Why Me?

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I hear my name being called from the hallway and rush out the door before I can hear it again. When I get there Kagura is standing there looking at me with hatred. Which is normal for her. She hates everything and everyone.

"Naraku wants you to get ready for tonight. As you know there is to be a feast tonight. The lords are all meeting for this whole week to decide some stupid shit with the lands. Not that it matters to you. Any ways... get your ass moving, because he wants you to serve his food to him in front of the other lords." Kagura says and then she walks off leaving me there wondering what I should wear to please my master.

I walk back to my room and decide to take a nice long bath. The only thing I actually enjoy anymore.

I strip my kimono off and pick out the sakura blossom scented soaps to use. I grab a cloth to dry off with and then walk through the door off to the right that leads to the hot springs under the castle.

Thirty minutes later I find myself in the nice hot water washing my hair and body. I tremble as I touch a long scar down my side, from where Naraku had cut me deeply for crying out in pain during one of his..... tortures.

I look down at my body and touch every scar that I could reach. I had three on my neck that ran down to my breasts. I had another four claw marks on my left side right on my hip. I had several other smaller scars on my legs. I knew I had some more on my back. I knew it must be torn up and no smooth skin any where. I was surprised that I had no real scars on my belly. He refrained from marking me there for some odd reason. I didn't mind though, I liked having at least a little bit of beautiful skin on my body.

I started to cry. Deep down I knew nobody would want me. I am scared and used... like a common whore. They wouldn't believe that Lord Naraku did this to me. I would be nothing... till I finally died... here in this castle of violence and death.

I got out of the water and started to dry off with the cloth. When I was completely dried I wrapped it around myself and started back to my room. I went straight for the closet and found a beautiful kimono that Naraku bought just for something like this. When I got everything sorted out and on the right way I went to the mirror and looked at myself.

I didn't have a single scar on my face. My long bluish-black hair brought out my skin tone better and it framed my face. My brown eyes use to sparkle... they stopped the day I turned five. A single tear dropped from my eye. I had lost so much and there wasn't a thing I could do to get them back.

I started to put my hair up in a loose bun with some strands falling loose around my face and in the back. I put some chopsticks in my hair that were a silver and blue color. Perfect for the kimono I had picked out. It was white with blue sakura flower designs on it and silver going through it in some places. It made me look beautiful for once.

"Kagome! It's time to get started!" someone yelled from outside the room.

I took one last look in the mirror and made sure everything was in perfect order. If it wasn't I would be punished... on top of what was already going to happen tonight.

I hurry up and come to a stop right in front of Kagura just as she was about to call for me again. She had an evil grin on her face and I was terrified by it.

"Kagome hurry up!" she yelled right in front of me.

I felt fear creep into my lungs and I stopped breathing as I heard someone walking down the hallway. I knew without looking who it was.

"Kagome... Once again you disappoint me by making a superior have to waste their time with you. Whatever am I going to do with you now? I had hope I wouldn't have trouble from you this week. Oh well I think you secretly like the pain I inflict on you dear. I'll deal with you after this dinner, now hurry up and get down to the kitchens and prepare to serve me in front of the other lords." Naraku said to me with his eyes filled with hate.

"Yes master." I say in a small voice with my head bowed down to him.

With that I walk off to the kitchens to prepare for the torment that I'm sure will be coming tonight.

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When I reached the kitchen I open the doors to see everyone running around trying to get things done in time for dinner. I looked around... searching for someone. Then I spy her in the very back sitting down on a chair taking a break.

I walked up to Sango, my best friend in the whole world... or close to it. I sit down next to her and wait for her to speak first.

"Your serving Naraku tonight?" she asked me.

"Yes, that's why I'm dressed up instead of in rags like you." I say smiling.

Sango just laughed at me. We were like that to each other to make sure we were not getting too attached... just in case either of us never woke up again someday down the road. We know we wont be leaving anyone behind. We are alright with this fact.

Sango was very beautiful at one point in time. She use to be filled with life... before Naraku took her. She lasted longer than us all though. She defied him constantly at every turn... she was all of our hero for that. The one we believed in the most. We wouldn't tell her this of course... it's not our way.

"I heard from Kagura that you are in for punishment tonight." Sango said with defeat in her eyes.

"Damn that woman.. if that's what you could call her. I made it to her in time, but she did it any ways." I said in a little voice.

"Complaining doesn't become you Kagome." Sango tells me.

"What?" I ask looking at her in a funny way.

"Your better than that Kagome. Your stronger than you believe you are. I envy you for that. In your heart.. deep down you still have hope. Hope that we will be free of this place... free of Naraku. Don't complain Kagome... not ever. Don't let them take your spirit away for good. The fights not over... till we say it is. I haven't given up Kagome... so don't you give up either. I may look like I am defeated... I may act like it too, but I'm not. Neither are you... if you want to be free then work for it. Don't sit here and complain about the stupid fucking bitch that gets a kick out of knowing we are in pain all the time from Naraku's torture." Sango said that then walked away from me.

I sat there stunned that she actually said all of that. I looked up and realized that everyone in the kitchen were smiling at me. For some reason they believed I was their leader. I have no idea how that happened though. I don't even think I wanna know why.

I hear the bell ring signaling dinner is ready to be served. I cringe at the thought of serving the man... wait excuse me demon... that I hate more than life itself. I hold my head up high as I gather the tray for him... wishing someone actually had enough guts to poison the damn thing.

I walk out of the kitchen, into the dinning room... full of the lords and their ladies. I watch them as they talk lovingly to their mates. I envy them that.

As I set the tray in front of Naraku I happened to look up and realized that one of the lords was missing. Which was odd, because they always came for the meetings. It was my first time serving dinner in front of the other lords though. It had always been Kagura's job.

I move behind and off to the side of Naraku to wait to be called upon. Did I tell you I hate standing still for too long.... Who the hell does any ways?

I stand here waiting... waiting for many things actually. Seems that's all I ever do... wait. Wait for Naraku to signal he wanted something else or that he was done. Waiting for the other lord to walk in the door, because if he doesn't it will anger Naraku even more than he already was... not good for me at all. Waiting to be saved.... waiting for death to claim me...

I was taken out of my thoughts by my name being called. I looked straight in front of me and walked to Naraku's side. "Yes, master?" I ask in a low voice.

"That will be all Kagome. Go to your rooms and wait for me to come to you." Naraku whispers to me while his hand slides down my back and finds a place on my rear.

I wanted to tare that hand off and feed it to the dogs outside. I wanted to chop it off and shove it up his ass. Instead I gave a smile to the other lords and ladies and made my exit. I went to my rooms and waited... waited for many things like I've said before.

"When will it end?" I ask myself, just as the door slid open and Naraku steps inside of my room with a smile on his face... never a good sign.

I gulp as he walks closer to me. My heart starts to race as I see what he is holding. I know it's going to be a painful night... like all the others, but double for the punishment.

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InuyashasGypsyGurl - Thank you so very much for being the first person to review my story. Yes it's a dark fic, and it will be that way for a very long time. It will change... some what in the future though. I think so any ways. lol. I have never writen a story in this form before though.. in the first person, so it's harder than it looks. Well I hope you have a nice night and thanks again.

InuyashasGypsyGurl - Well I usually do leave most of my chapters with a cliffhanger. That way you don't lose interest in the story. Most people complain about it though, so I'm glad that you are alright with it. Mostly I do the cute-and-cuddly type of stories, not the BDSM or spanking kind of things. I'm just trying out something new. When I start stories I usually have no idea what's going to happen, so basically plot to me is whatever I'm in the mood for lol. My stories are basically written from off the top of my head, which actually makes it fun for me. Because if you got it all planned out... kinda makes it feel like a chore to update it all the time. Maybe it's just me though.. I don't know. I'll try to keep updating though, just sometimes I don't feel like it, so hopefully everyone will just go with me on this one. I'm glad you are liking this so far and I hope you continue to do so. Well take care and have a wonderful day.

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odango - How is this scary? I'm actually serious though... it's not scary to me. That's a good thing though, cuz I'm a chicken for realz. It is interesting though, I wonder what's going to happen next... sounds weird I know, but honestly I don't know what's going to happen next. Thanks for the encouragement though. By the way I have read some of your work and love it, so keep it up as well. Thanks for reading and have a nice day.

Neptunee - I'm glad you like it so far. Sesshomaru will be in later chapters. As for Naraku and Kagome going at it... you'll just have to wait like the rest of them. I will make the chapters longer, I'm sorry for them being short. Trust me I understand how frustraiting it is to read all short chapters. So just hang in there with me please. Thanks for reading and have a great day.