Learning to Love

Disclaimer: I don’t own Inuyasha, nor do I make any money from this.

Here’s another one for all my lovely readers, I’m still working on kicking the writer’s block fully, but it’s getting a little better as time goes on.

Warning there is a Lemon in this chapter, it will not be marked, also Sesshoumaru will be having to get a little rough with Kagome, but bear with me, it all works out in the end.

And now on with the show!!

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It hadn’t taken Sesshoumaru long to find a deer. It was grazing about a mile and a half from where the camp was. He moved in for the kill and snapped its neck before it even knew he was there. He refrained from cutting the deer right there because he planned on bleeding it out back at camp. His mate needed the straight blood, whether she was ready to drink it herself or not.

When he got back to the camp he couldn’t see his mate or daughter immediately because the dragons had hidden them well between them. The red dragon was sleeping and the green one was laying there staring at him as he quietly entered the camp. He nodded his approval to Ah-Un, and then collected a few bowls and an empty water container. He had left the deer at the edge of the clearing to collect what he needed.

When he returned to the carcass he hung it by its hind legs from a branch, then he severed its head in one swift swipe of his claws. The blood flowed in swift streams into the bowls he had placed below the carcass. He held the water container under one of the streams and allowed it to fill. It would be from this container that he would feed his mate. The rest was surplus he would drink later or give to Kagome if she took well to the blood.

He didn’t let the carcass bleed out completely. He decided to let Kagome eat her fill before making her drink the blood. Once the carcass had bled out to his satisfaction he skinned it and set it over the fire on a spit to start cooking. He build up the little fire until it was a decent size to cook the deer more quickly, then walked over to where Kagome and Rin were sleeping.

Kagome looked extremely ill. Even resting for as long as she had, the black circles under her eyes hadn’t disappeared at all, and her skin was looking much paler than he remembered from that morning. He listened carefully to her and noticed her breathing was slightly labored as well. Rin was looking much better than she had the previous night, and was currently cuddled to Kagome’s bosom.

Sesshoumaru became increasingly worried about Kagome. All of the delays they were experiencing were quite literally killing her and the pup. They would have no choice but to fly to the Western Palace tomorrow to make it there in time to maintain the health and safety of everyone involved.

Sesshoumaru walked over to the deer and turned it for a while. He sensed his mate stirring not long after. Instead of coming over to the fire she made a mad dash for the bushes. He thought she was going to empty her stomach again, but was relieved when he heard her just relieving herself normally.

When she reemerged from the bushes she made a B-line toward the roasting deer. Her eyes had an almost predatory look to them. Rin was still sleeping soundly, so Sesshoumaru gave her a nod telling her it was alright to go after the deer. She lunged at it like a starving animal, taking several large bites from the carcass while it was still over the fire. She ended up scalding her mouth and had to lean back to take a drink of water to cool her mouth. She coughed a little but seemed to be back in control of her senses but the wild look in her eyes hadn’t completely left her. She had exposed the warm red center of the meat with her teeth, now thinking more clearly she whipped out her knife and began cutting off chunks off the deer. Before too long, half the carcass was gone and Kagome was looking quite a bit better. The dark circles under her eyes had all but disappeared, and her skin had regained a little of its color, and the wild look in her eyes had also disappeared, but her body was still far from where it should be.

Sesshoumaru decided then that he would have to take her away from camp to give her the blood, because her body was practically starving for it, her reaction would be unpredictable and he refused to subject Rin to anything that could harm her, mentally or physically.

He grabbed the blood filled water container and walked over to the dragons. He knelt down beside Ah-Un and whispered in his ear.

“No matter what you hear do not come near us. Stay here and protect Rin, be certain that she doesn’t hear what is about to happen. Know that it is for my mates own good.” The look in his eyes told Ah-Un that this was a very serious matter. He looked down at the water container, knowing full well what it contained, then looked over to Kagome. He didn’t quite understand, but knew whatever he was going to do to her wouldn’t be pleasant. However, the male before him was her mate, so he would have to trust that he knew what was best for her. Both heads looked at Sesshoumaru and nodded before moving closer to Rin and Akane. Un laid his head down and started to growl a soothing rhythm. Rin rolled over and curled against his muzzle.

Knowing that his daughter was taken care of he went over to his mate and scooped her up in his arms, eliciting a startled ‘eep!’ from her, before running off in the direction of the hot spring.

He knew the added sound of the water would help to cover up any of the sounds of a struggle that were sure to happen. The spring would also provide a way to get cleaned up once all was said and done. The Kami knew he would have some major sucking up to do when all of this was over.

“Sesshoumaru what are you doing? Put me down.” Kagome said trying to struggle out of his grasp, but to no avail, her body was just too weak. Sesshoumaru did put her down, much to her surprise. Then he started stripping and neatly folding his clothing on a nearby branch. He had remained silent the whole time, and this was causing her to worry. However she was easily distracted when his pale skin was exposed to the night air. She had to check herself when she found her eyes following the imaginary line from the crescent moon on his right shoulder to the one on his lower back. It was damned near impossible to keep her eyes from wandering lower than that when he took his pants off. Her mouth began to water when he turned around, and a pang of disappointment went through her the she realized that he was leaving the loincloth on. Her attention was drawn to the water container he was carrying toward her, and her curiosity quickly won out over her hormones, well for a few moments anyhow.

She was just about to ask him about the container, but before she had the chance he pulled her to his chest. The moment she made contact with him, his hand shot up into her hair tilting her face upward to meet his descending one. His lips crashed onto hers in a kiss that took her breath away. His kiss put her into so much of a haze that she never noticed him stripping her own clothing off.

Sesshoumaru was having an extremely hard time keeping his beast in check. He was keenly aware of his mates’ confusion and arousal the moment he began to disrobe. The smell was heavenly, and the closer he got to her the stronger it got. By the time he was within arm’s reach, he momentarily lost control and by the time he regained his senses he was engaged in a very heated kiss with his mate. He took advantage of the situation and began to slowly slip her clothing off. She seemed none the wiser, but he would have to ruin the mood soon, although his crotch was throbbing painfully begging for release. He had to test Kagome and see if she would be able to drink the blood willingly. If she did then they could continue where they would leave off here and see where the evening would take them. However, if she did not, the he would begin fighting for her forgiveness the moment he finished force feeding her the blood.

He was suddenly knocked out of his musings when he felt her hand slipping down his waist. He knew for a fact that if her hand made it to where it was heading, there would be no turning back. His hand slipped quickly down to stop hers. She broke away from his kiss and gave him a hazy confused look. Both were breathing heavily by this point, and his willpower was weakening by the second.

“Mate we have to stop this, as much as I wish to continue, this is not why I brought you out here.” He said as he lifted the water container. “This contains some of the blood of the deer you ate earlier; your body needs it desperately as does the pups’. I am going to give you the chance to drink it on your own.” He said holding it out for her to take. The haze slowly left her eyes as she looked steadily at the container.

“I see, I thought you were behaving strangely…I will try Sesshoumaru, but that is not to say you may not have to ‘assist’ if I cannot force it down.” She said giving him a grim look. She had surprised him with her willingness to try, and her acceptance that he may have to force it into her.

She slowly took the container from his outstretched hand and sat down cross-legged on the ground. She stared at it for a few minutes before popping the top off and taking a small sip. Her eyes widened and she began to cough violently.

Sesshoumaru caught the container before it hit the ground, and waited for his mates coughing fit to subside.

“I….I can’t do it, the taste…it is the taste I can’t handle it…” She gasped as she tried to regain her breath.

“Then you will have to forgive me mate, there is no other choice but to force this upon you. I will not be holding back…” She looked up at his kneeling form, but didn’t have a chance to respond as his lips once again crashed down upon hers. He pushed her onto her back and forced her mouth open. She began to struggle when she felt and tasted the pungent liquid filling her mouth. He held her down and didn’t release her mouth until he was sure she had swallowed. She only had a moment to catch her breath before he forced another blood laced kiss upon her. This continued until the container was empty. By the end she was hardly resisting because her body was exhausted, but she was still heaving, as her body kept trying to expel the blood.

When she had swallowed the last of the blood he finally relaxed his grip on her, and gently licked the blood and tear trails off her face. He undid the ties holding her chest binding and unraveled it from her; he then undid the ones holding her undergarments on, then finally undid the ties to his own loincloth. He then gently picked up and carried Kagome into the swirling waters of the hot spring.

He situated her to where she was sitting sideways in his lap. She was still coughing every now and then. He felt her discomfort in his own stomach every time it threatened to expel its contents, but she refused to let it happen. As she sat there she took deep calming breaths and rinsed her mouth out several times, this seemed to help somewhat. Every now and then she would rest her head on his chest when she wasn’t trying to keep her stomach in check.

He held her the whole time, one hand was busy rubbing her lower back gently and the other was resting on the hardly noticeable bump on her lower abdomen. During the times she would rest her head on his chest he would rest his head on top of hers.

“Ugg…that tasted awful…why did you choose tonight to do this, I thought we were going to reach your home tomorrow?” She said in a slightly scratchy voice, when she coughed a little to try and clear it, but it turned into a small coughing fit. Sesshoumaru patiently patted her back and waited until she was finished.

“Your body was getting weaker far faster than I had originally anticipated, I am not certain what will happen when we reach my home, but I know for certain you would need all the strength you could possibly get beforehand. My concerns also lay with the pup. You were not taking in enough blood to properly nourish the pup, and because of this it was taking what it needed from your body. You still have not taken in enough but it should be sufficient to get you to the Western Palace.” Sesshoumaru said. He had smirked when she had stiffened when he had implied that she hadn’t taken in enough blood. His hand that had been resting on her abdomen moved to gently lift one of her hands out of the water and kissed the bruised wrist. He repeated his actions on the other wrist. He then moved over to her shoulder, spending a few moments nuzzling the crescent at the base of her neck, and then moved up her neck and across her jaw as her head lolled back. He pulled back slightly and moved to kiss the dark blue crescent on her forehead. Then he kissed a path down her nose, finally making it to her lips. He slowly pressed his lips to hers before pulling back and resting his forehead on hers.

“I keep forgetting your body isn’t as sturdy as mine. I constantly have to remind myself to be gentle with you and yet I still end up injuring you. My instincts keep pushing me to protect you from everything, but how am I supposed to protect you from anything if I cannot even protect you from myself.” He whispered. His eyes were squeezed shut, the pain he was feeling was written all over his face. Kagome looked up to him. Her heart was reaching out to him, but she knew he was beating himself up for things he had no control over again. She leaned forward, cupped is face in her hands and gave him a long and tender kiss, but he barely responded, in fact it looked like her kiss was causing him even more pain.

“Sesshoumaru, I love you. You have given me everything I have ever dreamed of; a loving mate who would do anything he could for me, and the greatest gift of all. You have given me the children I have always dreamed of having, but never thought I would have. As for these bruises,” she said holding her hands up, “They will be gone by morning. I am not as fragile as you make me out to be, they are in there own way proof of your love for me. You knew how badly I needed to drink that blood, but if you had not held me down as tightly as you had, I never would have swallowed the blood, and would most likely have tried to escape many times before the task could have been accomplished. I do not blame you, nor am I angry with you. I knew what was going to happen the moment you told your plan to me.” Kagome whispered back, tenderly caressing his cheek.

“It is the exact fact that you never blame me, or get angry with me, and that you forgive me unconditionally every time that makes me feel even worse. I don’t deserve your forgiveness.” He whispered, the pain he was feeling was clear in his voice.

“My love, you have nothing to feel this way about. I love you, that is why I always forgive you. I know you do not intentionally hurt me; you would die before you did that. I know you love me so much so that you tear yourself up inside every time something happens to me, by your hand or not, and that makes forgiving you even easier. You must learn that you cannot protect me and our children from every little cut and bruise. That is how children learn. If your training was anything like mine, we were always black and blue and bloody as we learned. I imagine when our children come of age they will go through the same process, and you will have to sit back and watch. What do you think will happen to me when our child is born? I will be in a great deal of pain, I will say things I don’t really mean at the time, and there will be nothing you can do for me then either. So stop feeling guilty about these little things and come to accept that they will happen. Focus on protecting us from threats other than yourself, because if you are always focusing on yourself, some outside threat will be able to easily slip past your defenses and possibly harm those you care about.” Kagome said still gently stroking his cheek.

“It is myself that could do the most harm to all of you. If I lost control…I…I do not want to think what could happen to you…Look at what happened last time my beast got loose…What if it happens again, I don’t have the strength to pull him back once he is set loose, no demon does.” He said turning his head away from her gentle touch.

“My father used to tell me something when I was small, ‘You must always believe in yourself and follow your path without fear.’ Your beast is a part of you, and I know he cares about me now; he will come to care for Rin as well if he hasn’t fallen for her already. When you are uncertain or worried, I will be there for you. I may not be your equal in power but I was put on this earth for you. If you need me I will give you every last bit of my strength. Whether you believe me or not, I am certain that you beast cares for me, and that he will never hurt me again…” Kagome said turning his face back so he could look her in the eyes. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

“The gods must surely be smiling on me to have gifted me with you.” He said with a smirk, but there was still some guilt in his eyes. Kagome smiled at him and kissed the tip of his nose.

“They gifted us to each other.” She smiled then frowned when she noticed he still looked upset. “After all of this talking you are still feeling guilty? Fine if you want to be guilt free again and make me very happy I want you to agree to one request.” She said crossing her arms over her chest and narrowing her eyes at him.

“You have but to name it and if it is within my power I will gladly comply.” He said just as seriously. He felt a nervous twinge when her eyes lit up with mischief.

“Very well then what I want you to do is just sit there and no matter what I do you cannot move or make any loud sounds, am I understood? Kagome said. The mischief didn’t waver in her eyes for a moment as she moved to straddle his lap.

“Very well mate, but what are you planning to d….” He never got to finish his sentence, because at that moment Kagome had grabbed him roughly by his genitals and was currently rubbing her thumb over his tip. His hips jerked and he let out a moan, and then yelped when Kagome jerked him roughly suddenly.

“I told you no loud noises koi.” She growled in his ear. He nodded, then let out a sigh when she released her tight grip and began to gently stroke along the length of his shaft. Her soft, gentle strokes quickly became more demanding, and it took everything in his power to keep from calling out and wantonly thrust himself into her pumping hand.

When he cracked his eyes open to look at his mate she had a devilish smirk on her face. Her unoccupied hand slipped down from his shoulder to one of his tightly clenched fists and guided it to her core.

“Play with it mate, make me come all over your hand.” She whispered in a husky voice into his ear.

Sesshoumaru wasted no time. He quickly uncurled his tight fist and began to tease her clit. The moment his fingers made contact she moaned loudly and began thrusting her hips into his hand. Her hand kept pumping him in time with her thrusts. He continued to hold himself back, he wanted desperately to just grab her and lay her out on the grassy patch near the spring and pound into her for all he was worth until they were both thoroughly satisfied; however he had given his word.

His beast was also strangely quiet; normally he would have to use every bit of his power just to hold him back by this point. When he sought out his beast in his mind he saw him laying there growling contently at the back of his mind. He didn’t have time to contemplate the strange occurrence, because just then Kagome’s back arched and she began jerking on his hand as her climax overtook her. He bit back his howl as his climax also overtook him and his hips jerked involuntarily as he emptied his load into the water. Both were breathing heavily and Kagome was leaning on Sesshoumaru for support as she caught her breath.

“I did not know you had such a wicked side mate…”Sesshoumaru whispered as his heartbeat finally began to return to its normal pace.

“There are many things you have yet to learn about me Sesshoumaru, and who said I was done with you? My appetite for you is far from sated. Now that we are both reasonably clean, how about you dirty me up in that patch of grass you have been eying since I started my little punishment…” Kagome said lifting her head to look at him and let him know she was far from being done with him. As soon as he saw the unveiled lust shining in her eyes, his hard on returned with a vengeance.

In the blink of an eye he had them out of the water. She shivered in delight as the cool night air made contact with her wet skin. He laid her down on the soft grass, looking at her laying there spread out so invitingly was his undoing. His beast surged forth and claimed Kagome’s lips in a rough passion laced kiss. When she moaned, the beast took it as a positive sign to continue and immediately thrust into her, pounding into her with all the abandon his master had been planning earlier. Kagome pulled away from the beasts’ passionate kiss and screamed her joy into the night as he pounded roughly into her. His mind jarring thrusts were exactly what she had been craving. It took her no time to reach her peak once again. Once she had finally come down from her high, the beast picked up his speed trying to reach his own end, and before too long a roar and a very happy cry rose to the heavens. The beast sank his fangs into the crescent mark he had placed on her shoulder, and then winced when he felt a similar bite on his own neck. Their mates’ teeth were sharper than the last time she had bitten him, and her thirst was much greater. She drank greedily from him, and he allowed it to help her replace what she had lost.

As she drank from Sesshoumaru, the constant gnawing pain in her gut lessened. The deer blood combined with that which she was taking from him was enough to finally sate her hunger. When she had had her fill she pulled away from his shoulder and licked the wound she had made until it closed.

“Now this might just be me, but I believe that this gets better every time that we do it…” Kagome said with a tired laugh.

“I agree wholeheartedly koi…” Sesshoumaru grunted as he slowly slid out of his mated tight sheath, both moaned from the sensation. “I think we both need another bath my love, because for some reason beyond my reasoning we both seem to have gotten quite dirty.” He chuckled as he picked her up and headed back toward the spring.

Back in the clearing Un had continued to growl soothingly to Rin, adjusting the volume when necessary to drown out the screams and howls that echoed into the night.

Akane had woken up a little while after their new masters had left, Ah reached over Un and nuzzled her muzzle. She grunted then lay her head down beside Un and began mimicking his growls to the sleeping child. Ah kept a careful watch over the clearing.

Not too long after the loudest of the calls had echoed toward the heavens, the male returned with his woman soundly asleep in his arms. He noticed the woman’s’ color was better, but the male was slightly paler than when he had left. He laid his woman beside the child, and then walked over to the blood he had left in the bowls and proceeded to upend every one of them. He then made a motion he was leaving for a while, his reasoning became apparent when his top slipped away from his neck just enough for Ah to see a fresh bite mark on his neck. He grunted and motioned for him to go. Sesshoumaru nodded back and disappeared in the next instant. About an hour later he returned looking quiet refreshed.

“Sleep now Ah-Un, we have a great distance to cover tomorrow and you will need your strength to be refreshed before then. You have done well guarding my family, and for that I thank you, now allow me to keep watch for the remainder of the night.” Sesshoumaru said quietly. Ah and Un looked at each other before nodding at him and laying down to finally get some rest.

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Well there it is folks, hope you all enjoyed, please leave a review to let me know what you all thought of this!!