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A Daughter
AN: When i started this, i had in mind only that i wanted to develop my skills in the realm of both description and lemons, these are still my goals. Believe it or not neither comes too easily to me, and i do have to work to get them. I've posted this story on 3 different sites and i got an overwhelming response from reviewers that this should be more then a one shot. Though i still believe that the first chapter is a strong story by its self, I have come up with a plot for a 6 Chp fic. I only have 1 & 2 written, and 3 - 6 will be done as soon as they are, but i like this story greatly and felt that if you wanted more, who was i to deny you. I'd like to thank my beta, she puts up with my marshmallows when not many others would, and i've got her working over time this week. anyway. I'll be going now, tell me what you thought. - r0o
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Chapter 2
It had been four days since she left camp, Kagome led her steed by the harness, not pressing her weight into his back by walking beside him, he was just a normal mortal horse, though bred to hold the daunting weight of youkai in armor, she didn’t want to tire him out taking her home, for there would be times when she herself would not be able to walk the distance. She was in no hurry, she had escaped death back at the camp grounds, escaped being killed by the North in a war that really was not hers to fight, but she was headed home now, and there was no honor in what she had done. She had taken the honor of fighting for their homeland from her father, the only male in her home of fighting age. The Higurashi clan had given up almost every male of fighting age in the last war, now there were only old demon males and young pups, but there had been plenty of females. She herself had never been like those of her pack, her cousins or any of them, she had been one of the females that protected the village, one of the ones that were not delicate or dainty, and would give her life to save her pack without a second thought. She was to be alpha.
Her father had already told her that once she had the proper mate she would be alpha female, but she was not pure now, and she had dis-honored her family by running off as she had. Going home never felt so unwelcome before, she wanted to go back to her oba-san, Grandma Keade, back to the sakura gardens that climbed lazily up the hills and up the crest of the mountain that their village sat at the base of. Back to the waterfalls and hot springs , back to the time before she took off for war, back to when she only had family secrets to deal with. There were truths and secrets there that Kagome was the keeper of, that if anything happened to her elders, she was to take up the slack, but she didn’t know if going home was the right thing anymore. Home held possible death, not to mention responsibilities that she was actually let out of if only because of her own defiance. Slowing her pace she decided she would make camp for the evening, allowing herself to just have time to think about what she could actually do with her life now that she had earned it as her own, and for the moment.
Evening was upon her swiftly and a small fire had been made, her horse grazed lazily near by, the mountain wasn’t truly safe in a wartime like this, but she felt safer here alone in the woods then she had since she left her home. Kagome pondered just what she would do now, go home, face her family and clan as the dishonorable whelp that ran and stole her fathers honor away, or roam around like a human ronin. She truly liked the idea of having a few carefree moments of her life before going back to anything else. Her mind made up, Kagome knew she would take some time for herself before going home, maybe she would see the world that she had been so sheltered from all of her life.
Sitting with her blanket pulled over her shoulder her fire dying out, for she hadn’t bothered to get more dry wood, she stared out into the night. The clearing she was in had just enough over covering from the tree branches that the snow was hard forced to get though and land on the ground, leaving it cold but not wet or muddy with slush. Around her the land was blanketed in blue white snow so pale it glowed, dotted with trees and a darkness that was hard to see far into for its denseness. The dying glow of the fire licked against her skin painting her vivid in warm shades against the cool blue of the night, Kagome looked up at the night sky, the moon glowing full, the start shining brightly. Looking out to the world she was lost in thoughts of her life, more specifically thoughts of him, and as much as she told herself that she didn’t want to think about him, she couldn’t help but wonder if he sat under this same night sky, thinking about her.
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Across the lands in the Captains camp…
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War was bearable, but boring, they had arrived to aid his father as the sun set the day that the female had been sent away, the North was engaged against the West, and the Captain had wasted no time getting into the thick of things. His beast was rather riled up about something but he was not one to listen to the sometimes rather mindless dog. Unfortunately he couldn’t shake the slight edge to everything that was around him due to the animal’s riled state, something about the female had him riled up, something about Kagome. It had not been the first nor was it to be the last time her name crossed his minds, stained his lips, and permeated the air with its caress. His time with her was short, one night, and in that one night, they were lost to their inner selves, Sesshomaru was not one to admit such lapses, but he had felt free while he was with her, tucked into her welcoming core, and now all he felt was lonely with out her.
He had never in his life felt like this, his beast and himself were often in sink with one another, very rarely had they been separate, and never had the animal within been so unstable and pensive. The state his beast was in reflected well in his fighting, rather then clean, cool, calm and collective, there was an aggression there the likes of which this small faction from the North would not be able to win against. His one sword against the many left the North in shambles, bloodied, dying, if not dead, he himself couldn’t see it but the rims of his eyes were already stained scarlet in unrest, and none dared to address him in his current temperament. By the time he arrived back at camp the next morning, any who might have been in his way moved from his path, only his second in command was even willing to be in his hostile presence.
Taishou had been in the battle as well , had seen his son’s rather raged expression, and aggressive battle stance, not to mention his angry eyes. He had never seen his son like this, and was not aware of what could have caused this, he made mental note to speak to Kouga after he came from his son’s tent. Days went on like this, Sesshomaru, known as Killing perfection, named so because he truly was, was like death upon the lands, Taishou watched as his normally collected son took on legion after legion, not needing the aid of his own troops. He was impressed but at the same time bothered, he for the life of him could not guess what was the cause of his sons’ state of being. Finally he had found Kouga and cornered the poor wolf in an attempt to gain information about his son.
“Kouga?” The western lord called, Kouga hated that tone, Lord Taishou, the Inu Taishou was like a second father to the wolf, his own father and the General had been the greatest of friends and allies and he and Sesshomaru had grown up together. This tone had been used against him many times in life, he had even used it against his own pup back home when his mate Ayame couldn’t get the pup to submit..
“Milord?” asked the wolf, it was un-nerving to be four hundred and eighty, a father, and still he could be made to feel like a pup again..
“What has gotten into my son?” asked the General, still not sounding angry but there was power and command in his voice.
“Something’s wrong with Inuyasha?” the wolf countered, his brain screaming ‘when all else fails sidestep and keep going!’
“My other son.” stated the rather annoyed inu.
“Sesshomaru?” asked Kouga.
“MmmHmm, that one.”
“I wasn’t aware anything was wrong with him, he scented fine this morning, no illness, did not look tired….” the wolf trailed off at the look he was getting, and sighed. “Milord, you must know we had no idea.”
“About what?” questioned the inu as he started walking back to his tent, and ordering all others out so just he and Kouga were alone.
“Is it safe to speak milord?” asked the wolf, though he could see his leader and general annoyed he felt the magic of a barrier grow up and around them. Kouga sighed again and began to inform the general of the possible issue with his son. “There was an inu enlisted for the war, Kengomo of the Higurashi clan.” The general nodded for the wolf to continue, while Kouga ran his clawed hand through his hair trying to order his thoughts, really it was third of the top things on his mind, war being one, Sesshomaru being two and the girl being third.
“I have never heard such a name, the Higurashi were well known for their fighting, most of their sons died in the last war. They had one for this one?” questioned the dark silver haired male inu.
“Yes and no.” answered the wolf, wanting to look anywhere but the now intrigued but angry eyes of the dog general. “When we sent out the constriction notices, the one answered for the Higurashi clan was a young male named Kengomo. He was miserable as a soldier, decent as an archer, but over the time together before we finally brought them into war, the pup really learned how to handle himself. Craziest mutt I’ve ever met really. And it really showed, we were ambushed by the enemy, I’m sure you got the report so I wont go into details there,” the general nodded. “Well the crazy dog some how managed to pull a mountain of snow on the advancing troops of the north, burying them alive, there were no survivors on the opposing sides but Kengomo sustained an injury, even with demonic healing abilities, a healer was needed. That’s when we found that Kengomo, was actually a female inu of the house of Higurashi.” Kouga waited for the explosion that was sure to come and didn’t have to wait long at all.
“WHAT!?” bellowed the general. “A female has no place in battle the dishonorable bitch!” he paused for a moment to take in the information, there had to be more for his son to react so, for his eldest was not easily swayed by females, inu or not. His eldest unlike the younger of his pups, used a female and left them, or killed them, he was not sloppy, and did not need for anything more then release. “What else?” asked the deceptively calm dog.
“Well the only tent at the time of the avalanche, mind you it was made by the rather crazy female, whom we thought was Kengomo, was the Captains. The healer, Juninji tended her wounds and that’s when the rumors started that Kengomo was actually a female, all I know is it was noon five of six days ago, when only Jaken was sent out leaving the captain, and the female alone. She was not told to leave until the next morning when your scout was sent to us.”
“My son allowed her to heal? He didn’t kill her?” asked the dog general.
“I believe it was because Kengomo, Kagome actually I think she called out her name was Kagome, saved the captains life. His exact words were a life for a life.” finished Kouga. Taishou was in shock, though some of this still did not explain the reactions his son was having.
“Is there anything else?” asked the general, that fatherly tone bordering on command now.
“Yes, I believe the captain was able to sate himself with the young lady.” finished Kouga, Taishou thought this was more the answer he’d been looking for, but was it possible that his son or his beast took a liking to the girl? If she saved the heir of the west she couldn’t be killed, and his son had already freed her from harm, but where was she now?
“And the female? This Kagome? Where is she now?” asked the general, perhaps he could have the female waiting for his son, get the boy to calm down maybe.
“She was sent away.”
“Has she returned home yet?” asked the general thinking a mile a minute.
“When we made camp here I had a messenger sent out the Higurashi clan to see if she had made it there okay, I didn’t want to spare the male unless I knew it wouldn’t be needed. Thus far I haven’t received word back yet, if I may speak freely?” asked the wolf, his son’s second in command. The general nodded waiting for what other possible information the wolf could have. “I am concerned for Sesshomaru, we have known each other our whole lives, and I have never seen him in such a state, would you happen to know what he may be going through, is it an inu thing? He is like my brother, and my leader, if I can fix this I will do what I can.”
The general sat in thought, there were few things he could think of that could be wrong with his son, the one thing that did make sense was highly improbable. The pup had never taken to a female enough to mark her as mate, so there was no way that was an option but it did make the most sense. The general refused to let himself think this was possible. If his son had a mate, she wouldn’t be in any better shape then he was at this moment, and there would be hell to pay for all the other females who had vied for his son’s attention and the title he would one day hold. This was a headache he did not want nor need, Taishou spoke no words as he airily dismissed Kouga, the wolf bowed and left without a word something that was often and not at all unwelcome considered the angry vibes the old dog was giving off.
“Could it be Sesshomaru, that you have given me a daughter, and thrown her away?” he asked no one but the air it self, somewhat lost in thought, he didn’t notice the presence until it was too late. His hand popped against his cheek a tiny flea demon falling like a feather to his war table, and next to his cup of tea. “Myoga! What news from the northern troops?” The old flea was often laughed at for his cowardess, but the old dog kept him as a lifelong ally, his ability to sneak into any situation was unparalleled by any, his aura so small that almost no youkai or holy being picked up that he was even there. The old fleas uses were endless for a being so small, the general could handle that he didn’t want to die, so long as he got him the information needed so that he could insure no one else on his side did either.
“Milord. How nice it is to see you again.” answered the sly little flea.
“Indeed. How goes the war on the other side?” asked the god.
“Not as well as it goes for you milord, Master Sesshomaru has really given them a run for the hills, they are very afraid of your sons wrath. This humble servant must say I have never seen the young master fight with such a fierceness before, it is most freighting and beautiful to see, he has done very well in his training.” the old flea folded his many arms in upon themselves, hidden in the sleeves of his hatori.
“Hn.” intoned the old dog, this was good news for the most part but he needed to find out if Sesshomaru did in fact have a mate, he was sure that if Sesshomaru was aware of it that he would have presented the girl over for inspection, but this had not happened. His son was not one to feel ashamed of anything he’d done, having gained his arrogance from his sire, he smiled to himself. The boy might look like his mother, but he was a son of Taishou. He didn’t have trained soldiers to give to the old flea to look, and perhaps it was best that it was a stealthier mission, but he needed to know. “Myoga.”
“Yes, milord? What is it you wish of me?” intoned the ancient flea.
“Have you heard of the goings on of Sesshomaru before this recent set of battles?” asked the old dog, sitting back in his chair, while thoughtfully stroking his chin in thought, but keeping his slightly narrowed golden eye on the flea before him. He could never resist the urge to rile the old man up, perhaps it was the antagonism of being a dog to a flea, he smirked devilishly.
“I have heard many rumors around camp milord, the most recent and common of which was that the young master has recently bedded a rather beautiful if not handsome female. That their howls were heard deep into the night and almost the morning before they were interrupted by a scout. Some said that the young lord came out in all his glory as naked as the day he was born, others are saying that didn’t happen, but they are abuzz with the female.”
“What of her?” asked the inu Lord thinking still.
“Well, it has been said that she posed as a male amongst them for almost a year, never bathing with any of them, eating alone, keeping to herself, very stoic, none of the others scenting her out. They said she was horrible at first, but over time she became one of the best if not the craziest, something about killing hordes with snow?” he chuckled. “Youth these days, but they say she was most beautiful just before she left.”
“Did they say what she looked like?” he couldn’t help himself, honestly the girl was admirable, if not daft, she was brave to do something so foolish.
“Ah, they say her eyes were as pale blue as a blanket of new white snow caught in the pale moons glow. Her hair was long, not as long as the young masters but still, inky onyx black in color, yet it shined like a ravens wing, and her skin was tanned from what I hear, not the normal pale skin of a demoness of Nishi‘s court. Its thought that she was an inuyoukai, milord.” finished the flea looking towards his lord for a reply. Taishou was deep in thought, these were all characteristics of the Higurashi clan, even down to her crazy personality, her father Kengomaru, was not the most sane of military men, but the dog was relentless in a fight, and did not know when to stop if there was still an enemy standing. He needed to meet this girl, and see what he was dealing with, with that in might his long minutes of silence he finally said.
“I want you to find the female Myoga, and bring her back to Nishi, lock her away until we get back if you have to, I want to meet this female.” said Taishou, not stated just why he wanted to do so.
“Yes milord.” with that the flea was off.
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Sesshomaru sat in his tent, on his piled fur pelts of many shapes and sizes, a cup of blood wine in his grasp, he was brooding, his mind on something he couldn’t have, someone he had given up, her. For days now his beast had been completely inconsolable, he had sought to sate the beast from any and all thoughts of the female by shedding the blood of his enemy and to some degree it worked. But when the battle was over and there were no other to fall against him he was left with only his want for her, it was the strongest urge he had ever had to be with a female. He couldn’t understand what was so very special about her, yes, she would understand him like no other, but she obviously wouldn’t be submissive and who wanted to fight with their bitch as much as he knew he’d fight with her. She wasn’t the most beautiful but she was beautiful to him, strong in ways no other could be. She had felt perfect, never before had any female preformed so well, even if she was bound by the hands for their experience, it was wonderful, and he had ended the night wrapped in bliss.
Closing his golden amber eyes, those hollows of solar color, he remembered her body in his mind, her calico skin toned in patches of tan and pale, where it was obvious she was hime, and warrior, her hair long and lengthy but not as much as his own, her eyes. Her eyes were what haunted him, he could remember vividly as the changed from those polar icy eyes of blue to those deep blue grey monsters that pulled him in. As they were consumed at first by fear and loathing, and then later in lust and desire. He could remember almost all of their time together from every sound to every whine, every thrust, but there was one part he didn’t remember and it seemed to be the part his beast was most interested in ignoring his questions on. He sighed a very un-him thing to do, he wondered where she was this night four days later, if she was okay, if she was hungry or needed him, sighing again he got up and left his tent to find a place where he could look at the sky alone away from the prying eyes of camp, so he could think. More so, so he could think of her.
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Kagome had fallen asleep, waking to the pale glow of mornings light she stretched in a feminine manor and began her day, her dreams were filled with him, the longing in her being called for him, it was disconcerting to say the least. He had raped her, albeit by the end it was rather consensual, it had not started as such, and she couldn’t even remember all of it, she was angry and upset, she wanted to see him and hit him, then make love to him. She was flabbergasted, but more then anything she was dirty, and she could still smell him, that had her more upset then anything, after four days and night she still smelled of him, her whole being. Sighing to herself she made her way to a hot springs that was not too far from where she camped, it was small but just large enough or her to sit to the swell of her breasts and pull the water up to her shoulders and hair.
She had yet to clean her clothing, it was rather cold out, and though not susceptible to the elements as much as humans were, she was not immune to them. Kagome knew his scent permeated the clothing, and should enemy soldiers track by scent they would find her with ease she was not all that worried about it. She had masked her scent not to far from where they had camped last, just after she was no longer able to look back and see them, they were going North, she was going South. She, the beast within, wouldn’t admit it even to herself, the logical, but she knew every thing, and refused to let her logical side wash the scent of their mate off. The beast was already feeling horrible, her stupid logical side had somehow managed to get them cast away from their mate, and though the beast hadn’t mention they had a mate, she didn’t let the logical side feel any bit better the farther they got from him.
The beast wanted to go back, wanted to be with their silver headed mate, his gold eyes, and the feral way he possessed and dominated their body, the beast wanted him, besides, mates should be together especially when pupped. The beast though wasn’t giving her that information, nope, she was going to have to figure that one out on her own. Kagome sighed hearing her lumbering subconscious growling incoherently about the silver haired male they’d been with, she couldn’t catch everything as her inner beast didn’t seem to want her to but she distinctly knew it wanted to go back, the problem was that she did not. She was frightened of him in a way, not that he could hurt her, of that she was certain he could and would if she didn’t obey him, nor was she scared of him killing her, she was scared of the power she knew he had over her. His ability to dominate her was staggering to her ego, and made her feel so very small and vulnerable compared to him, she didn’t like that feeling at all, though she knew not all males could take her in such a way, the fact that one had left her somewhat reluctant to return to anything remotely public. With that she made up her mind, she would stay in the wilderness for a time, and go home when she had seen the lands. It was a journey and she did from time to time like to journey.
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It had been over a year since Kagome had left in place of her father for the war, the clans elders were beside themselves with what they should do, her father included in that, knew that to call her out would be to cast her to deaths doorstep and yet to leave her there was just as bad. Kengomaru was not often a religious man, but he had prayed to the gods every day at sun rise since the day that his precious daughter had left them for her safe return, she was strong and stubborn, and he had never known truly how much he loved and appreciated her until she was no longer there. He loved his daughter greatly, she reminded him of what he loved about her mother, and yet she was so much like him that the resemblance both physical and personality was uncanny. It was why they hardly got along with each other, they bumped heads far too often.
He sighed as he got up from his place in front of the alter to the gods, shifting his weight off of his bad knee, the one that didn’t heal when it should have. He slightly hobbled his way down a slight bit of stone stairs and down a path that went in-between the now barren cherry trees on his property. Sitting on a bench placed in this garden he couldn’t help but remember times he and his pup had come out just to watch the blossoms bloom, and how he had told her that the most beautiful was not always the first to bloom but often the last. She was such a curious pup, and often he had said that the gods had meant for him to have a male pup first but instead he had gotten her. He laughed remember the pout on her face when she had been younger. He sat and waited, as he did every day, in this place that was theirs, in this garden, for a daughter that he was not certain would ever return home.
From their home his mate and wife watched him with worry, Sayuri too was lost with out her pup, Kagome their only pup had gone from them the night the constriction was sent out. She had been upset over an argument with her father that he should not go, that he had served his time for the West, and to let other fathers, mates, and brothers go in his place. Both of them had monstrous tempers, and had both gone to bed angry, she and grandma Kaede had stayed up talking about all that had occurred, and what they would do if Kengomaru was sent off again. They had both gone to bed emotionally exhausted, and had not noticed that Kagome had slipped out in the night in the light spring rain, taking the constriction and one of the large stallions, they had not heard one word since that time, nothing on the winds spoke of a female in the Lord’s army. It was like she was gone to them forever.
Days passed in this fashion, the family and clan mulling over what the fate of one of their best and brightest was, and yet no one knew, for over a year now. Some resented her for doing it, like Kikyo. She too was one of the stronger females in Kagome’s generation, another vying for domination in the pack, she had been Kagome’s greatest rival and now she had taken her place, it was assured that Kikyo would take place as the next alpha in the pack no matter what happened with Kagome. Even if Kagome came back she would be shunned, as she had dishonored her father by taking his place, Sayuri was beside herself with what they would do, no outcome was a good one, but if nothing else she wanted her daughter to come home.
Grandma Kaede was a whole other matter, the elder was most revered in the pack, longer lived then any other, she grinned wickedly as her pointed ear heard whispers on the winds, before she felt a slight sting on her neck.. She popped her own neck and watched bemused with her one good eye as the flea demon Myoga seemingly reappeared. She smiled happily at the little demon, Myoga and she were dear friends, and to see him now was possible good news. “Old flea!” she exclaimed, happy to see the old man. “What bring ye here?” she asked.
“Ah, Kaede-sama, a pleasure it is to be in your presence. I have come to acquire knowledge on the pup Kagome.” stated the flea demon.
“Would that I could give you information dear friend, but she has not been in this village for a very long time. She left over a year ago, and has not been seen since.” stated the elder as she pulled her arms behind her back and looked out to the sky thoughtfully.. “Have ye any news of the pup?” she asked after some time, still feeling his presence and knowing that he would not have come had he not had some sort of information.
“Yes, she was discharged from the army, alive and well over a week ago. Yet, she has not returned home?” he stated and asked at the same time, a bad habit picked up from the Western lord himself.
“Hn.” stated the elder. “Perhaps she is taking her time to come home, nothing good awaits her.”
“Perhaps.” stated the old flea.
“Tell his Lordship we will send notification as soon as she has returned.”
“Indeed Lady Kaede, it is time this old flea is off.”
“Good Bye Myoga.” she stated with a smile in her voice, and a little bit of a kick in her step having just heard the first news of the missing pup in over a years time. She smiled to herself, but wondered just what could have happened, if the girl was let go then she was alive, but if the InuTaisho wanted her that meant that he too did not know where she was.
“Interesting.” she said as she set off to find Sayuri, who would tell Kengomaru.
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It had been a few weeks since Kagome had left the army. Things had been interesting, she had had to fight her way out of a few situations, and in some case other males had just looked the other way from her not wanting anything to do with her, she felt somewhat offended by it but brushed the feelings away, really she didn’t need to look for trouble. She didn’t really understand what was going on with her, she was so moody as of late, arguing far more then she really wanted to with her inner beast, and finding every reason she could think of not to go find the silver haired male that had so ensnared the thing and simply kill him.
Beyond that she was feeling rather tired a lot more then she thought she should be, her body ached and she had the most peculiar dreams. The one last night had forced her to relieve her own tension, not that she had wanted to but she had needed to it was that bad. Even her body felt different, her stomach had always been toned but there was a slight hardness to it, and the tiniest bulged that she couldn’t figure out how she got. Yes, she had been eating a lot more meat then she normally did which was hard during the winter months, but she was eating her fill and other then these things, she felt weird yet almost complete.
She sighed, whatever was going on with her she would be glad when it was done. Kagome didn’t mind being out in the winter months, didn’t mind the all encroaching quiet, nor the time spent alone, she felt that in this time she was getting to know who she was, and what she wanted, finally coming to understand the female that she was. Males often went off to spend a season or some time, depending on the clan, into the wilderness to prove themselves, and yet, here she was doing the same. She felt oddly proud of herself for being able to do this, her clan did not require such things from its female members and so none of them would be able to go on like this for so long. Because of this, her since of accomplishment was very large at the moment, and she couldn’t help but smile to herself.
She only wished she could see her family again, maybe she would go to see them, staying in the forest around the town, she might get a glimpse of her family then. Liking the idea she decided she’d bed down for the night and slowly make her way towards her family’s home, she would get a looked at them before she left out again. Then after some time she’d come back to them, and lay her destiny in their hands. Kagome laid down then getting settled for the night dreaming of seeing her father and mother, and her Grandma Kaede, she missed them all very much. She sighed as she let her aura out a bit, feeling to see if there was anything to be wary of, finding none she allowed herself to go into a light slumber, and dreams of a silver haired demon.
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Chapter 2
It had been four days since she left camp, Kagome led her steed by the harness, not pressing her weight into his back by walking beside him, he was just a normal mortal horse, though bred to hold the daunting weight of youkai in armor, she didn’t want to tire him out taking her home, for there would be times when she herself would not be able to walk the distance. She was in no hurry, she had escaped death back at the camp grounds, escaped being killed by the North in a war that really was not hers to fight, but she was headed home now, and there was no honor in what she had done. She had taken the honor of fighting for their homeland from her father, the only male in her home of fighting age. The Higurashi clan had given up almost every male of fighting age in the last war, now there were only old demon males and young pups, but there had been plenty of females. She herself had never been like those of her pack, her cousins or any of them, she had been one of the females that protected the village, one of the ones that were not delicate or dainty, and would give her life to save her pack without a second thought. She was to be alpha.
Her father had already told her that once she had the proper mate she would be alpha female, but she was not pure now, and she had dis-honored her family by running off as she had. Going home never felt so unwelcome before, she wanted to go back to her oba-san, Grandma Keade, back to the sakura gardens that climbed lazily up the hills and up the crest of the mountain that their village sat at the base of. Back to the waterfalls and hot springs , back to the time before she took off for war, back to when she only had family secrets to deal with. There were truths and secrets there that Kagome was the keeper of, that if anything happened to her elders, she was to take up the slack, but she didn’t know if going home was the right thing anymore. Home held possible death, not to mention responsibilities that she was actually let out of if only because of her own defiance. Slowing her pace she decided she would make camp for the evening, allowing herself to just have time to think about what she could actually do with her life now that she had earned it as her own, and for the moment.
Evening was upon her swiftly and a small fire had been made, her horse grazed lazily near by, the mountain wasn’t truly safe in a wartime like this, but she felt safer here alone in the woods then she had since she left her home. Kagome pondered just what she would do now, go home, face her family and clan as the dishonorable whelp that ran and stole her fathers honor away, or roam around like a human ronin. She truly liked the idea of having a few carefree moments of her life before going back to anything else. Her mind made up, Kagome knew she would take some time for herself before going home, maybe she would see the world that she had been so sheltered from all of her life.
Sitting with her blanket pulled over her shoulder her fire dying out, for she hadn’t bothered to get more dry wood, she stared out into the night. The clearing she was in had just enough over covering from the tree branches that the snow was hard forced to get though and land on the ground, leaving it cold but not wet or muddy with slush. Around her the land was blanketed in blue white snow so pale it glowed, dotted with trees and a darkness that was hard to see far into for its denseness. The dying glow of the fire licked against her skin painting her vivid in warm shades against the cool blue of the night, Kagome looked up at the night sky, the moon glowing full, the start shining brightly. Looking out to the world she was lost in thoughts of her life, more specifically thoughts of him, and as much as she told herself that she didn’t want to think about him, she couldn’t help but wonder if he sat under this same night sky, thinking about her.
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Across the lands in the Captains camp…
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War was bearable, but boring, they had arrived to aid his father as the sun set the day that the female had been sent away, the North was engaged against the West, and the Captain had wasted no time getting into the thick of things. His beast was rather riled up about something but he was not one to listen to the sometimes rather mindless dog. Unfortunately he couldn’t shake the slight edge to everything that was around him due to the animal’s riled state, something about the female had him riled up, something about Kagome. It had not been the first nor was it to be the last time her name crossed his minds, stained his lips, and permeated the air with its caress. His time with her was short, one night, and in that one night, they were lost to their inner selves, Sesshomaru was not one to admit such lapses, but he had felt free while he was with her, tucked into her welcoming core, and now all he felt was lonely with out her.
He had never in his life felt like this, his beast and himself were often in sink with one another, very rarely had they been separate, and never had the animal within been so unstable and pensive. The state his beast was in reflected well in his fighting, rather then clean, cool, calm and collective, there was an aggression there the likes of which this small faction from the North would not be able to win against. His one sword against the many left the North in shambles, bloodied, dying, if not dead, he himself couldn’t see it but the rims of his eyes were already stained scarlet in unrest, and none dared to address him in his current temperament. By the time he arrived back at camp the next morning, any who might have been in his way moved from his path, only his second in command was even willing to be in his hostile presence.
Taishou had been in the battle as well , had seen his son’s rather raged expression, and aggressive battle stance, not to mention his angry eyes. He had never seen his son like this, and was not aware of what could have caused this, he made mental note to speak to Kouga after he came from his son’s tent. Days went on like this, Sesshomaru, known as Killing perfection, named so because he truly was, was like death upon the lands, Taishou watched as his normally collected son took on legion after legion, not needing the aid of his own troops. He was impressed but at the same time bothered, he for the life of him could not guess what was the cause of his sons’ state of being. Finally he had found Kouga and cornered the poor wolf in an attempt to gain information about his son.
“Kouga?” The western lord called, Kouga hated that tone, Lord Taishou, the Inu Taishou was like a second father to the wolf, his own father and the General had been the greatest of friends and allies and he and Sesshomaru had grown up together. This tone had been used against him many times in life, he had even used it against his own pup back home when his mate Ayame couldn’t get the pup to submit..
“Milord?” asked the wolf, it was un-nerving to be four hundred and eighty, a father, and still he could be made to feel like a pup again..
“What has gotten into my son?” asked the General, still not sounding angry but there was power and command in his voice.
“Something’s wrong with Inuyasha?” the wolf countered, his brain screaming ‘when all else fails sidestep and keep going!’
“My other son.” stated the rather annoyed inu.
“Sesshomaru?” asked Kouga.
“MmmHmm, that one.”
“I wasn’t aware anything was wrong with him, he scented fine this morning, no illness, did not look tired….” the wolf trailed off at the look he was getting, and sighed. “Milord, you must know we had no idea.”
“About what?” questioned the inu as he started walking back to his tent, and ordering all others out so just he and Kouga were alone.
“Is it safe to speak milord?” asked the wolf, though he could see his leader and general annoyed he felt the magic of a barrier grow up and around them. Kouga sighed again and began to inform the general of the possible issue with his son. “There was an inu enlisted for the war, Kengomo of the Higurashi clan.” The general nodded for the wolf to continue, while Kouga ran his clawed hand through his hair trying to order his thoughts, really it was third of the top things on his mind, war being one, Sesshomaru being two and the girl being third.
“I have never heard such a name, the Higurashi were well known for their fighting, most of their sons died in the last war. They had one for this one?” questioned the dark silver haired male inu.
“Yes and no.” answered the wolf, wanting to look anywhere but the now intrigued but angry eyes of the dog general. “When we sent out the constriction notices, the one answered for the Higurashi clan was a young male named Kengomo. He was miserable as a soldier, decent as an archer, but over the time together before we finally brought them into war, the pup really learned how to handle himself. Craziest mutt I’ve ever met really. And it really showed, we were ambushed by the enemy, I’m sure you got the report so I wont go into details there,” the general nodded. “Well the crazy dog some how managed to pull a mountain of snow on the advancing troops of the north, burying them alive, there were no survivors on the opposing sides but Kengomo sustained an injury, even with demonic healing abilities, a healer was needed. That’s when we found that Kengomo, was actually a female inu of the house of Higurashi.” Kouga waited for the explosion that was sure to come and didn’t have to wait long at all.
“WHAT!?” bellowed the general. “A female has no place in battle the dishonorable bitch!” he paused for a moment to take in the information, there had to be more for his son to react so, for his eldest was not easily swayed by females, inu or not. His eldest unlike the younger of his pups, used a female and left them, or killed them, he was not sloppy, and did not need for anything more then release. “What else?” asked the deceptively calm dog.
“Well the only tent at the time of the avalanche, mind you it was made by the rather crazy female, whom we thought was Kengomo, was the Captains. The healer, Juninji tended her wounds and that’s when the rumors started that Kengomo was actually a female, all I know is it was noon five of six days ago, when only Jaken was sent out leaving the captain, and the female alone. She was not told to leave until the next morning when your scout was sent to us.”
“My son allowed her to heal? He didn’t kill her?” asked the dog general.
“I believe it was because Kengomo, Kagome actually I think she called out her name was Kagome, saved the captains life. His exact words were a life for a life.” finished Kouga. Taishou was in shock, though some of this still did not explain the reactions his son was having.
“Is there anything else?” asked the general, that fatherly tone bordering on command now.
“Yes, I believe the captain was able to sate himself with the young lady.” finished Kouga, Taishou thought this was more the answer he’d been looking for, but was it possible that his son or his beast took a liking to the girl? If she saved the heir of the west she couldn’t be killed, and his son had already freed her from harm, but where was she now?
“And the female? This Kagome? Where is she now?” asked the general, perhaps he could have the female waiting for his son, get the boy to calm down maybe.
“She was sent away.”
“Has she returned home yet?” asked the general thinking a mile a minute.
“When we made camp here I had a messenger sent out the Higurashi clan to see if she had made it there okay, I didn’t want to spare the male unless I knew it wouldn’t be needed. Thus far I haven’t received word back yet, if I may speak freely?” asked the wolf, his son’s second in command. The general nodded waiting for what other possible information the wolf could have. “I am concerned for Sesshomaru, we have known each other our whole lives, and I have never seen him in such a state, would you happen to know what he may be going through, is it an inu thing? He is like my brother, and my leader, if I can fix this I will do what I can.”
The general sat in thought, there were few things he could think of that could be wrong with his son, the one thing that did make sense was highly improbable. The pup had never taken to a female enough to mark her as mate, so there was no way that was an option but it did make the most sense. The general refused to let himself think this was possible. If his son had a mate, she wouldn’t be in any better shape then he was at this moment, and there would be hell to pay for all the other females who had vied for his son’s attention and the title he would one day hold. This was a headache he did not want nor need, Taishou spoke no words as he airily dismissed Kouga, the wolf bowed and left without a word something that was often and not at all unwelcome considered the angry vibes the old dog was giving off.
“Could it be Sesshomaru, that you have given me a daughter, and thrown her away?” he asked no one but the air it self, somewhat lost in thought, he didn’t notice the presence until it was too late. His hand popped against his cheek a tiny flea demon falling like a feather to his war table, and next to his cup of tea. “Myoga! What news from the northern troops?” The old flea was often laughed at for his cowardess, but the old dog kept him as a lifelong ally, his ability to sneak into any situation was unparalleled by any, his aura so small that almost no youkai or holy being picked up that he was even there. The old fleas uses were endless for a being so small, the general could handle that he didn’t want to die, so long as he got him the information needed so that he could insure no one else on his side did either.
“Milord. How nice it is to see you again.” answered the sly little flea.
“Indeed. How goes the war on the other side?” asked the god.
“Not as well as it goes for you milord, Master Sesshomaru has really given them a run for the hills, they are very afraid of your sons wrath. This humble servant must say I have never seen the young master fight with such a fierceness before, it is most freighting and beautiful to see, he has done very well in his training.” the old flea folded his many arms in upon themselves, hidden in the sleeves of his hatori.
“Hn.” intoned the old dog, this was good news for the most part but he needed to find out if Sesshomaru did in fact have a mate, he was sure that if Sesshomaru was aware of it that he would have presented the girl over for inspection, but this had not happened. His son was not one to feel ashamed of anything he’d done, having gained his arrogance from his sire, he smiled to himself. The boy might look like his mother, but he was a son of Taishou. He didn’t have trained soldiers to give to the old flea to look, and perhaps it was best that it was a stealthier mission, but he needed to know. “Myoga.”
“Yes, milord? What is it you wish of me?” intoned the ancient flea.
“Have you heard of the goings on of Sesshomaru before this recent set of battles?” asked the old dog, sitting back in his chair, while thoughtfully stroking his chin in thought, but keeping his slightly narrowed golden eye on the flea before him. He could never resist the urge to rile the old man up, perhaps it was the antagonism of being a dog to a flea, he smirked devilishly.
“I have heard many rumors around camp milord, the most recent and common of which was that the young master has recently bedded a rather beautiful if not handsome female. That their howls were heard deep into the night and almost the morning before they were interrupted by a scout. Some said that the young lord came out in all his glory as naked as the day he was born, others are saying that didn’t happen, but they are abuzz with the female.”
“What of her?” asked the inu Lord thinking still.
“Well, it has been said that she posed as a male amongst them for almost a year, never bathing with any of them, eating alone, keeping to herself, very stoic, none of the others scenting her out. They said she was horrible at first, but over time she became one of the best if not the craziest, something about killing hordes with snow?” he chuckled. “Youth these days, but they say she was most beautiful just before she left.”
“Did they say what she looked like?” he couldn’t help himself, honestly the girl was admirable, if not daft, she was brave to do something so foolish.
“Ah, they say her eyes were as pale blue as a blanket of new white snow caught in the pale moons glow. Her hair was long, not as long as the young masters but still, inky onyx black in color, yet it shined like a ravens wing, and her skin was tanned from what I hear, not the normal pale skin of a demoness of Nishi‘s court. Its thought that she was an inuyoukai, milord.” finished the flea looking towards his lord for a reply. Taishou was deep in thought, these were all characteristics of the Higurashi clan, even down to her crazy personality, her father Kengomaru, was not the most sane of military men, but the dog was relentless in a fight, and did not know when to stop if there was still an enemy standing. He needed to meet this girl, and see what he was dealing with, with that in might his long minutes of silence he finally said.
“I want you to find the female Myoga, and bring her back to Nishi, lock her away until we get back if you have to, I want to meet this female.” said Taishou, not stated just why he wanted to do so.
“Yes milord.” with that the flea was off.
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Sesshomaru sat in his tent, on his piled fur pelts of many shapes and sizes, a cup of blood wine in his grasp, he was brooding, his mind on something he couldn’t have, someone he had given up, her. For days now his beast had been completely inconsolable, he had sought to sate the beast from any and all thoughts of the female by shedding the blood of his enemy and to some degree it worked. But when the battle was over and there were no other to fall against him he was left with only his want for her, it was the strongest urge he had ever had to be with a female. He couldn’t understand what was so very special about her, yes, she would understand him like no other, but she obviously wouldn’t be submissive and who wanted to fight with their bitch as much as he knew he’d fight with her. She wasn’t the most beautiful but she was beautiful to him, strong in ways no other could be. She had felt perfect, never before had any female preformed so well, even if she was bound by the hands for their experience, it was wonderful, and he had ended the night wrapped in bliss.
Closing his golden amber eyes, those hollows of solar color, he remembered her body in his mind, her calico skin toned in patches of tan and pale, where it was obvious she was hime, and warrior, her hair long and lengthy but not as much as his own, her eyes. Her eyes were what haunted him, he could remember vividly as the changed from those polar icy eyes of blue to those deep blue grey monsters that pulled him in. As they were consumed at first by fear and loathing, and then later in lust and desire. He could remember almost all of their time together from every sound to every whine, every thrust, but there was one part he didn’t remember and it seemed to be the part his beast was most interested in ignoring his questions on. He sighed a very un-him thing to do, he wondered where she was this night four days later, if she was okay, if she was hungry or needed him, sighing again he got up and left his tent to find a place where he could look at the sky alone away from the prying eyes of camp, so he could think. More so, so he could think of her.
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Kagome had fallen asleep, waking to the pale glow of mornings light she stretched in a feminine manor and began her day, her dreams were filled with him, the longing in her being called for him, it was disconcerting to say the least. He had raped her, albeit by the end it was rather consensual, it had not started as such, and she couldn’t even remember all of it, she was angry and upset, she wanted to see him and hit him, then make love to him. She was flabbergasted, but more then anything she was dirty, and she could still smell him, that had her more upset then anything, after four days and night she still smelled of him, her whole being. Sighing to herself she made her way to a hot springs that was not too far from where she camped, it was small but just large enough or her to sit to the swell of her breasts and pull the water up to her shoulders and hair.
She had yet to clean her clothing, it was rather cold out, and though not susceptible to the elements as much as humans were, she was not immune to them. Kagome knew his scent permeated the clothing, and should enemy soldiers track by scent they would find her with ease she was not all that worried about it. She had masked her scent not to far from where they had camped last, just after she was no longer able to look back and see them, they were going North, she was going South. She, the beast within, wouldn’t admit it even to herself, the logical, but she knew every thing, and refused to let her logical side wash the scent of their mate off. The beast was already feeling horrible, her stupid logical side had somehow managed to get them cast away from their mate, and though the beast hadn’t mention they had a mate, she didn’t let the logical side feel any bit better the farther they got from him.
The beast wanted to go back, wanted to be with their silver headed mate, his gold eyes, and the feral way he possessed and dominated their body, the beast wanted him, besides, mates should be together especially when pupped. The beast though wasn’t giving her that information, nope, she was going to have to figure that one out on her own. Kagome sighed hearing her lumbering subconscious growling incoherently about the silver haired male they’d been with, she couldn’t catch everything as her inner beast didn’t seem to want her to but she distinctly knew it wanted to go back, the problem was that she did not. She was frightened of him in a way, not that he could hurt her, of that she was certain he could and would if she didn’t obey him, nor was she scared of him killing her, she was scared of the power she knew he had over her. His ability to dominate her was staggering to her ego, and made her feel so very small and vulnerable compared to him, she didn’t like that feeling at all, though she knew not all males could take her in such a way, the fact that one had left her somewhat reluctant to return to anything remotely public. With that she made up her mind, she would stay in the wilderness for a time, and go home when she had seen the lands. It was a journey and she did from time to time like to journey.
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It had been over a year since Kagome had left in place of her father for the war, the clans elders were beside themselves with what they should do, her father included in that, knew that to call her out would be to cast her to deaths doorstep and yet to leave her there was just as bad. Kengomaru was not often a religious man, but he had prayed to the gods every day at sun rise since the day that his precious daughter had left them for her safe return, she was strong and stubborn, and he had never known truly how much he loved and appreciated her until she was no longer there. He loved his daughter greatly, she reminded him of what he loved about her mother, and yet she was so much like him that the resemblance both physical and personality was uncanny. It was why they hardly got along with each other, they bumped heads far too often.
He sighed as he got up from his place in front of the alter to the gods, shifting his weight off of his bad knee, the one that didn’t heal when it should have. He slightly hobbled his way down a slight bit of stone stairs and down a path that went in-between the now barren cherry trees on his property. Sitting on a bench placed in this garden he couldn’t help but remember times he and his pup had come out just to watch the blossoms bloom, and how he had told her that the most beautiful was not always the first to bloom but often the last. She was such a curious pup, and often he had said that the gods had meant for him to have a male pup first but instead he had gotten her. He laughed remember the pout on her face when she had been younger. He sat and waited, as he did every day, in this place that was theirs, in this garden, for a daughter that he was not certain would ever return home.
From their home his mate and wife watched him with worry, Sayuri too was lost with out her pup, Kagome their only pup had gone from them the night the constriction was sent out. She had been upset over an argument with her father that he should not go, that he had served his time for the West, and to let other fathers, mates, and brothers go in his place. Both of them had monstrous tempers, and had both gone to bed angry, she and grandma Kaede had stayed up talking about all that had occurred, and what they would do if Kengomaru was sent off again. They had both gone to bed emotionally exhausted, and had not noticed that Kagome had slipped out in the night in the light spring rain, taking the constriction and one of the large stallions, they had not heard one word since that time, nothing on the winds spoke of a female in the Lord’s army. It was like she was gone to them forever.
Days passed in this fashion, the family and clan mulling over what the fate of one of their best and brightest was, and yet no one knew, for over a year now. Some resented her for doing it, like Kikyo. She too was one of the stronger females in Kagome’s generation, another vying for domination in the pack, she had been Kagome’s greatest rival and now she had taken her place, it was assured that Kikyo would take place as the next alpha in the pack no matter what happened with Kagome. Even if Kagome came back she would be shunned, as she had dishonored her father by taking his place, Sayuri was beside herself with what they would do, no outcome was a good one, but if nothing else she wanted her daughter to come home.
Grandma Kaede was a whole other matter, the elder was most revered in the pack, longer lived then any other, she grinned wickedly as her pointed ear heard whispers on the winds, before she felt a slight sting on her neck.. She popped her own neck and watched bemused with her one good eye as the flea demon Myoga seemingly reappeared. She smiled happily at the little demon, Myoga and she were dear friends, and to see him now was possible good news. “Old flea!” she exclaimed, happy to see the old man. “What bring ye here?” she asked.
“Ah, Kaede-sama, a pleasure it is to be in your presence. I have come to acquire knowledge on the pup Kagome.” stated the flea demon.
“Would that I could give you information dear friend, but she has not been in this village for a very long time. She left over a year ago, and has not been seen since.” stated the elder as she pulled her arms behind her back and looked out to the sky thoughtfully.. “Have ye any news of the pup?” she asked after some time, still feeling his presence and knowing that he would not have come had he not had some sort of information.
“Yes, she was discharged from the army, alive and well over a week ago. Yet, she has not returned home?” he stated and asked at the same time, a bad habit picked up from the Western lord himself.
“Hn.” stated the elder. “Perhaps she is taking her time to come home, nothing good awaits her.”
“Perhaps.” stated the old flea.
“Tell his Lordship we will send notification as soon as she has returned.”
“Indeed Lady Kaede, it is time this old flea is off.”
“Good Bye Myoga.” she stated with a smile in her voice, and a little bit of a kick in her step having just heard the first news of the missing pup in over a years time. She smiled to herself, but wondered just what could have happened, if the girl was let go then she was alive, but if the InuTaisho wanted her that meant that he too did not know where she was.
“Interesting.” she said as she set off to find Sayuri, who would tell Kengomaru.
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It had been a few weeks since Kagome had left the army. Things had been interesting, she had had to fight her way out of a few situations, and in some case other males had just looked the other way from her not wanting anything to do with her, she felt somewhat offended by it but brushed the feelings away, really she didn’t need to look for trouble. She didn’t really understand what was going on with her, she was so moody as of late, arguing far more then she really wanted to with her inner beast, and finding every reason she could think of not to go find the silver haired male that had so ensnared the thing and simply kill him.
Beyond that she was feeling rather tired a lot more then she thought she should be, her body ached and she had the most peculiar dreams. The one last night had forced her to relieve her own tension, not that she had wanted to but she had needed to it was that bad. Even her body felt different, her stomach had always been toned but there was a slight hardness to it, and the tiniest bulged that she couldn’t figure out how she got. Yes, she had been eating a lot more meat then she normally did which was hard during the winter months, but she was eating her fill and other then these things, she felt weird yet almost complete.
She sighed, whatever was going on with her she would be glad when it was done. Kagome didn’t mind being out in the winter months, didn’t mind the all encroaching quiet, nor the time spent alone, she felt that in this time she was getting to know who she was, and what she wanted, finally coming to understand the female that she was. Males often went off to spend a season or some time, depending on the clan, into the wilderness to prove themselves, and yet, here she was doing the same. She felt oddly proud of herself for being able to do this, her clan did not require such things from its female members and so none of them would be able to go on like this for so long. Because of this, her since of accomplishment was very large at the moment, and she couldn’t help but smile to herself.
She only wished she could see her family again, maybe she would go to see them, staying in the forest around the town, she might get a glimpse of her family then. Liking the idea she decided she’d bed down for the night and slowly make her way towards her family’s home, she would get a looked at them before she left out again. Then after some time she’d come back to them, and lay her destiny in their hands. Kagome laid down then getting settled for the night dreaming of seeing her father and mother, and her Grandma Kaede, she missed them all very much. She sighed as she let her aura out a bit, feeling to see if there was anything to be wary of, finding none she allowed herself to go into a light slumber, and dreams of a silver haired demon.