of encounters.” He answered.
“I am awful aren't I?” I asked perplexed.
“No. You are highly desirable and in a position of great power. You are used to getting what you want. I mean why not? You are Sesshomaru's heir.” He shrugged.
“Do you resent me for it?” I asked.
“By the seven hells NO!” he laughed.
“I need to sleep. Will you stay here?” I asked yawning.
“Yes. Scoot over and do not hog the futon.” He laughed again.
Things were right with my twin. I had to figure out my personal life. If I did not, it would destroy me.
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I was dressed and bandaged from my encounter with Katashi. I had received news that he requested an audience with me. I grimaced at having to face him again. I knew he wanted to demand Sheng's life and my head. My day has started out perfect.
I sat with several of my guards that were stationed at this residence surrounding me. Katashi came into a small audience room and I kept myself in check. He had on a pein fu that was a rich turquoise green. There was very light embroidery of dragons on the sleeves. He wore an emerald green obi and my heart was racing. I knew he heard it. His black hair was unbound and looked soft as silk. I had memories of fisting my claws in it and I had to shut my eyes against it. He looked up at me and his green eyes were stormy.
“Speak and be gone.” I said coldly.
“I would speak with you privately.” He said with his voice raw.
I heard the pain in his voice and I nodded to the guards.
“My lady?” the lead one asked.
“I said go. He would be foolish to attack me in our own stronghold.” I said quietly.
“Hai. Your brother and us all will be just outside.” He said bowing.
I waited for them to leave and I turned my gold brown eyes to him. I felt his eyes wandering my body and I suppressed a shudder. I had dressed in a maroon colored kimono that was woven with silver thread and gave it a slight shimmer. I had thrown my hair up in a messy bun to keep it out of my face.
“What do you want?” I asked as my throat constricted.
“My life back.” He said simply.
“I am no longer yours.” I whispered painfully.
“Who was that in the forest?” he asked.
“It does not matter.” I said looking away.
“It matters to me.” He cried in a tortured voice.
“You need to move on and find yourself a proper bitch. One that has no ties to another land.” I said fighting back tears.
“Who was he?” he said coming closer.
I raised my claws and let my poison seep to the tips.
“Asuna, I do not wish to fight. I want to know who that was that touched you so.” He said stopping.
“I told you it matters not.” I growled low.
“Tell me!” he snarled.
“Hitomi Kagewaki.” I answered.
I knew that was the name of the young lord that Naraku had impersonated at one time. I was shaking at his nearness and he was scenting me. I pushed him away roughly and he grabbed me and buried his nose into my neck. He was trying to memorize Naraku's scent if it was still on me and I tried to push him away. He was terribly strong and he continued to scent me. He grimaced when he smelt my burned flesh from his own plasma.
“Stop!” I demanded in a whimper.
“No.” he cried as he pulled me closer and continued to scent me closer.
“Katashi I said stop.” I cried.
He buried his nose into my neck further and I held my breath.
“What do you scent hmm?” I asked in my own tortured voice.
“My own scent should be here. You have taken it away.” He said.
“I am no longer yours.” I repeated.
“No you cannot tear apart a mating that easily. Your beast accepted me.” He replied.
“It does not rule me.” I said weakly.
“Does it not? How do you explain your passionate nature?” he asked looking me deeply in the eyes.
I looked away and he forced me to look at him.
“You gave yourself to me. You had me mark you remember?” he demanded.
“You already have an heir by her. You know I killed her right?” I sneered.
“Hai. I am glad she is dead.” He replied in a whisper.
“I stopped her heart the same way I stopped Annchi” I said in a horrible voice.
“Good. She tricked me.” He replied.
“You knew she had become pregnant. When did it happen?” I demanded.
“More than fifty years ago.” He said very quietly.
“A son.” I snapped.
“Hai. I do not know him.” He said.
“You knew. You would have denied him and dishonored me. Go to hell.” I yelled.
“Inheritance is not automatic Asuna. It goes to the most powerful.” He cried.
“A pup by you and Jing would have been pretty fucking powerful.” I snapped.
He pulled back when I cursed at him.
“A pup produced between you and I would have been more powerful.” He said stubbornly.
“I barely defeated Jing. She was in love with you and she hated me for taking what she thought was her place. In a way I do not blame her.” I said almost tearfully.
`Kami Asuna I was drunk and dumb.” He said angry.
“Kami Katashi I was under the influence of a powerful mental bond.” I said sarcastically.
“You mean Sheng.” He said quietly.
“Hai. You are full blooded inu and you have no idea what it was like.”
“So by virtue of my birth you could not tell me?” he snarled.
“What was I to say? By the way, while I was trying to train your advisor and adopted brother; we managed to break down every mental barrier we each possessed. I was on the verge of a break down and I followed my instincts to find peace?” I said in a terrible whisper.
“Hai.” He said tortured.
“It needed to be ended. I will not have my pups made second to some other bitch's bastard.” I said firmly.
“I am the Lord of Manchuria and my word is law.” He thundered.
“Right. You dishonored me and I returned the favor. Let us save what face we have left and try and be friendly.” I said my throat aching.
“I cannot accept that.” He said fiercely.
“You have to. You truly do not want my father's wrath or the West as your true enemy. Lord Sesshomaru is still the most powerful taiyouki that is known.” I stated without emotion.
“You really want to be just friends Asuna?” he asked wretchedly.
“Go please.” I said not being able to hold back the tear that spilled from my eye.
He pulled me to him and wiped away the tear. His eyes were on my lips and I almost sobbed.
“Do not.” I warned.
“You are hurting as am I.” he said whispering against my lips.
He pressed his lips to mine and I could not stop the rush of emotion. He was kissing me possessively as if trying to brand me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me to him. He reached up and undid my hair and it fell around us.
“Katashi.” I whispered against his lips.
“I love you. Do you understand?” he murmured.
“We have to stop this now.” I whispered.
He pulled back and it surprised me.
“Allow me to heal the burn I gave you.” He said raising an ebony brow.
“Alright then.” I replied.
He reached to my kimono and pulled it open to reveal my bandaged wound. He slowly pulled the cloth off and I winced. It was blistered and red. His brows raised and he looked at me.
“I am sorry.” He replied.
“It is alright.” I commented.
He leaned forward and lightly licked the wound. Most inu who had any kind of poison held the antidote in their saliva. I did not and that was likely due to the fact I was half inu. I gasped and he continued to lick the angry burn on my upper chest. The pain was easing and I was aroused. I cursed him and figured out his acquiescence. He licked at it until the blistering had gone away. He looked up at me and I fought my hormones.
“I am to assume that this bond with Sheng cannot be broken.” He said pondering.
“Hai death is preferable.” I said.
“Fine.” He said backing away.
“What are you up to?” I asked narrowing my eyes.
“Retaking what is mine.” He said evenly.
“We cannot.” I snapped.
“Yes we can. I wish to see Sheng. I will not harm him.” He said sitting.
“I am a Lord and you are my equivalent.” He said flatly.
I was very slow when I realized what he was getting at.
“You mean to make it official; you mean to have Sheng as my concubine?” I asked in utter disbelief.
“Is that not what was happening before but unofficially?” he asked calmly.
“Your heir?” I asked.
“Rose up against me. I cannot allow that. He will have to be stopped. I am the Manchurian Lord not he. I do not recognize him.” He said.
“It is still not that simple.” I said flabbergasted.
“Why is it not simple?” he asked.
“Too many things have happened.” I said unsure.
“I am willing to try.” He said shrugging.
“I have to think.” I said shaking my head.
He pulled me to him again. He ravaged my mouth and I moaned. I could not think clearly and his lips were making me weak. He sucked my lower and gently pulled away.
“Know this, I love you but I am not the most patient.” He said.
“You threaten me?” I demanded.
“I state the truth.”
“Why did you come here? To wear me down or manipulate my feelings?” I asked furious.
“Hai.”
“Get out now.” I said in a rage.
“Think seriously.” He said standing.
“I do not do well on threats.” I said narrowing my eyes.
“You do well flat on your back.” He snarled.
I swiped his face with my claws and spit at him.
“Get out and leave Japan. You almost had me fooled you son of a whore!” I yelled.
“I was not lying when I said I loved you still.” He said.
“No but it has to be on your terms.” I seethed.
“Who dishonored who more hmm?” he sneered.
“I am not ashamed to say that I love you also but I will not be dictated to.” I snapped.
“Someone should.” He snarled.
“You think that should be you? Who are you to me now?” I said cruelly.
“I wanted to love you; but as normal you make that impossible.” He said hurt.
“Get out.”
“Hai I will.” He said storming out.
I was getting tired of the emotional turmoil I got myself into. I had truly turned him into an enemy and I had no idea how to fix it.
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I was sitting in the window in my chambers and stared out as the rain fell. I had almost made up my mind to leave and never return. My brother was right and my life would have been easier with no feelings at stake. I thought about it and dying in battle would be honorable. I was very depressed and did not feel like living this way or subjecting my family to my further mistakes. The more my morose mind thought about it the better it sounded. I had given the West two more taiyouki. Sheng was feeling my depression and tried his best to comfort me. He was standing behind me and put a hand on my shoulder.
“If I die you would be here for the twins?” I said.
“Why would you speak that way?” he asked in a nervous tone.
“I do not know.” I stated flatly.
“I lost my mother early, I would not wish that kind of pain on anyone.” He said sharply.
“You survived.” I retorted.
“It hurts my love.” He said holding me.
“Life is always uncertain Sheng.” I said tonelessly.
“You are frightening me.” He said.
“Fear not. I am just in a melancholy.” I said with a small smile.
I patted his hand and walked away. I think I knew what Uncle Inuyasha felt when he had himself in his love triangle, mine was a little more stretched but I was a full youki, I should do it bigger than a hanyou. I laughed bitterly. Yes death in battle would not be so bad. I felt a little calmer and not so confused. I also knew who I was going to provoke into battle. I was going to give myself an out and my old mate his honor back.