By My Hands

~*~Chapter 2~*~Prelude~*~

Kikyou drank in the warm smell of Sesshoumaru. She missed him so much, she couldn't believe he was alive. She turned her head and opened her eyes, she saw his neck and a scar. A scar she made, it was completely off the mark of death. Kikyou had spared him on purpose. Through her tears that night, she had missed her target only injuring him. She cried harder at this, she didn't mean anything like this to happen to him.

"Sesshoumaru... I'm sorry. I tried to kill... and now you... but I didn't mean..."

Kikyou was talking through tears. Sesshoumaru held her and they sat on his bed.

"Kikyou, take a deep breath."

Kikyou wiped some of her tears and took a breath. She crawled out of his lap and sat across from him. She went into the kitchen to get 'the kn. Sh. She returned holding the knife out to him.

"Sesshoumaru, I did it. I was the one. I killed them. I d tod to kill you, I couldn't! I couldn't bear to watch you die! Sesshoumaru I'm so sorry."

"Kikyou... I thought..."

"That's why I ran. I couldn't live my lies. I love you Sesshoumaru, I'm so glad you're here with me."

"Kikyou, I know what you've been thinking. Do you remember when I came here?"

"Yeah, you were in the army. I was so glad to learn I had a brother."

"That's not true. I... I'm not your brother."

"What? What does that mean? Are you?"

"Kikyou, I am from the army yes, but to protect you. I was sent to to protect you. You're parents were plotting to kill you. I couldn't let that happen. With me here they couldn't make a move."

"Sesshoumaru, you're not going to arrest me?"

"No Kikyou. I'm glad you killed them. I'm not going to take you to jail."

"But Sessh. I killed two people in cold blood! And you... you're a soldier!"

"Kikyou, we were waiting for them to die. The military was plotting arrest and invasion of this house. They were gonna do it the day after you killed them."

"Sesshoumaru, I'll still be killed. If they find out. I'll be sent to death row."

"Kikyou, don't think like that. You have me. I'm just so glad you're safe..."

Sesshoumaru leaned forward to her, his fingers brushing against her face. She held his hand there, it was like heaven and beyond to be with him again.

"Sessh... I love you... I couldn't bear it that night... I have the scar to prove it..."

"Show me."

Kikyou took his hand and placed it on her neck. The tns fns felt loose around her collar bone and he looked beneath his hand. A large pink scar was there. Long and jagged and deep.

"Kikyou... promise me..."

"What?"

"Promise me... you'll never... hurt yourself again..."

"Sessh... I promise... I don't want to hurt. I want to be with you."

"Kikyou..."

He pulled her into a tight hug she lay on him. He was so comfortable with her. Everything seemed warm and cozy. He pulled a sheet over them.

"Where have you been?"

"Oboko Katachi Strip Club."

"Kikyou... you've really been dancing?"

"Yes Sesshoumaru. I've been there nearly a month. They've taken such good care of me. I even made friends there."

"Kikyou... I want you to come home..."

"Anything Sessh... anything..."

"Aishiteru Kikyou."

"I love you too Sessh. Always have."

There was silence for a long time. Just two people, two lovers wrapped in the strands of emotions. It was just love, pure unbreakabove.ove. Sesshoumaru held her for a long time. Kikyou kept starit tht the scars. The scar on his neck, the scars on his arms. 'Did he cut himself?'

"Sessh? Did you... did you cut yourself?"

"Yes Kikyou. I couldn't bear it knowing you might be hurt... or worse..."

"Sessh, what was it like?"

"What do you mean?"

"How long did it take for this..."

Kikyou touched the scar she made. She was wondering just how much she had hurt him.

"Almost a month Kik... I became anemic... needed a lot of blood... I fell into a coma and just woke up last week. Kikyou, I don't want you to worry about me. I'm fine now, and still alive dontcha know?"

Kikyou laughed, for the first time in almost a month. A real genuine laugh. Sesshoumaru smiled and stared at her. Kikyou looked up at him.

"I'm so glad Sessh, SO glad..."

Kikyou looked into his eyes, how distant they had become. The eyes of an empty life. She couldn't bear them. She closed her eyes and kissed him. Sesshoumaru couldn't do anything, he was pinned to the bed by her. He started to kiss her too, almost raping her mouth with his tongue. Kikyou pulled away from him.

"Sessh. Not yet. Please..."

Sesshoumaru smiled and nodded. He hugged her one more time, then he hopped of the bed and put his shoes on. He had sort of a punky style to him. He slipped a tie around his neck, it had flamed on it. He had long silvery hair, and a crescent moon tattoo on his forehead. Long loose black jeans held up by a belt and chains. Kikyou loved the way his attitude showed. He went where he wanted and nobody had ever questioned him. She stole another one of his ties, it had a small gold star at the bottom. She slipped it over her head and put on one of his spiked bracelets. He smiled at her, loving they way she could be so comfortable with him. He picked her up bridal style and carried her to the kitchen.

"Hungry?"

"Starving."

"What do you want?"

"What do we got?"

'We' Sesshoumaru almost melted at that word. It was like they were married and living together. Almost like they were living a normal life.

"Well... for breakfast? Or lunch? You know I'll just tell you..."

Sesshoumaru opened the refrigerator and all the cabinets. They were all empty. Kikyou laughed again. She didn't realize Sesshoumaru had only been there one night and didn’t have a chance to go shopping.

"Sessh... how'd you find me?"

Sesshoumaointointed to a small ad on the table about Oboko Katachi Strip Club, it featured Kikyou on the front with the name and number and address on the bottom. Kikyou sighed and noticed that one of her boobs was hanging out of her bra. She quickly flipped it over before going over to hug Sesshoumaru again.

"We better go get some food..." Ki sai said stomach growling, "I'm gonna pass out."

"How about I take you out? The Asa Hato?"

"Oh, yay! Sessh!"

Kikyou jumped from her barstool and hugged him before searching his pockets for the keys. She gave him a lusty stare as she searched his back pockets for the keys to the car. He smiled back and let her find them. She smiled in contentment and ran for the door.

"Race you!"

Sesshoumaru full blown jumped over the counters and ran out the door just after Kikyou who had already reached the drivers side door. She eagerly pushed the key in the ignition and turned it, the engine replied in a low growl and a few rumbles of power. Kikyou strapped her seatbelt in.

"Buckle up cause this is going to be a bumpy ride!"

Kikyou yelled out before driving off quickly taking the side roads. Sesshoumaru felt his stomach turn at every corner the car turned, it felt like a er cer coaster. Kikyou slowed down when she got to the main road and easily parked the car in front of the restaurant. She hugged Sessh with her left arm and he put his arm around her shoulders. Tsmilsmiled at each other and went in to eat.

They had filled their stomachs and had already gone shopping for food, to use for the rest of the week. They were sitting on the couch, at about 3:00 in the afternoon the phone rang. Kikyou was staring at Sessh while she walked, she couldn't believe she had him back and wasn’t about to loose him again. She eredered the phone slowly carefully making out her words.

"Hey Kikyou! Are you coming to work today?"

"Akira... I don't know. Maybe I can bring Sessh with me?"

"You found him oh good! I was getting worried. He's okay?"

"Yeah, I'll tell you later. Be there soon..."

Sesshoumaru had turned around so that he was kneeling on the couch watching Kikyou twirl her little body around in the phone cord. He couldn't wait to hold her again. Hten ten spent most of his time thinking about her. Always holding her when she was here. He watched her hang up the phone and come over to him, hand behind her back. He knew she wanted something, the look in her eyes had a longing, begging look in them. She kneeled down in front of him resting her head on his knee.

"Sessh."

"What is it now Kikyou?"

"Will you come to work with me?"

"What? Kikyou!"

"But Sessh, please! I can't just abandon them. And I don't want to leave you here!"

"B"
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"Sessh... it'll be fun! You can see what I've been up to... you can meet Akira and the other girls and... (with much hesitation) Inuyasha..."

"Mmm... Kikyou... Okay lets go then..."

"YAY! I love you Sessh, I know you'll like this!"

"How could I not love you and a strip pole?"

"Umm... I dunno... C'mon already!!"

Kikyou grabbed his hand and pushed him into the car. Driving quickly, but obeying the speed limit, she rushed down the rain slicked streets of Tokyo to the parking lot of the home that was so familiar to her. She got out locked the doors and hugged Sessh while she walked. Getting in the front door was no problem, the problem was trying to restrain Inuyasha and Akira from asking to many questions. Akira was excited to see Kikyou back home and so happy, she was also a little aroused by Sesshoumaru. Inuyasha had a most depressed and unhappy look on his face. Inuyasha couldn't believe this woman, who was within his grasp, had fallen out of reach. There was no way Kikyou would go back to Inuyasha now. She introduced Sesshoumaru to Inuyasha and Akira and anyone who walked by that was someone she knew. While answering a few of Sesshoumaru’s questions, she led him down the hall and unlocked the door to her dressing room. Her dressing room was red, it had a black couch and black curtains. She stood at her mirror admiring and examining her figure. Sessh wat her her, apparently turning him on even more. Kikyou sat him down at the bar and told Akira playfully to keep an eye on him for her. Sessh laughed at that and waited for the show to begin.


Kikyou stood, half was white. Half black. One side of light, purity, serenity. The other side black, of darkness, flustered and unsettled. Even her hair was lightened on one side, just highlights. And a red band around one leg. Standing behind the deep black curtains, somehow she knew Inuyasha was there too. But that didn't matter to her. HE was here now, HE the one she loved. And now she would show him her true nature. She’s not always the horny dancer, hugging the pole and crawling on the floor. She was a woman, a true beauty, something important. Something wonderful.

"Play me Survival..."

A man at a DJ's booth nodded to her and flipped the record in his hands before blasting the club with a guitar anthem. This was her song, the lyrics didn't count, but the beat. Just rocking her emotions, making her hot. Getting her ready. Its all about survival... "Survival of the Sickest".

"One, two, three, four!!"

At the first transition of music, right after the man yelled "four" she burst out on stage. HERE I AM! She had a sort of bounce in her walk, letting the music take her over. 'Sessh loves this song, he practically owns it!' She looked over to Sesshoumaru who was sitting comfortably on a bar stool. A shot of tequila in hand and downed it in one gulp. Watching her.

Aha! A solo! Kikyou flung herself on the stage and then back at the pole, hair flying in different directions. Leaning forward, breast dangling in air just behind a vinyl restraint. How she wanted to rid herself of this restraint, how she wanted Sesshoumaru to take her now. She could sense, rather feel Inuyasha’s cool eyes staring at her, judging her again. Making sure she was still a virgin. She felt his gaze soften to his amusement that she was still untouched. He gave a small laugh and watched her closer. Kikyou motioned for Inuyasha to come closer, slowly flexing one finger. Inuyasha already seduced walked, floated to her.

"I'm a roller baby, I'm a rider baby! Ease down and wrap your legs around me baby. Wrap your legs around me!!"

Sesshoumaru’s heart raced, Kikyou leaned down and kissed him hard and good.vingving her tongue down Inuyasha’s throat. Music jumped again and Kikyou threw Inuyasha back to a couch. Inuyasha looked up, satisfied with this new personality Kikyou had taken in the music.

Kikyou leaned over the pole, watched its shiny silver surface as she twirled around it. She grabbed it and started to shake her head violently in circles before jumping the pole. Straddling it and slowly slid down it, making her even hotter. She was to far in now. She threw her head back, Inuyasha catching a glimpse of her eyes. Her bright breyeseyes turning slowly crimson. Inuyasha sensed that she was getting into it now. Another solo in the song before the end. Kikyou on all fours on the stage. It had lit up and she was breathing heavily. Her eyes slowly returned to normal, and she giving one last stare jumped off the stage. She went over to Sesshoumaru who had stayed completely calm tholehole time.

"Well..."

"I loved every second..."

Sesshoumaru gave a lusty smile before kissing Kikyou. He leaned her back a little and releasing her mouth hugged her. Kikyou was unsure of weather Sesshoumaru had gotten angry at Inuyasha or not. He was her boos, and what the boss says... GOES. Kikyou whispered lowly to Sessh who shivered at the feel of her breath hitting his ear.

"Sessh, I want you to be the one. Not him."

Sesshoumaru nodded, it was getting late. He was surprised at how many people came here for their evening entertainment. He asked Kikyou if she was hungry, she had smiled at him before taking him into the back room to eat some rice and ramen before her next show.

"Sessh, I got one more show and..."

"And..."

"Will you be my pole?"

"What does that mean?"

"Let me use you, then I'm yours. Tonight."

Sesshoumaru thought about this, if this is what she wanted. He didn't mind that she was trading one show with him for virgvirginity. He just hoped Inuyasha wouldn't get to her first.


Kikyou had set Sesshoumaru in a big leather armchair in front of the stage. She was going to give him the lap dance of his life. Sesshoumaru’s heart pounded, it was finally coming to an end. Not for real, but Kikyou was the one. The only one he wanted.


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THE FIRST DANCE FOR SESSH, KIKYOU LOSING HER VIRGINITY. INUYASHA GETTING JEALOUS!!

NEXT: OVERTURE!

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