UnFaithful

A/N: Thanks so much for the positive reviews:) Heres the next chapter...more angst...yeah!...lol



Lost in a passionate kiss, he held her close, as if he were her second skin. His hands, lost in her long, brown tresses.....her deep chocolate eyes, full of love for him. They moved together like there was noone else in the world but them....she ran her finger nails across his back as he quickened his pace. It was clear, his aim was to please her...I could tell the way he moved each time she whispered into his ear. They clung to one another like their lives would end before his body clasped on top of hers....I smiled at the dazed looks on their faces. Her eyes closed as she gleefully played in his hair. “I love you”. I heard him whisper, knowing she loved him just as much. Sango and Miroku really are made for each other. Now don’t get me wrong.....I wasn’t watching my friends make love to get my rocks off! I just.....they looked so happy, so in love, like me and InuYasha used to be. Warm tears begin to fall from my eyes, I tried to run but I tripped over a large bucket. Sango’s head instantly popped up while quickly grabbing her kimono.

“Kagome?” She whispered while tying her clothing.

“Oh....Hi there.” I didn’t know what else to say, I was blushing.

“Were you just....did you?” Sango was a little ticked off, her cheeks were bright red.

“No....I didn’t....I wasn’t-“ I sighed, knowing I needed to get myself together. “Have you seen InuYasha?”

“Well....it was the strangest thing, last night, he came back, he was in a daze. He looked like his whole world had ended. I asked him what the problem was, he walked right past me.”

I turned my back to her...so afraid she would think I was a whore after I tell her what I did. I didn’t even notice Miroku standing next to Sango.

“Kagome....what happened?” She was concerned. I said nothing. She knew then something was wrong. “Kagome, please.....you can talk- “

“I slept with Kouga last night!” I blurted out., my hands covered my mouth after I said it. I started to cry.

“I’ll be inside”. Miroku’s voice had such a disapproving tone, one he never used with me before.

I quickly turned to face Sango at the sound of Miroku’s voice. Her eyes widened, like she had seen a ghost. I stood there, waiting for her judgement, waiting for her to yell at me....to tell me what a careless slut I was........she didn’t, she just embraced me. Sango wiped my face gently with her hand. We talked for a long time about what was going on with me, she told me that regardless of what happens between InuYasha and I.....she would always be my friend. It was the monk who had nothing to say to me. He just looked at me, I shouldn’t be surprise.......InuYasha is a good friend of his. Men have their ways of sticking together. It was refreshing to know that Sango was by my side, I had doubts about coming back to this era again. As I sipped on my tea, I sensed that Miroku was annoyed with my presence......I left soon after I finished my tea. I could hear Sango telling him off as I walked away.

Great, I’m starting shit where ever I go. ‘God what else could go wrong?’ Dammit! I hardly finished my thoughts when more trouble came my way. I let out a scream as I fell to the ground. A huge blade was embedded in the tree I was leaning on, inches from splitting my skull. Laughter rang out at the sight of my cowering.
“Aaliyah?”

“Hmph.....I missed.” She spat out, looking down at me, with her hair blowing in the wind.

I was so pissed, I had a mind to jump on her but I remembered shes a youkai....I was no match for her, not without my arrow anyway.

“You could have killed me you know!” I jumped up yelling at her.

“Yes....I know.” She answered coyly as she cleaned her claws with the tip of the blade she hurled at me. “And I would have...however, Koga would never let me hear the end of it and who wants to hear him bitch and moan about the murder of his little mortal princess.” She hissed the last part of the sentence out. God....she was so beautiful yet so damn mean!

“Oh, so you just wanted to scare me huh?”

“Why yes....just wanted to see you piss your pants.” She said while sniffing. “Hmm... by your stench, I can tell my little stunt worked.” She let out an evil laugh.

My hands longed to just slap her, I haven’t felt like that since....since Kikyo! I placed my hands on my hips “Well, Koga had no problems with my scent last night!” What was I thinking? My frustrations got to me, my mouth ran a bill my ass couldn’t pay! Aaliyah could kick my ass easily. I backed up at the sound of her growl.

“Little bitch!” She hissed. I screamed as she took to the air, her claws ready to strike me......’I’m dead!’ I thought. My eyes opened once I realized she didn’t hit me. Koga......he caught her in mid air......he saved my life. His arms were wrapped tight around her, she was unable to move. He whispered to her as she struggled to get free.
“I’m sorry......I’m so sorry.” She turned away from him, still fighting to get free. “Aaliyah....I can’t let you kill her.” He whispered. I watched the two struggle....her knees buckled after what he said. He held her as she fell to the ground, never had I seen Aaliyah show such weakness...she burst into tears.......I couldn’t bare watching this strong youkai female break down, not when I was the cause for her pain.

My heart sank to the pit of my stomach. I felt so horrible for all the trouble I caused. I decided I should just go back home....back to my era, where I belonged. Thoughts of InuYasha flooded my head. How can I make this right? For hours, I roamed around the forest....wrestling with the reality that perhaps InuYasha would never forgive me, that what we once had was dead....at my hands. My eyes widened in shock. I saw Rin playing near the large water fall, I smiled. No doubt, the little one was likely chasing Jaken....’Wait, if they’re here, that means...” My thoughts were interrupted by the sight of InuYasha laying in the tall grass with Sesshomaru. I knew they were making attempts to work out their years of family dysfunction in respect for InuTaishou’s memory.....About damn time they got the picture! InuYasha....he looked so hurt...almost broken and its all my fault. Sesshomaru’s presence quickly snapped my mind back in focus. He must have picked up my scent....I stepped back the second he appeared. Knowing he could smell my fear, I took a long breath before I spoke.
“Sesshomaru....I- “

“Not one word”. He said cooly, cutting off my sentence.

“I-I just-“ I couldn’t get my words out, not with those amber eyes staring a hole through me...my blood ran cold....I didn’t want to look at him.

“Do you not listen?.......I said, not one word!” His voice raised slightly. InuYasha was still laying in the grass. “Look at him....haven’t you done enough harm?”

“It wasn’t my intention to break his heart”. I managed to whimper out. Sesshomaru always made me nervous.

I swallowed hard as he stopped short in front of me....he was angered by my statement.
“I grow so fucking tired of you mortals and your damn intentions.”

I was shaking. “B-But Sesshomaru, I ...I didn’t mean-“

“Oh....Kagome you never do mean to....you are a mortal......just like the rest of them, you lie... you cause trouble. You might as well have put him to sleep for fifty years or try to take his life, just like that cursed wench Kikyo did”.

His words were so harsh, so judgmental. I wanted to tell him what a stuck up, prick he was but I was afraid of him. I looked up at him, his silver hair waving wildly in the night wind.
“I-I’m nothing like Kikyo!”

“Oh....right, you just used your body to hurt him instead of an arrow!”

That heartless prick! I could not believe he went there! I felt my face grow from warm to hot......he was out of line! “Fuck you.....cold hearted youkai bastard....you crossed the damn line!” My hand throbbed from the slap I gave him. I feared him no longer. Sesshomaru slowly faced me, a twisted smile slid across his face.

“Oh, I crossed a line with you..... did I?” He purposely raised his voice, knowing InuYasha would jump up. Quickly, he leaped up from the tall grass. With his fists clinched in anger, his eyes darted back and fourth between me and Sesshomaru, as if he wasn’t sure who to side with. The feeling of sadness and betrayal hit him once more. InuYasha turned to me, his amber eyes full of unreasonable hatred for me.

“No...you crossed the line bitch!.....You did that shit last night!” His head turned slowly at the wicked sound of Sesshomaru’s chuckling.

“Come little brother....let us be off now.” His cold, deep voice cut through me. What hurt worse then anything, was InuYasha, he looked at me as if I was Naraku before turning away. He followed his older brother off into the night. The two disappeared within seconds. My heart must have broken into thousands of pieces as I ran to the well, sobbing with every step.

As I sat in my back yard, studying the moon, thoughts of Sota, my father as well, invaded me. I closed my eyes, remembering how Sota and I , piled into bed with mom after father’s burial service...we must have slept for hours We felt so safe, like no more harm could reach us. I remember how InuYasha stayed up with Sota when I couldn’t.....I hated to see my little brother in so much pain. I always felt like he was too young...too little to suffer the way he did. Sota....he always tried to be so strong and positive through all his pain, even when he lost all of his hair, he shrugged it off.....cracking jokes about his new “hair cut”. How I often wish for his strength...everything just fell apart when he left mom and I. My whole life was on a downward spiral and I wanted it all to end. For the first time in my entire life.....I wished to join Sota and my father in death. I prayed to the gods to just take me right there. I had nothing.....noone. My mom is just a shell of the woman she once was, grampa.....hes taking care of her. The one person who was at my side, I pushed away....broke his heart. I’d be better off dead, I thought Unbelievable huh, having that feeling at the young age of 17. I picked up my arrow and prayed for the strength to drag the razor sharp edge across my wrist......I flinched as blood poured from my broken skin....it stung......God how it stung! My head was spinning like never before..... I felt tears running down my cheeks and a voice.....a strong voice I hadn’t heard in what seemed like forever. I can still feel their grip on my wrist....followed by a warm, tight embrace.
“Kagome......KAGOME!”



My mom and I almost stayed up all night. I told her what happened....EVERYTHING. She was so calm as she brushed my hair..... that always brought me comfort. I just knew she was going to yell or tell me how I could get a bad reputation for such behavior but she didn’t. She was however, concerned about me having sex at such a young age.....guess she didn’t want me to follow in her footsteps, having children at this age. We stayed up most of the night, talking about how things have changed, how hard this year has been for us. Mom apologized for not being there for me....its not like she could control her breakdown, hell, I’m about to have one myself. One of the most important things she told me, was that she would be lost she’d be without me.
“You will always be my little girl....I can’t loose you.” She said, while looking at my now wrapped up wrist. She couldn’t stop hugging me. We both started tearing up....I felt like we were on some Life-Time movie special. Still, InuYasha, was on my mind and she knew it. I leaned my head on my mother’s shoulder.
“Mom, how...how can I make him forgive me?”

“Oh, honey....you can’t make him forgive you.....its just not that simple.”

I sighed, she was never one to sugar coat the truth.

“Kagome, you have to understand that your actions did indeed sever his trust in you. That fact that he spent so much time trying to be there for you and you went to someone else does not help the issue either. Not to mention all the time he spent taking care of Sota when you were at school and I was working.” She added. I hated it when she was right.

“I do understand that....I told him..but he won’t listen and Sesshomaru isn’t making things easier.” I was pouting.

“Well, he is his brother. If the tables were turned, you think Sota would be happy to see InuYasha?”

I didn’t answer, again, she was right. “Well, mom...what am I supposed to do?.....I can’t be without him!” I was tearing up again. She held me close, just like she did when I was little.

“Give him time and his space. InuYasha must sort his feelings out, in his own time.”

“What if.....what if he can’t forgive me?” My voice was shaky.

She let out a long sigh. “Then you must move on, take it as a learning experience of what NOT to do in your next relationship.”

Next relationship?? My god...I can’t even conceive of loving another person! My love for InuYasha, is something so deep, so unconditional.......I can’t begin to explain it. I know my heart will stop without him. I’d walk through hell drenched in gasoline for the chance to take away his pain at my hands....not to mention, any pain brought to him by others in his past. After we talked a little while longer, I fell asleep with my head in her lap. Mom refused to leave my side, I must have scared her...shit, I scared myself. I knew she was speaking the truth...about everything. I even took her advice, I left him alone....gave him his space. I hardly went back to his era, while I did miss Sango, I thought it best if I just stayed away. Sango did tell me that Koga and Aaliyah broke up......no matter how hard she tried to forget what he did, she couldn’t, so, she left his pack. So much for the ookami youkai mating “for life”. While I felt bad for him, I couldn’t help but wonder....if that was the fate InuYasha and I would suffer.