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She Fears
"…" Speaking words
'….' thoughts
Baka - stupid / fool
Miko - Priestess
Ookami - Wolf
Shikon No Tama - Jewel of Four Souls
Youkai - Demon
Youki - Demon Energy
InuYoukai - Dog Demon
Inu - Dog
Houshi - Monk
Taijiya - Demon Slayer
Taiyoukai - Great Demon
Hakama - pants
Haori - Shirt
Chapter 20
She Fears
The travel to the Old Miko's village was pretty much uneventful, it was a normal day in the lives of the small ragtag group. The travel was made in small talk, but no one was willing to bring the obvious fact that their best friend maybe taken away from them when this was finished. The idle chatter did nothing to raise the saddened cloud that was now hanging over the group.
Sesshomaru was confused, and he hated being confused. He watched the group as they traveled back to the village, he was confused as to the reason the scent of sadness was so thick within the group. He thought they would be rejoicing in the fact that Naraku had been destroyed and the Shikon No Tama was back were it belonged. What he thought and how they were acting, were two different things.
Determined to find out he bent down towards his mate's ear "Mate, why is that you are saddened? Should you not be happy that the Shikon No Tama is complete and Naraku destroyed? Am I missing something?" he asked while looking into his mates eyes to gauge her reaction.
He saw her flinch at his words and he knew there was something they were not telling him. He raised a single brow to tell her he would not let up until he knew the truth.
She looked at him and knew she had to tell him, 'He deserves to know' she thought before she readied herself for the inevitable.
"Everyone is saddened because now that the Shikon No Tama is finished I maybe forced back to whence I came." she said looking at him she inhaled sharply then exhaled slowly to continue, "When or if I am forced to leave, there will be no way back once the path is closed." closing her eyes.
"You know I am from future." she watched him nod and she continued, "500 years into the future. I know of no youkai alive in my time, so if I am forced to leave I will never see anyone again and they will never see me again either." biting on her bottom lip to stop her tears she paused in her explanation to gain control of herself. Explaining this was much harder then she would have ever imagined, because talking about it made it more real.
"All my life I have not once sensed any youki aura, but then again I was not looking for one, and I had no idea I was a miko either. Since then I have tried to sense youki and found none." she said with her shoulder shaking with the effort to keep from crying. She was breaking down, but she did not want him to think she had given up. So she tried all she could to hold back her cries of desperation.
Taking a calming breath she continued "Nothing… and it scares me." she said looking into his eyes. His face was set in his normal stoic mask but she could tell he was pissed that this information was withheld from him. After everything that happened she never got the chance to actually talk about this since the mating. She was kidnapped so soon after meeting him. Then any free time since the mating were not spent talking. He was not a man of words, and did not appreciate conversation. Or so she thought.
Deciding to tell him everything she continued, "If I am forced to return there will be nothing anyone can do to stop it. It would be like fighting a god… Impossible." she paused to gain her bearings. The look in his eyes was making her nervous.
Sesshomaru walked along quietly, inwardly raging. 'Does she think so little of me that I cannot protect her from being forced away from me?' all her words pointed to yes she did think that and he was not happy, no he was angry. "This Sesshomaru will not allow anyone god or otherwise to force you to leave my side. Where you belong." he added in is calm matter of fact voice.
She looked at him and smiled sadly. 'He doesn't understand.' she thought before she tried to clarify what she had been saying to him. "If I am forced to leave, it will not be from someone pushing me into the well. No… it will be either the wells power searching me out and pulling me back, or the Shikon No Tama taking me without warning." she said while grabbing his hand holding it in hers.
"It is not that I think you cannot protect me, because I know you can. But you cannot fight destiny or fate Sesshomaru." giving his hand a slight squeeze she continued "I must destroy the Shikon No Tama. This is not an option. I was brought here to this time for a reason." she said while looking around at her friends a bitter kind of irony in her eyes. 'It is ironic that I came here and made all these friends… And meet the only male I will ever love. Only to lose them all in the end.' she thought sadly.
"That is the reason I was brought. Because I was born with the Shikon No Tama within my body that alone proved that fact. If I do not destroy it then the world would be in constant danger." she said before he started to speak.
Sesshomaru looked at his mate; he had always respected her for her sense of duty but this maybe going a bit too far. "I understand why you say this must be done but when will the sacrifices end? When will you make choices for yourself and your own happiness? You have sacrificed enough for the Shikon No Tama, you have split your life in two; This time and your own. You need to start thinking of yourself." he said in a fiercely serous tone.
"I cannot be so selfish as to keep it so I can stay with the male I love. I was not sent here to fall in love." she said in a low tone while looking away from him so she didn't have to look at him while she said that.
"I was sent here to rid the world of the cursed Shikon No Tama. That is a fate I cannot deny, no matter how much I wish it to be different. It doesn't change the fact that I'm the Shikon Miko." she said turning back to him smiling sadly.
Licking her lips she continued, "It is my duty to do this as it is yours to care for your lands. You do not shirk in your duty and neither can I. This is bigger then me, more important than my happiness. It is a sacrifice I have to make. A chance I will have to take. No matter how much I dread it." she said the last part in a whisper only he could hear.
"I can't take the chance of someone else, maybe even more powerful then Naraku to come after the Shikon No Tama for its power. I can not allow it to fall into anyone else's hands." she saw the look in his eyes; they were telling her he would protect her against anything and everything that came their way.
"I know you could protect me, but I am not willing to put you or Rin though that. What if we have children? They would be in constant danger of someone tried to use them to get to the Shikon No Tama." she paused for a moment and she seemed to be thinking but he could not be certain.
"There is a chance that I will not be forced to leave, but be forced to stay. This is why everyone is so uncertain because no one really knows what will happen. But still it is a possibility." she said trying to tell him what her fears were.
Sesshomaru walked beside his mate thinking about everything she just told him. He was upset with her for not telling him but he did understand her reasoning.
She feared to tell him because of his reaction.
She also feared to tell him because it was making her fear more of a reality.
She feared that he would not want her if he knew there was a chance that she would be taken from him.
She feared his rejection.
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
They arrived at the village early evening.
'….' thoughts
Baka - stupid / fool
Miko - Priestess
Ookami - Wolf
Shikon No Tama - Jewel of Four Souls
Youkai - Demon
Youki - Demon Energy
InuYoukai - Dog Demon
Inu - Dog
Houshi - Monk
Taijiya - Demon Slayer
Taiyoukai - Great Demon
Hakama - pants
Haori - Shirt
Chapter 20
She Fears
The travel to the Old Miko's village was pretty much uneventful, it was a normal day in the lives of the small ragtag group. The travel was made in small talk, but no one was willing to bring the obvious fact that their best friend maybe taken away from them when this was finished. The idle chatter did nothing to raise the saddened cloud that was now hanging over the group.
Sesshomaru was confused, and he hated being confused. He watched the group as they traveled back to the village, he was confused as to the reason the scent of sadness was so thick within the group. He thought they would be rejoicing in the fact that Naraku had been destroyed and the Shikon No Tama was back were it belonged. What he thought and how they were acting, were two different things.
Determined to find out he bent down towards his mate's ear "Mate, why is that you are saddened? Should you not be happy that the Shikon No Tama is complete and Naraku destroyed? Am I missing something?" he asked while looking into his mates eyes to gauge her reaction.
He saw her flinch at his words and he knew there was something they were not telling him. He raised a single brow to tell her he would not let up until he knew the truth.
She looked at him and knew she had to tell him, 'He deserves to know' she thought before she readied herself for the inevitable.
"Everyone is saddened because now that the Shikon No Tama is finished I maybe forced back to whence I came." she said looking at him she inhaled sharply then exhaled slowly to continue, "When or if I am forced to leave, there will be no way back once the path is closed." closing her eyes.
"You know I am from future." she watched him nod and she continued, "500 years into the future. I know of no youkai alive in my time, so if I am forced to leave I will never see anyone again and they will never see me again either." biting on her bottom lip to stop her tears she paused in her explanation to gain control of herself. Explaining this was much harder then she would have ever imagined, because talking about it made it more real.
"All my life I have not once sensed any youki aura, but then again I was not looking for one, and I had no idea I was a miko either. Since then I have tried to sense youki and found none." she said with her shoulder shaking with the effort to keep from crying. She was breaking down, but she did not want him to think she had given up. So she tried all she could to hold back her cries of desperation.
Taking a calming breath she continued "Nothing… and it scares me." she said looking into his eyes. His face was set in his normal stoic mask but she could tell he was pissed that this information was withheld from him. After everything that happened she never got the chance to actually talk about this since the mating. She was kidnapped so soon after meeting him. Then any free time since the mating were not spent talking. He was not a man of words, and did not appreciate conversation. Or so she thought.
Deciding to tell him everything she continued, "If I am forced to return there will be nothing anyone can do to stop it. It would be like fighting a god… Impossible." she paused to gain her bearings. The look in his eyes was making her nervous.
Sesshomaru walked along quietly, inwardly raging. 'Does she think so little of me that I cannot protect her from being forced away from me?' all her words pointed to yes she did think that and he was not happy, no he was angry. "This Sesshomaru will not allow anyone god or otherwise to force you to leave my side. Where you belong." he added in is calm matter of fact voice.
She looked at him and smiled sadly. 'He doesn't understand.' she thought before she tried to clarify what she had been saying to him. "If I am forced to leave, it will not be from someone pushing me into the well. No… it will be either the wells power searching me out and pulling me back, or the Shikon No Tama taking me without warning." she said while grabbing his hand holding it in hers.
"It is not that I think you cannot protect me, because I know you can. But you cannot fight destiny or fate Sesshomaru." giving his hand a slight squeeze she continued "I must destroy the Shikon No Tama. This is not an option. I was brought here to this time for a reason." she said while looking around at her friends a bitter kind of irony in her eyes. 'It is ironic that I came here and made all these friends… And meet the only male I will ever love. Only to lose them all in the end.' she thought sadly.
"That is the reason I was brought. Because I was born with the Shikon No Tama within my body that alone proved that fact. If I do not destroy it then the world would be in constant danger." she said before he started to speak.
Sesshomaru looked at his mate; he had always respected her for her sense of duty but this maybe going a bit too far. "I understand why you say this must be done but when will the sacrifices end? When will you make choices for yourself and your own happiness? You have sacrificed enough for the Shikon No Tama, you have split your life in two; This time and your own. You need to start thinking of yourself." he said in a fiercely serous tone.
"I cannot be so selfish as to keep it so I can stay with the male I love. I was not sent here to fall in love." she said in a low tone while looking away from him so she didn't have to look at him while she said that.
"I was sent here to rid the world of the cursed Shikon No Tama. That is a fate I cannot deny, no matter how much I wish it to be different. It doesn't change the fact that I'm the Shikon Miko." she said turning back to him smiling sadly.
Licking her lips she continued, "It is my duty to do this as it is yours to care for your lands. You do not shirk in your duty and neither can I. This is bigger then me, more important than my happiness. It is a sacrifice I have to make. A chance I will have to take. No matter how much I dread it." she said the last part in a whisper only he could hear.
"I can't take the chance of someone else, maybe even more powerful then Naraku to come after the Shikon No Tama for its power. I can not allow it to fall into anyone else's hands." she saw the look in his eyes; they were telling her he would protect her against anything and everything that came their way.
"I know you could protect me, but I am not willing to put you or Rin though that. What if we have children? They would be in constant danger of someone tried to use them to get to the Shikon No Tama." she paused for a moment and she seemed to be thinking but he could not be certain.
"There is a chance that I will not be forced to leave, but be forced to stay. This is why everyone is so uncertain because no one really knows what will happen. But still it is a possibility." she said trying to tell him what her fears were.
Sesshomaru walked beside his mate thinking about everything she just told him. He was upset with her for not telling him but he did understand her reasoning.
She feared to tell him because of his reaction.
She also feared to tell him because it was making her fear more of a reality.
She feared that he would not want her if he knew there was a chance that she would be taken from him.
She feared his rejection.
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
They arrived at the village early evening.