A Blind Heart

Wisdom of the Gods

So it seems that our hostess Kimi was finally getting into the details of our training for the duration of our stay. We followed her outside to a courtyard and to four different buildings. Each was a different dojo. “Before you are assigned a dojo I must ask your indulgence. There are two in the group who are by their very nature more susceptible to injury. Balance between all is required. Therefore we will be bestowing upon Sango and Miroku the gift of Youkai. They will be from the Black Inu-Youkai clan, and will be blessed with spiritual powers along with speed, agility and other youkai abilities”. As Kimi spoke a cloud formed of reikai surrounded Miroku and Sango; swirling around them getting brighter till at last we had to close our eyes.

Sango and Miroku had under gone some changes; they both had youkai features. Both foreheads had lotus blossoms as their symbol, the only difference between the two was that entwined with the Lotus was a small picture of Miroku’s staff identifying him as having spiritual powers.

My pack seemed incapable of speech or motion. Miroku of course did what he always does. He leaned over and fondled Sango’s behind. The slayer turned, growled and punched him in the head. But unlike hits of the past this one sent him flying backwards 25 feet. My miko obviously found it funny as she was busy rolling on the floor. Sango shortly joined in. Miroku limped over with a huge bump on his head which made the rest of the group laugh, myself included.

“Ahem, if you are all finished, I still have several announcements to make before the training is assigned. Kagome you already possess phenomenal powers, when you are made a youkai this will increase drastically. We will make you a White Inu-Youkai to match Sesshoumaru. However you will retain all of your Miko abilities. Kikyo and InuYasha will be made full demons as this is something that Taisho would have wanted for his younger child and mate”.

Before she had even finished the damn sentence the cloud of reikai surrounded Kagome. Through our bond I could feel the pain she endured. Bones stretched and knit together, organs rearranged themselves. Blood changed, claws popped out and fangs descended. I watched her ears become pointed and saw her facial features change. Not to the point where she was no longer Kagome, but definitely Kagome with some youkai thrown in.

When it was finished she swayed for a moment and I knew that she would not remain standing. I looked my fill of her. It seems that she had grown an additional three inches making her 5’7”. Her hair was still as black as midnight, but now contained highlights of blue. It reached down to her knees. My senses told me that without touching it would be smooth as the finest silk. Her skin which had been perfect before now sported a sheen beneath it, as if she had swallowed the moon. Delicate claws, cute little fangs and tantalizing pointed ears.
My little kittens knees began to buckle and I ran to her.

Quick as a flash I scooped her in my arms. I studied her face trying to identify all the changes. Her blue eyes now had the additional of gold and green. Looking for the entire world like the finest sapphire with a hidden fire. Her lashes were long and sooty providing the perfect frame for her spectacular new eyes. Hidden within the depths was still the kindness that was Kagome. Two striped adorned her cheeks similar in color to mine but a shade lighter. Her lips which had always driven me mad were now the color of pomegranates and I knew that they would taste just as sweet. The fangs that peeked from within them made me think of all the things I wanted her to nibble.


My Saiai looked at me deeply. I could feel the stirring of panic within her. I was confused what could worry her so much. Thankfully before she could work herself up it dawned on me that maybe she was insecure about her new looks. Mayhap she thought it was simply her human form that I was in love with. Well time to put that to rest. I twirled her around and kissed her as she were the air and I needed to breathe. I devoured her desperate to communicate with my body what I was unable to articulate. Once the taste of her blood hit my mouth it aroused me to a feverish pitch. Reality checked in when Yasha screamed at us to get a room. The bastard always did have poor sense of timing.

Kimi asked how all the transformed Youkai how they felt. Yasha’s rude and abrupt answer seemed to answer for all. “How do you thing we feel, let me pull you inside out and see what you say. Feh, aren’t angels suppose to be smarter than that?” My miko seemed strangely fascinated by me. I will not act pretentious and say it was my looks, rather I think that she was adjusting to me with her youkai senses. It was so much more than her previous human body was capable of.

After much discussion we went to our separate dojo. I was not surprised to be greeted by Midoriko. Kagome’s displeasure was a palatable thing. I hoped for all of us that she would be able to put her feelings aside and concentrate on training. By the looks she was shooting her, my hopes did not remain high….

One Frustrating & Aggravating month later!

By the gods I loved my miko but she was pissing me off. She had no discipline, little stamina and the ability to go off in her own world and day dream. Had I approached my training with my otousan the same way he would have beat me within an inch of my life. I despaired her getting this move. The Shuuchuukougeki –tentochi should not have been so hard to master. All Kagome had to do was imbue the Tensaiga with her miko power. Build it up to a crescendo and then let me swing the sword and strike.

According to our Sensei Midoriko this would purify and kill over 1000 demons at one time, or take out a really strong opponent. We had surpassed the melding process, and even went to the building of her energy but every time we were required to release the strike she froze. Unable to complete her part of this training she would look apologetic but I was beginning to doubt her sincerity. Maybe it wasn’t the nicest thing I could say, and definitely I should have thought the next statement out before it left my lips. I will say in my defense that this was how I was trained, cruelty and taunting.

“Miko I fail to conceive why you are unable to meld your Miko powers into Tensaiga. Your failure with this has prevented us from moving on to the next level. It is unfathomable that the hanyou and his mate have mastered this and we have not. How is that the priestess Kikyo whose powers are weaker than yours is able to utilize InuYasha’s attacks with Tetsaiga? Is she more talented than you or is she simply more in tuned with her mate?”

She asked me to repeat it. Yes most males would have thought twice about repeating it. But I Lord Sesshoumaru Taisho was nothing if not stubborn and so it seems very stupid. I repeated it and waited, expecting her to try to fry me. To beat me even, maybe even have her transform into her demon side due to her anger. I wasn’t prepared for the tears or any of the other repercussions.

When the pain my Koibito felt hit me I staggered. Pain bloomed in my chest until my world became defined by it. Dear Kami what have I done? A statement that was intended to anger her and tap into her powers instead had dealt her a blow from which we may never recover. The pain was building like a coming storm that ravished the lands without warning or mercy; then she took off running through the dojo doors. This was bad, real bad. By turning her back on me she had told my inner beast that we were unworthy, by running away she had triggered the instinct to chase her down and make her submit.

She had practically reached the archway that separated the female wing from the rest of the house. Oh no she didn’t, I reached a clawed hand and grabbed her left shoulder. Fuck! I knew my eyes were rimmed in red showing my level of aggravation. It should have been a warning but she was in no mood to heed my warning. “Bitch you will explain your turning your back on this Sesshoumaru and then running off. I did not give you leave of my presence”.

She sputtered, okay maybe not the best sentence to lead off with. The pain in my heart was huge, I could feel it shattering. Something happened then, something that never happened before, she transported to her room. I ran to the beginning of the wing and looked in amazement at the barrier which surrounded it. I sank down to my knees wondering what had I done. Through our bonding mark I could feel her wish to die. I began to beat upon the barrier hoping to break into it. I did not want to live if she was not in my world. Centuries of loneliness had finally come to an end, I could not, would not go back to being that cold lonely creature.

I growled my frustration and finally exhausted and hurt I howled out my grief. My soul was torn asunder without Kagome in my life. The fact that I was the instrument of our destruction was even worse. I felt her growing weak from the blood lost. It was with tremendous relief that I felt her body working to repair itself. I tried to nudge her mind so that I could comfort her. Instead I encountered a steel door. She might as well have a sign posted “access denied”. I pushed harder frantic to get in touch with her mind. Until we were in sync each of us was missing a vital part of ourselves. It was agony.

I don’t know if at this point it was minutes or hours that I struggled, finally the door in her mind swung open. I became more aware of the pain Kagome felt. A picture of her lying on her bed curled into a ball came to me.

I rolled over onto my side and noticed for the first time that my brother and father sat by me offering support and strength. I could feel Kagome and her barrier coming towards us. She walked slowly over to me and collapsed by my side. I turned my head to look at me. Slowly I reached out one clawed hand to me. My thoughts projected into her head tried to let her know how sorry I was and that I never meant to compare her to Kikyo. That this was the only way I knew how to train, exactly as my father had trained me. How hurt I was by her turning her back on me, a symbolization of walking away from the pack.

My Youkai was dominant now. Eyes bled to crimson let her know I was hanging on by a thread. She crawled towards me keeping her head down as a sign of submission. When she was close to me she lay down and showed her neck acknowledging my dominance. I was the alpha and although she was my alpha bitch I outranked her. She even threw in a whimper to show her sorrow. I pulled myself over to her and reached out. She tensed, did she think that I would hurt her? I growled and she made an effort to relax. My hand surprisingly breached the barrier and hauled her into my lap. I nuzzled her hair and neck to reassure us both and to renew her scent on me. She sighed, happy that we were in sync again. I nipped her on the ear to show my displeasure. She yelped whether in pain or surprise I don’t know.

“What in the hell was that for? Maru that hurt! Let go of me you big jerk” she struggled out of my embrace. I began to laugh, happy that my feisty hell cat was back. Before she attempted to purify me I told her “I keep forgetting how much you need to need to be taught of Inu society, rules and behavior. What I did was a variation of discipline intended to show you my displeasure at your conduct. You hurt me my little hell cat and I’m not sure what precipitated this whole thing. When you slammed your mental doors shut, it nearly killed me. We are in the process of bonding for eternity Kagome, and it will be highly uncomfortable for us to be separated mentally and spiritually. Keep that in mind when you are losing your temper or throwing a how do you say, hissy fit.”

She sputtered and if possible grew even stiffer in my embrace. “Listen you overgrown fur ball I am not the one who compared you to someone else and found you lacking. I told you how many times your brother held me up to Kikyo only to find me wanting. I truly believed that you saw me for me Kagome, not Kikyo’s reincarnation, a shard hunter or failure miko. Do you want to know why I can’t duplicate the success that InuYasha and Kikyo had? Well too fucking bad cause I can’t explain why I can’t tap into that power at will. I don’t know why this stupid sword has not aligned itself with me”. Kagome pulled the Tensaiga from my scabbard and pointed it. Suddenly it glowed with my blue Youkai energy and her pink energy making it a kind of lavender.

I held her close trying to temper the raw power she had manifested. Wild unpredictable magic rode the air. I could do nothing but growl and rock her hoping that she would stop before too far gone. I knew her, and she would not be able to live with herself or face herself if she hurt anyone today. Suddenly she snapped out of her state and collapsed dropping my sword.

I picked up Kagome and walked toward her room, with the females of the pack walking beside us. Midoriko made as if to take her from my arms and she got hysterical. I growled and made my displeasure known. Kagome needed me. I could tell that she had come close to that personal line that we all have. The line that separates good and evil and I felt the horror that she found herself capable of even thinking such negative thoughts. I did not judge her I simply accepted; if not for my error in wisdom she would have never reached this precipice. How in the hell did it come to this? One month of training and eleven more to go, would we ever survive it?

“Take me to the garden” she whispered in my ear. I growled low to comfort her. “Sesshoumaru, before you adjourn to the garden with Kagome I would like to speak to her” said Taisho. I nodded my approval and gently placed her on the ground. Taisho held his arm out for Kagome to take so he could escort her to the garden. He may be out of out sight range but he wasn’t out of hearing range.

“Yome, I must beg your indulgence for a moment. You see, this afternoon when Maru barked at you rather harshly during training, well that was my fault. When my eldest was born my reign had not yet been solidified. The Western Land was very much in turmoil. Indeed the moment that Sesshoumaru could pick up a weapon I and several other Senseis’s taught him to fight, to think while fighting, how to exploit an enemy’s weakness and other vital information a Lord must know to win battles.

I was not the kindest of instructors and often chastised him for any perceived shortcomings. I was harsh and demanding and praise was withheld. I thought rightfully that he would push himself to do better especially if compared to someone else and found lacking. When InuYasha came I was at peace and able to see my failures. You see daughter, I had raised a strong and proud warrior, who was almost invincible. But I had not raised a loving son, who held affection for me or anybody else besides his mother. As you know, before I could reconcile with my son and show him any affection I was killed protecting my second son and mate.

Sesshoumaru who at the time was at the beginning of his journey to earn more power saw my sacrifice as stupid and illogical. Maybe deep down inside he was resentful, that he never had that kind of love and affection doled out to him from me. This I cannot say for certain. I will tell you that my son is lucky in having chosen you for a mate. You are kind, loyal and by your very nature loving. Exactly the qualities I would have wished for my son to find in his mate. A word of advice from an old Inu, do not turn your body and back on my son. Do not hide your feelings. He cannot do his utmost to keep you happy if you do not speak your mind. For in this time or any other time that exists; no male has ever un-riddled the complexity of the female mind. Love him as he loves you.

If you have a problem getting a move in practice speak to him and try to articulate why you are unable to accomplish it. He may be able to figure out a different way of instruction or help you channel your energy differently to achieve the results you want. I know you’re tired of hearing this, but the future really does depend on you my dear. I bid you good night and ask that you reflect upon all that I have said” and with that he walked away.

As he passed me my father leveled a look at me. I knew that look, it was the look of disappointment and; you’d better fix this now. I went out to the garden intent on repairing the damage I had unwittingly caused. Before I arrived I felt an all too familiar and completely unwelcome presence. Increasing my speed I growled at the sight that greeted me. My otousan had left my shitawashii just moments ago in the garden. How in the seven levels of hell did he get here? When this was over Kimi and I would have a talk, one that she would not enjoy.

“Lord Sesshoumaru, how rude of you to interrupt my time with Kagome” stated a confident and relaxed Naraku. I knew my eyes and Kagome eyes had bled to red a precursor of us shifting to our demon forms. “Did you really think that coming up here and training would suffice? Lord Raidon and I are flattered, that you would need to prepare for battle with us. It is to no avail of course. You will be killed along with that despicable half breed brother of yours. And I will mate with Kikyo and give Kagome to Raidon to do as he wished. I understand he loves to corrupt purity. But hey you’ll be dead so what concern is it of yours”?

I was going to disembowel him and feed him his entrails. I swear to Kami I would remove his tonsils from his asshole and then shove them through the hole in his stomach. Did he think that he could threaten anything of this Sesshoumaru? I would show the upstart how well I lived up to my name of “killing perfection”. When I was through with the real Naraku he would curse the mother who gave him life. And though I spoke to a golem I would ensure the “master” would get the message loud and clear!

No one, Raidon and Naraku included would be allowed to threaten the house of Taisho. Inu were known for their fierce loyalty a fact that the golem was about to get educated in! I let my acidic poison fill my claws. I also felt my whip emerge. I did not have Toukijin because the damn sword was in the armory. This Sesshoumaru was not so weak that he needed a sword. I ran towards the golem swiftly, it had no choice but to release Kagome and move to evade my claws. I feinted towards the right and used my left hand to whip at him. Right before it dissolved, it looked at my left arm and said “interesting”. I would show the real Naraku interesting when we met in person. I turned to see how Kagome faired when I was tackled and arms wrapped around me. Suddenly I found myself with a lap full of Kagome. Her scent showed her relief and residual fear from the encounter.

I stroked her hair to calm her and to give myself time to cage my beast. Rightfully so we were both upset that someone had hurt our mate. I stood up with Kagome still wrapped around me. “Come itoshi we must find Kimi and Sachi and inform them of our little visit.” I felt her nod against my chest but it did not seem like she was letting go anytime soon. No matter, she was as light as a feather and a delight to tote around.

I strode towards the palace. When I arrived at the dining all everyone turned to look at us. Questions erupted from the table. I held my hand up to silence the pack. “Kimi did you not advise us that we were all safe here training for a year? And was not the purpose of this training for it to be a secret”? Kimi stood and nodded her head in agreement. I could tell she had no idea of what had occurred moments ago.

“I have to inform you that Naraku just paid us a little visit and that they are aware of what we are doing here. I also have to tell all that he plans to kill us all and have him and Raidon mate with Kikyo and Kagome. Now I demand to know how he knew of our plans and how he managed to get here”!

Kimi’s eyes opened wide. She called for Sachi and told her to ring the alarm. Although we could discern no sound it seemed like the very air turned different. “Lord Sesshoumaru I beg your indulgence, I must ask that you all wait here while we sort out some matters. I promise that I will divulge all that happens later” and with that she simply vanished. Chaos ruled for the next few minutes. Otousan had enough and finally bellowed for all to be quite.

InuYasha pulled himself with considerable effort. Kikyo sat in his lap. “Aniki do you mean to say that the bastard Naraku is planning on killing me and taking Kikyo, and Raidon plans to get Kagome? The rest of the pack is cannon fodder? Expendable pawns as you will?”

“Hai, that’s exactly what the pitiful golem spoke of. I swear to you on the house of Taisho that I will defend your mate to the death”. I saw something in Yasha’s eyes light up. Some hope that had not been there before. “Aniki” Yasha paused to clear his throat “I swear to you on the house of Taisho and my honor that I will also defend your mate to my death. I will not allow Raidon to get his claws on her”.

In that moment looking across the room at each other we were no longer enemies, and any hate felt was buried. We were the Taisho brothers, and all better damn well fear us! We were in perfect accord. I could tell otousan was well pleased. “Come all let us sit and eat while we wait for our hostess’ return” were the words that Midoriko spoke. Kikyo and Kagome looked up when she spoke but made no effort to join the conversation. We all sat and picked at our food. We ate for appearance sake and not for any real hunger.

When the meal came to a close Kimi and Sachi reappeared. I had no idea that Tenshi’s could look so haggard and grief driven. Kimi motioned for us to follow. We arrived at the Zen garden. We each took a seat close to each other. This was one time when it was us against them. “Naraku managed to trap a Tenshi who had gone to earth to collect a pure soul that had died. He forced Udo to bring a golem up here so that he could communicate with any of you; it was just dumb luck that he found Kagome. We found Udo’s remains and the spell that was used to bring them here. Within a week you will be finished with the initial part of your training. You will then move to another level of heaven. The next level you will go to will be Ametsuchi Azumaya and your safety will be of the highest priority. New systems will be put in place to ensure the rest of the training is done in secrecy. This is the only chance for your victory”.

“Now I bide you good night, we must prepare for tomorrow. Training will begin after lunch instead of the morning”. With that Kimi, Sachi, Sen, Midoriko and Taisho left the room. Questions, questions and more questions but no answers would be forthcoming. I suggested that we all go to bed and discuss this in the morning. Tonight would bring no relief or comfort. We needed to rest and come at the problem with a fresh eye. Debating this issue or staying up late would not solve anything and could indeed cause us to overlook the tiniest detail.

“Kagome, please come with me to the music room so that we can speak”. She stood and followed me. When we arrived in the music room she took a moment to look around. The plum curtains and the instruments drew her in. I watched as she traced a finger over a violin, then a piano. On to a harp and then to a flute, I followed that tracing finger with a slice of envy wishing that I was the object she was stroking. I cleared my throat and began to speak as I dropped to my knees. She came to me and I wrapped my arms around her leaning my head on her stomach.

I looked up into her cerulean eyes and began to speak “I must humbly ask your forgiveness for my unintentionally harsh words. I spoke to you as I had been spoken to while training. I would never ever think that someone is better than you. To me you are the sun and stars. Without you I would not be happy nor would I be complete. You have tremendous powers inside you but you are scared to unleash them. I in my folly did not realize that I was not helping you. Please understand that I will do my best to make you happy. But I cannot do this if you keep parts of yourself from me. I swear on my life that this Sesshoumaru will keep you safe”. I waited for her response.

Time slowed down to be measured by my heartbeat. Beat, beat, and beat until it drowned out everything else. How is it that moments like these you develop tunnel vision or would that be hearing? How can forever be found in a heartbeat? How long does it take for the heart to start breaking, or for it to mend?

And felt a tentative hand stroke my hair, relief flowed in me. Despite my earlier stupidity I had not lost my love. For the second time in my life I felt the urge to cry. Kagome fell to her knees and wrapped her arms around me. “Maru I love you, and will not leave you at the first sign of problems. You are my heart and my soul; you fill the emptiness inside me I did not know I had. Wagakokoro forever will you be in my heart, do not let the simple twist and turns of life’s path fill you with sadness. Think of how boring it would be if everything clicked! What stories would we have for our grandchildren? Come kon'yakusha we need to get some sleep. I will see you in the morning” with that she laid a chaste kiss on my lips and turned to leave.

I grabbed her hand “Kagome, you humble me. That a female of your caliber and standing could love me with all my faults is amazing. I thank Kami that you are in my life. And to correct something I am not your fiancé. I am your mate, the father of your unborn children and the male who will ride your body until you are too be-fucked to move from our room! Sleep well mate”.

I dragged her into a kiss and made sure my hands were busy kneading her breast and flicking her nipples. I slowly circled one hand down the junction between her thighs and pressed down. She writhed against me, and just before my koishii would have attained her orgasm I stopped and pushed her towards the door. I had to battle down my beast not to take her then and there. The sight she made breathing heavily causing her breast to go up and down, the smell of her desire coated my tongue and nose. Suddenly she collected herself and looked at me, with one eyebrow cocked up.

“So mate, its games you want to play? Very well, may the best youkai win.” With that she turned and flounced through the door. Before she got to her wing I was made very aware of a phantom hand caressing and stroking my cock. An invisible tongue joined in. The bitch even stuck an imaginary finger up my ass. And just when I reached the edge, it stopped. A throaty chuckle and a softy whispered goodnight were the last things I heard. I growled and headed towards the onsen; guess a cold dunk would do me good right now.

Wait until the morning; we had several hours of free time. It was about time my bitch received a second lesson in dominance and submission! Ah the thought of her tied down and at my mercy had my cock stiffening in anticipation……


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Japanese Glossary


Reikai – spiritual energy
Wagakokoro – my heart
kon'yakusha – fiancé
Ametsuchi Azumaya – creation of nature (very loosely translated)
Shuuchuukougeki –tentochi – Heaven and earth strike
Yome – Daughter in law
Shitawashii - beloved