Blood Stained

Thanks for the reviews,
just a little note on those who commented for a beta. This story is further ahead in other website, and I think around chapter 20 I got a beta.

Also, to explain the other mistakes which could be labeled as "easy" well, I've known english for 3 years it is NOT my first language, so sometimes some mistakes will go past me which english born people would easily spot.

Blood Stained

Chapter 17: Shadow of a Love & Complications

His red eyes immediately seemed to warm up as he saw her figure appear, his pain lessening. It felt as if it had been way too long since he had been graced by her presence, and he had missed everything about her, including her scent. Right away, he walked in her direction, before wrapping his arms around her waist, pushing her face against his muscular chest. She was still so shocked that all she could do was nearly suffocate against his kimono, as he ran his clawed fingers through her dark locks. His nose was buried deep through her hair, taking in her scent, making sure to memorize it, in case he would have to be far from her once more. Against her will, tears came to Kagome's eyes, as every touch he had laid on her body came back to her mind, and she shook her head against his hold. She had obtained such freedom, and had begun to feel better while he was away, and she had no desire to have that taken away from her once again. Knowing him, it wouldn't be too long until he took her body once more, and she refused to let it happen again. Just the thought of his hands on her body was enough to bring a feeling of sickness within her. Kagome pressed her tiny hands against his chest, desperately trying to push herself away from him, as she fought the tears off.

Sesshomaru could feel her trying to struggle away, but he kept holding her tight against him. He sighed heavily against her forehead, his heart heavy, as her fighting against him refused to stop. It pained the beast to think that maybe Sesshomaru was right; the more he pushed their mate, the less she seemed to appreciate his actions. Although, it left him completely confused. Sesshomaru refused to have any type of feelings, and kept saying it was useless, and you didn't need that to go through life with pride and respect. It left the beast with thinking that physical love would eventually bring Kagome to love, and respect him, but it didn't seem to work. But, nothing else had ever been felt, than lust, and the beast only knew that way to express his love towards their mate. Sesshomaru was not much help into helping Kagome into loving them, since he didn't wish for her love, and attentions, which left the beast all by himself to figure it out.

"Why do you wish to be away from me?" he asked, extremely serious.

Kagome couldn't help but scoff. "Are you serious?" He couldn't possibly be asking her this in all seriousness, not after everything he had put her through.

Finally, he pulled away from her, his arms still loosely wrapped around her waist. His red eyes were staring deeply into her red ones as he nodded, a slight look of confusion written all over his face. His mate was confusing sometimes, and he didn't understand some of her pointless questions; why would he ask if he was not serious? He watched as a flash of pain went through her eyes, before she began to bite down her bottom lip, as if she was trying to come up with an answer. Truthfully, Kagome didn't even know where to start. After everything he had done to her, wish one applied to the main reason why she didn't want to be anywhere near him? She looked away, tired of feeling his eyes on her, and she stared down at the floor, before sighing heavily.

"Because you're a monster." Kagome backed away, trying to create some distance between them. "Because you raped me, you took me away from my friends, took my freedom without asking me. You forced me into a life I never wanted, and all you ever thought of was yourself, and you own selfish desires.”

The beast did care about her feelings, and he desired her love, which meant he didn't wish to hurt her, but sometimes she made it so difficult. From what both the beast and Sesshomaru were used to was respect, and in this time period, females knew their place, and none of them would raise their voices at their husband or mate. Although her feistyness could be enjoyable sometimes, right now, it was most disrespectful. Although he explained it to her many times, she didn't seem to understand that as long as he took her as his mate after taking her the first time, he was blessing her with a great honor. Every day many women were wed against their will by the parents, or many youkais took and overpowered the female they desired to mate, it was just how things were done.

But, it seemed it was extremely pointless to explain things to her since no matter what, she kept her anger towards him, holding his actions against him. Sesshomaru closed his eyes, before extending his arms, reaching out for her hands. Quickly, he took her hand in his before guiding her towards the bedroom. Actually, he was dragging her with him. Now that Kagome had her second taste of freedom, she was going to fight to keep it, so she grabbed his fingers, trying to break his hold around her wrist. Of course her strength was nothing compared to his, and he ignored the tiny feeling he was getting from her struggle, and kept dragging her, her feet squeaking against the floor as he did so.

"Let go of me," she said, still desperately trying to free herself. Kagome was trying to keep her voice not too loud since they were still out in the hall, and Rin was often hanging on around there.

Never stopping in his tracks, he turned his head. "Be quiet," he ordered, his tone extremely harsh which reminded her of Sesshomaru, the real Sesshomaru.

Nearly afraid it would provoke him into doing something she did not wish for, she remained quiet, but she still tried to free herself from his hold. Quickly enough they reached Sesshomaru's bedroom, and Kagome closed her eyes as she had a pretty good idea of what would happened there. Technically, she was somewhat wrong. It was true Sesshomaru desired some privacy with her, especially considering the fact he was angry with her, but mostly, he did it so that whatever would happen between them would occur away from everyone, in their bedroom. Personally before anything happened with her, he needed to make sure her health was much better. Sesshomaru had been so excited to see her again; he had not bother to ask the servants if her health had improved. Although, she must be doing better since she was up and out of bed. Unhurriedly, he opened the door of the bedroom, forcing her inside with him, before guiding her towards the bed.

The simple sight of the bed was enough to make Kagome’s stomach twist in horror. He had barely been back, and already all he could do, after asking her such senseless question, was take her again? Could he not do anything else? Even a harsh punishment, that didn’t involve anything sexual, sounded much better that whatever he probably had in mind. Sesshomaru put his hands on her waist before sitting her down on the bed, as she looked away from him. Then, he released her before grabbing her little hand with his, as he went down on his knees. Kagome held her breath in as she observed his actions from the corner of her eyes, and watched him as he laid his head on her thighs, her hands pressed firmly against his exposed cheek. It felt as if his markings were burning her skin, and she could remember the first time she had seen him; she had wanted to run her fingers through his silver locks, and run her fingertips across his markings, in total admiration. The ironic thing was, now she was free to do it as much as her heart desired, but she had no wish to do so, since it would repulse her.

Although she had always feared Sesshomaru a little, considering the fact he had tried to kill her the first time he saw her, she still thought he had a heart, and that somewhere deep inside he wasn’t as cold and emotionless as he presented himself to be. She had indeed been somewhat right, since the beast had an overflow of feelings, but it wasn’t quite what she had in mind. Loving someone to the point of raping them, and mating them against their will to make sure they are yours wasn’t exactly what someone would expect. It seemed with Sesshomaru there was no middle, simply two extremes; too many feelings, or none at all. If they were back in her own time, she would recommend him to see a psychiatrist. After all he sort of suffered of a double personality problem, and she meant it literally. Things wouldn’t be so bad if only the beast didn’t think his actions brought her satisfaction, and happiness. He kept saying he wanted her to be happy, but it came with the boundaries that she had to remain by his side and love him, but these conditions were the exact reasons why she was sad.

The beast’s breathing was extremely slow as he enjoyed the contact. Despite the fact that he knew she didn’t want the contact, since she was silent, and not struggling against him, it made him believe she did enjoy this, and it caused him to finally be able to relax. He was tired of fighting her all the time to obtain her attention, and this was a nice rest from all of it. He raised one of his hands, and rested it on the side of her leg, slowly moving his hand up and down the length, warming up her skin at the same time. As soon as he began his actions, Kagome froze, her heart beating like a drum inside of her chest. She could deal with him resting his head on her laps, as long as he kept to himself, after all, that was much better than him raping her. Kagome knew if she had pushed him off, it might have made him angry, and he would have forced her into something she didn’t want, so she simply remained still as he rested upon her legs. Except now, he had pushed the limit, and broken the barrier of her comfort. Kagome began to try and pull away from her, but he dug his claws inside of her tight, before rising up to his feet, his eyes staring at her, never looking away. He walked closer towards her until his knees reached the edge of the bed, before he set about to bent down over her. His larger body was covering her as he put his hands on each side of her head, keeping his weight off of her. Kagome’s eyes were tightly shut, as she should have known this was coming, and it was all he had in mind from the start.

“Don’t,” she said, opening her eyes, staring straight at him. Her voice was quiet, but her tone was extremely demanding instead of suggesting.

The beast couldn’t believe she asked him to submit to her wish and desires when it had to be the other way around. He growled loud enough to cause a gasp from her before he crashed his lips against hers forcefully. Kagome whimpered against the touch, putting her hands on his head as she attempted to push him away from her. Sesshomaru ignored her as he slowly began to push his tongue against her tightly shut lips, and easily gaining access inside her mouth. He had greatly missed the sweet taste of her lips, and hungrily, he intensified the kiss, even under her protests. Yes, from what he had understood she didn’t enjoy being pushed into doing things, but she also refused to obey his authority. If he couldn’t have neither willingly from her, he would have to take at least one of them by force. He had no desire to bring this upon her, but by arguing with him like this every time, she gave him no other choices, and contrary to what she believed, it also hurt him when she was in pain. This was not all about her.

“Why won’t you submit?” he asked, after pulling away from her lips, which were slightly red and swollen from his attack.

“Because then you’d be willingly taking it from me.” She would stick to the same thing she always had; if he was going to have it, it would be against her will, and never any other way.

“Would that be so horrible?” Surely things would feel much better for her if she tried to want this, and her life wouldn’t be as miserable.

Kagome wanted to answer, but instead she remained silent because at the moment she was pondering many ways she could stop him from exercising the action he intended to do because she had no desire to return to the darkness. Even though she felt stronger, he still managed to suck the life out of her every time he was around, and she wanted to hold on to the little joy she was experiencing. If he cared about her like he said he did, there had to be a way to convince him from not doing this right? That’s when an idea came to her mind, and even though he might not cared about it, especially since he had taken her once while she was sick Kagome was willing to give it a shot. After all, even if it didn’t work the result would be the same, so she had nothing to lose.

“I’m not feeling well.”

As soon as the words escaped her lips, Sesshomaru moved so he was no longer on top of her but beside her. He slowly sat on the edge of the bed, before helping her sit up, all of his movements extremely careful. She had no look sick at least nothing like what he had experienced before he had left, and he doubted her words, but his concern for her was present, and he was willing to listen to her. He lifted his hand, before pressing it against her forehead, before coming to the conclusion it was only slightly warm. Did that mean it would get worst, and she would have fevers like previously? He searched for her eyes, waiting for her to give him an explanation. Kagome knew she was a horrible liar, but she hoped she would be able to pull it off. It made her insides twist to think she was lying, but it was much better than having to suffer his actions once again.

She put her hand on her chest, acting as if she was slightly breathless. “I’m not sure, I feel weak.” This was the best she could come up with, and even that wasn’t a great lie. Hopefully it would create enough doubt in the beast’s mind to leave her alone.

The beast nodded, before scooping her in his arms bridal style, and taking her away from the bed. Kagome was slightly panicked since she had no idea what was going on, but at least he was moving her away from the bed so it was a good sign. Quickly enough they were closed to the bathing area, and Kagome had a look of confusion written all over her face; why was he taking her there? Carefully, he put her down on the ground, before backing away from her.

“Take off your clothes,” he said his tone surprisingly gentle.

Kagome’s tiny hand crisped into a fist, as she backed away from him. “What?” she asked, even though she had heard his words very well. She thought he had taken her away so they wouldn’t have to do this.

Sesshomaru sighed, obviously annoyed. “I will not risk you having a fever. Remove your clothes, and go in the water.”

She stared into his red eyes, extremely reluctant, but even she knew this was better than him raping her, so, her heart heavy she began to remove her kimono. She turned around so he was facing her back, before she completely removed everything, leaving her naked, her ass exposed to him. Unknown to her, since she couldn’t see him, Sesshomaru was doing the same, and was now standing completely naked. He quietly began to walk her way, making sure she wouldn’t hear him and turned around, and only stopped before their bodies touched. Then, he grabbed her by the waist, earning a gasp from her, before dipping her into the water, her body firmly pressed against his. What the hell was he doing in the bath with her? Kagome had expected him to stay in the same room, but not to join her.

“What are you doing?” she asked, her tone very angry, which displeased him.

Sesshomaru was doing this to help her, yet she dare use that tone against him once more. “I will wash you. There is nothing to be ashamed of, I have done it before.”

Kagome scoffed, not believing his words. “Wash me? Is that all you will do?”

Without giving her a verbal answer, he nodded before grabbing a cloth, and dipping it into the water. He would indeed wash her, throughout, and he doubted she would have much of a complaint about it. He positioned himself properly, his back pressed against the edge before moving Kagome so that she was firmly secured in between his legs. Then, he pressed the cloth against her shoulder, and began to wash her body, very slowly, since he wanted to enjoy this moment, even if she was tensed. Her whole body was extremely stiffed, and she barely kept herself from bulging away in disgust every time she felt his fingertips against her skin. She simply closed her eyes, and told herself this was better than what he could actually do to her, and that she would pull through this.

“Why do you love him?” he asked, breaking the silence.

Kagome didn’t even have to ask to know he was referring to Inuyasha. Why did she love him? Actually the right question should have been why did she ever love him? Quite a good amount of time had passed since that faithful day, and Kagome had gone through a lot more things than she had ever imagine. Deep down, she found herself wondering if she actually still loved him. She could still remember when she had proclaimed her love in front of her friends, and Sesshomaru, but now, she was not as sure anymore. Already before any of this occurred it was hard to believe she was willing to put up with all of his bullshit, but now how could she even ever consider going back to him? There was no turning back, and maybe in the end, Inuyasha and her had never been meant to be. Kagome did believe that things were pre-destined to happen, even though she had absolutely no idea why this was happening to her, and one day she was bound to realize Inuyasha wasn’t the right person for her. Not that Sesshomaru was the one for her.

When his movements ceased, it brought her back to reality, and she opened her eyes. “I don’t,” she said, her voice void from any emotion.

Sesshomaru did not seem one bit surprised by her answer. “The hanyou always was worthless.”

Kagome was immediately startled by the change of his voice, and she backed away from his hold, so she could turn her head and look at him. To her surprise, she found herself staring into the same red eyes she had been staring at ever since he had been back. Gently, she repositioned herself, thinking that maybe she had imagined the whole thing. Maybe she was lacking some sleep, because apparently the real Sesshomaru hadn’t come back; there wasn’t even a hint of amber in his eyes. The beast looked extremely angry, as he made sure she was comfortable again, before resuming her washing. He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself, as he pushed her hair out of his way.

“Why did you love him?” he said, correcting his tense.

For a second Kagome forgot whom she was with, and where she was, as her mind filled with her first memories of coming to the feudal era. She could still remember her uncontrollable urge to pet Inuyasha’s ears the first time she had seen him, and how peaceful and defenseless he had looked. No screaming, yelling or betrayal, simply a scared, lost little puppy. In the beginning, she had felt how broken his soul was, and it had simply called out to her, begging to be fixed. Inuyasha was trying so hard to put up a hard façade in front of everyone, but she had seen right threw it from the beginning. Then, he had begun to open up to her, and share his feelings, and even though Kikyo came into the picture, she refused to give up because Inuyasha didn’t give her any reason to. After all, even when he picked her, he still acted the same towards Kagome, and would get angry if anyone, per example Kouga, would dare to proclaim their love for her. A tiny smile appeared on her face as all the adventures they went through came flowing back at her, and she found herself missing her old life, and the old Inuyasha. Unfortunately for her, all of it was gone, and after such drastic change there was no going back. Even for her; if she did free herself from Sesshomaru she would never be the same Kagome that went into the springs to take a bath that night.

“Because I fooled myself into believing he was everything I wanted.” Then, her voice became like a whisper. “He was my first love.”

Sesshomaru’s hold on her skin grew tighter as her words replayed in his mind. He refused to have the hanyou hold any special importance for her, and it upset him that he represented something so important to her, even if she said she did not love him anymore. He gradually calmed himself with small breaths before resuming his previous actions. Sesshomaru was nearly done with her back, and he knew the front was coming, and that she would probably have something to say against that, not that it mattered to him. He dropped the cloth in the water before holding her by the shoulders, as he began to turn her around. Slowly enough, her core rubbed against his erection as he turned her and he enjoyed the sensation. Kagome had her hands pressed against his chest, trying to keep as much distance as possible between them. Sesshomaru slid down his hands until he reached her hips, and pushed her closer to him, forcing her to wrap her legs around his waist. She frowned at his action, as the distance she had formed between them was completely broken. Why did she have a feeling he would not be faithful to his words?

“What are you doing?” she asked, making sure her face was not too near from his.

He bent down his head slightly before licking his mating mark, jolts of pleasure going through his body causing his erection to grow even more. Then, he nibbled the crook of her neck, before laying soft kisses over the junction of her neck and shoulder. “Making mate feel better,” he simply stated as if it was obvious.

Kagome began to shake her head as he put his hand on her lower back, before arching her back giving him a much better access to her breast. He had no intention of enjoying her body tonight, on the account that she was indeed still feeling sick, but he would taste her. Sesshomaru knew she was struggling now, but in a few minutes she would be enjoying herself. He licked his lips before launching himself at her nipple, taking it in between his teeth, slightly biting before easing the pain away by sucking on it. Soon her breasts would engorge would milk, and grow in size, as they would get ready for the arrival of their pup. Sesshomaru couldn’t stop himself from sliding one of his hands down to her stomach, pressing it against the slight tiny bump that was developing. For now, he would not have her, but he knew once her stomach was swollen with his pup, there would be no stopping him, the sight would be much too erotic.

He was gently scratching her stomach with his claws, not leaving a mark, as he kept on sucking on her breast. As he looked up, he could see that her eyes were close, and her lips slightly parted, as her breathing rate increased. Kagome was cursing him under her breath, as she tried to minimize the sensations going through her. Technically her body had no reason not to react to his every touch since he had always made sure to bring her pleasure every time he laid his hands on her. Although it did not mean she appreciated it, sure it didn’t hurt physically, but the own betrayal of her body hurt every single time.

“Don’t,” she whispered. Why had she believed that if she agreed to this bath, he would not do this?

With one of his hands, Sesshomaru grabbed both of her wrists together, stopping her movement. “I won’t,” he said, still maintaining his hold.

Kagome decided to believe his words for the moment being, hopeful that it would not go any further. Sesshomaru guided her hands until her arms were around his neck before releasing them. Something in his eyes told her that the safest way to play it was to keep her hands where he had placed them. He moved his hand down her body, until her reached her curls, and he ran his claws through them, causing Kagome to hold her breath. Gently he inserted one finger inside of her, causing her to immediately clench around him, trying to keep him out. Her body was tense as she began to struggle again, but he put one of his hands behind her head, stopping her.

“This is for you,” he said, his voice extremely soft.

How could this possibly be for her? Could it really be possible that he was so stubborn that he believed the harder he tried, the more she would enjoy it? Ignoring her obvious displeased expression, he began to move his finger in and out of her core, at quite a rapid speed, causing Kagome’s body to warm up even more to his touch. Gosh he desired her, he wanted her, but he was doing this for her. If she was indeed sick, all the stress she put on her body was not helping, and he wish to help her relax. His mate really stressed herself over nothing, unlike Sesshomaru who didn’t let anything or barely anything affect him. He carefully watched her face as she closed her eyes once the pleasure increased. Sesshomaru was being mindful of his claws, and by now he knew very well all of her little spots, and how to hit them just right. Of course he could do a much better job with his cock but that would have to wait a little.

He could feel the amount of juice inside of her growing, as he rubbed against her walls, in a hurry to bring her to her climax point. Against her will, her hips were buckling under his touch, trying to increase the sensation, and he smirked in satisfaction; if only he could get her mind to react as well as her body this would be easy. Being mindful, he slowly began to turn around, exchanging their positions so that she was now the one pressed against the edge, but he kept a very close distance between them. It allowed him to nearly make her lay on the water, while he held her to surface, giving her better access, to push his finger deeper inside of her. His eyes never left her face as he felt her clench around his finger, and he knew it wouldn’t be too long until she gave in. To help speed up the process, he added another finger inside of her, causing a moan of pleasure to escape her lips.

“No,” she said breathless.

This whole time Kagome had done her best to keep her sounds at a minimum, struggling against his every action. Her body had no problem with what he was doing, but she did, so, once again she was still trying to fight it off. It was working a little better this time but she assumed it was because it had been a while. This time though, there was no tears at all, and none were coming, which was almost a surprise. Maybe all of this had succeeded in making her much stronger. It didn’t mind she appreciated her situation, but perhaps it was easier to deal with things? No longer was she hiding inside her mind, pretending to be somewhere else. The reality was not prettier, and it was still filled with darkness, but she had enough to courage to face it instead of hiding. Nonetheless, it made it hard to fight him off when he was doing this, especially considering he had the upper hand with his youkais abilities, and he could basically hold her down into any position he wished to.

“Please,” she asked nearly begging. “Don’t do this.”

Sesshomaru covered her body with his while still keeping her head from under the water, and quickly sank his teeth into his mark on her neck. Kagome whimpered in pain, as blood began to flow from the wound, leaking onto her breast, as he lapped away the rest. Surprisingly as he did so, it did not bring her more pain but instead more pleasure. That new found sensation mixed with his fingers inside of her was enough to bring her little self-control, and quickly enough her juices began to pour out of her, causing Sesshomaru to growl in satisfaction. Once he was sure her climax was over, he removed his fingers from inside of her, but his mouth remained over the mating mark. He had been quite satisfied by her release, but something was now bothering him, and he couldn’t chase it away.

In a blink, they were both out of the water, Kagome safely tucked into his arms. She didn’t even have a chance to open her mouth that they were already in the bedroom, and he was carefully sitting her down at the edge of the bed. One second he could hardly keep his hands away from her, and now he was acting very cold and indifferent as if she was facing the real Sesshomaru and not the beast. He walked in direction of the closet where he kept all his clothes, and picked up two of his own trademark kimonos, before walking in her direction, with both in his hands, was still being completely naked. He then covered her naked body with the kimono, which was obviously too big, before managing to tie it up. Sesshomaru honestly would have preferred her naked, but he was making an effort to make her comfortable. Kagome barely nodded, as she remained on the edge of the bed, before he began to dress himself loosely.

Then, he turned his head in her direction with his eyes still red. “ You should get some sleep.”

Without another word Sesshomaru exited the bedroom leaving her completely by herself. Kagome sighed in relief to the fact that she had managed to escape him for at least a night, and slowly let her back hit the bed. While she was grateful she couldn’t help but wonder what had caused him to be in such a rush to leave her side, when it was usually so hard to keep his beast away from her. But, she decided to not ask too many questions. Even though she was quite displeased with her current sleeping quarters, she wouldn’t take a risk in angering him, and decided that since he expected her to sleep, it was safe to rest in his bed. Ever since she had been sick, Kagome was being mindful of her health, and she knew at least six hours of sleep were required. She crawled higher in the bed, before sliding under the covers, although she didn’t quite need it; she was literally swimming in his kimono. Once again, she would have preferred not to wear his clothes, but it was better than being naked.

While Kagome was trying to drift away into dreamland, the beast was trying to find a quiet room, within an acceptable distant from his mate. He had accepted Sesshomaru’s request to be in control during the day, but quite a few things were going wrong today. The beast was the only one who was supposed to take over whenever it wanted, yet, Sesshomaru had somehow broken through during the time him and Kagome were bathing, and his words were unusual. From the way he sounded, it was as if he cared, or as if he had been paying attention to the conversation but problem was, he hadn’t. That didn’t concern the beast so much, because he had a slight idea what was happening. After all, him and Sesshomaru were in the end but one person, and it was only normal that at some point, they couldn’t remain separated. A youkai should be at peace, and one with his beast, or Sesshomaru was in conflict with his, and consequences were bound to happen.

They were always meant to be one, and bad things could happen if they remained in disagreement with one and another for too long. The beast wasn’t sure what would occur since it wasn’t a common situation, but he had an idea; eventually they would merge, or at least something that resembled that. Or maybe one side would win complete control, and totally overpower the other one? It was very risk territories, but one thing was for sure, neither side which for it to reach that point, since it became out of their control. The beast had already made compromised by allowing Sesshomaru control during the days, but Sesshomaru seemed not as lenient to make a deal, perhaps because he didn’t realize how serious the situation was. But, the beast would make sure to explain to him something had to be done, or they would both be penalized. It desired nothing more but to have Sesshomaru come to a term with the mating so things could go back to the way they were.

Also, another thing on the beast’s mind was how weak the bond between him and Kagome was. When he had bitten over the mark earlier, he had been unable to feel what he should have felt. There was no connection between them, and he wasn’t sure what the main reason was. It could be because Kagome was not a willing participant in the mating or because Sesshomaru wasn’t. One way or the other, this was totally out of the beast’s control, and there was nothing he could do about it. Well, he could try convincing them, but so far it had proven not to work. But he didn’t know how to explain that she was simply theirs, and that her powers were beyond what anyone could imagine? Only she could be worthy of their blood and power. It was a shame their mating bond was so weak, since neither of them could obtain privileges and more from the mating. If only they were both able to see that things would not change, and that no matter what they were mated to each other. But first of all, he needed to talk with Sesshomaru.

Why did you spoke when you were not allowed?

Actually the real question should have been how, since Sesshomaru had never been able to break the beast’s control before, but it was not his main focus at the moment.

This Sesshomaru does not know.

Sesshomaru had wanted for a breach like this to happen for a while now, and it was surprising that it happened when he wasn’t expecting it. He hadn’t been paying attention to the miko’s useless rambling about the hanyou, so it had been a shock that all the sudden he had been the one reacting and talking to her, commenting on her words.

You do know what will happen if nothing is done?

Yes, this Sesshomaru is vaguely aware of what will occur. Maybe you should give up on the miko.

Perhaps you should realize there is no way out. I will lose nothing in this, but you might.

Sesshomaru knew his words were true, because up until now, the beast had never been quite free, and this new found freedom meant very little to him, since in the end, he would mostly win, and he would feel an attachment towards the miko. Yet, he refused to willingly care for her, but he would most definitely find a way to stop this.

Do not concern yourself with this Sesshomaru. Your pity is not needed.

So be it. But you will be penalized in the end.

The beast slightly rubbed his forehead before exiting the room he had been in. It was his time with his mate and he had wasted more than enough time talking with Sesshomaru. He hurried to make it back to the room, nearly hoping she was still awake. But of course as he opened the door, he found her in a deep slumber, completely buried by the clothes and the blankets. A smile appeared on his face as he walked in her direction, before sitting on the edge of the bed, right beside her. Gently he brushed her bangs away from her face, his eyes completely fixed on her perfect angelic features. Slowly he bent down, before pressing a soft kiss against her heated forehead, and she never even bulged. Satisfied with her lack of reaction, Sesshomaru moved so he could join her in the bed, and quickly, he spooned her, his arms wrapped around her tiny waist. He nuzzled his face in the back of her neck, the heat of her skin very present, and he found himself slightly worried that she would be sick once again. He closed his eyes, but remained awake; he would stay that way until the sun would rise, with his mate safely tucked in his arms, protected from all harm.

He would protect her, no matter what.

Sesshomaru could only lose.

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