Lust or Love

Lust or Love


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Lust or Love?

 

An
alternative fanfic created by Phlie.

 

 

WARNING!!!!
This chapter contains explicit sexual details, and even though I know
most of you have been waiting for this, I urge you not to read this if you are
under 17.

 

 

Chapter 15 – Innocence Lost,
Knowledge Gained

 

 

She
couldn’t believe what she was seeing.
Right before her eyes Inu Yasha was changing. His cute little doggy ears were slowly
disappearing, almost as if they were moving down the sides of his face and liquidly
forming perfect ‘human’ ears. His hair
now dangled slightly in front of his face, and that’s when she noticed that his
beautiful silver hair had black streaks in it, and was rapidly turning darker
with each passing minute. ‘He starting to look like…oh, no’, her
mind screamed out. ‘I can’t believe I didn’t realize this before! Everything makes sense now.’ She continued to watch him transform, not
saying anything. Her mind was too
jumbled with this new information. It
wasn’t until the transformation was complete and Inu Yasha raised his now
clawless hand up to push his long, silky black hair from his eyes that she
really realized the full impact of what had just occurred. She looked into his now violet eyes and saw
the last rays of the sunset reflected in them.
And then it was almost completely dark and he had missed what he so
desperately wanted to see.

 

Inu
Yasha looked at her again briefly before the sun went down. He had expected to see many expressions play
across her face, but the only one he had the chance to see was anger. He sighed outwardly. He had known that this would probably have
been the case, but he had hoped that it wouldn’t end like this. He just sat there with his head hung low,
waiting for her to slap him, or worse, leave.
When a few minutes passed and he realized that she was also being still,
he looked back up at her.

 

Kagome
had been furious when she fully comprehended the meaning of the
transformation. ‘How dare he trick me like that’, she thought. ‘He
toyed with me and had me all confused!’
But something in the back of head kept telling her that she had really
known all along, known that Inu Yasha and her mysterious man had been one in
the same. ‘I guess I did, I even remember thinking that they had switched roles.’
She looked at Inu Yasha closely. He had bent his head down and seemed to be
waiting for her to do something, anything.
That’s when it dawned on her.
Even though she was upset with him, she had to admit that this now
solved all her problems with thinking that she was settling for less than what
she truly wanted. He was, and always had
been, her ideal man. Excitement coursed
thru her, but she had to make sure. He
lifted his head and just looked at her.

 

“Inu
Yasha, remember that I told you I had made a choice? Well, I met these guys and one lusted after
me while the other loved me. I was so
confused at first because I didn’t know which one I really wanted.”

 

She
paused to look at him. He looked very
confused. This was going to be
hard.

 

“The reason
why I was confused is because I really wanted both. I want lust with love. I want the one man who can give me
both.” She looked at him again. He still didn’t seem to understand what she
was trying to say. She had to show him.

 

She
crawled towards him on all fours. He
could feel the heat coming off her body in waves as she got closer to him. Reaching her destination, she put her hands
on his chest, pushing herself up until her mouth was almost brushing against
his. She glided her lips across his and
then quickly moved away before he could try to stop her. Tilting her head so that her cheek touched
his, she parted her lips and slowly started licking Inu Yasha’s ear lobe. His heart was racing. He had never felt any sensation like this
before. She was doing this to him, and
he didn’t want her to stop. His brain
barely functioning, he almost didn’t hear her whispering in his ear.

 

“Do you
want me, Inu Yasha?”

 

All she
got for a reply was a moan, almost a growl that started out low and then got
louder as she backed away from him and looked at his face. He opened his eyes and she got the answer she
wanted before even asking. There was
still a tint of passion in his eyes, but beyond that was
caring, patience, and love. But she
wanted to hear him say it. Somehow she
felt she deserved that much.

 

“Inu
Yasha, do you love me?”

 

He just
sat there for a moment and smiled sadly.
“Kagome, I have and always will love you.”

 

Inu Yasha
knew that she had never heard those words from him before, even though she
wouldn’t have remembered them, even if she hadn’t lost her memory. That thought bothered him,
and he stopped her as she was about to rush back into his arms.

 

“Kagome, what about your memory? What if
you never get it back? What if you get
it back but things have changed? I know
how our relationship was, but I don’t want you to think that I’m manipulating
you into a new relationship with me.” He
thought about all that had changed since her accident. She had changed in more ways than one. “Plus, what about your new
powers?”

 

Kagome
sat there for a moment, her head turned away from him, thinking about what he
had just said. She was a bit downfallen
since he had effectively ruined the mood, but she knew that his concern was
valid. Looking back towards him
resolutely she replied, “I believe that my feelings for you are so strong that
they would have had to come from my ‘other personality’. There’s no way I can imagine feeling this
strongly about it if I hadn’t always loved you.
And as for my powers, I am still in the same body, still basically the
same person. I think I would have
developed these skills in time. Just so
happens the new me is great at kicking butt!”

 

He had
to laugh at that. It was true
enough. Part of him wanted to continue
where they left off, the other part just wanted to be close to her. She made up his mind for him. Turning away from him she collapsed onto her
back and pulled her hands back behind her neck, cradling her head. She was staring up at the stars that had come
out and were now shining their light upon the two. He silently joined her, barely touching his
elbow to hers. They were both just happy
to finally be together, and they didn’t need words to express that.

 

For the
longest time they just looked up at the stars, both of them sighing from time
to time. He hadn’t heard her or felt her
move for awhile and he turned to ask her if she was alright, and realized she
had fallen asleep.

 

*
* * *

 

She woke up in the few hours
before dawn, not knowing at first where she was.  Her head was turned
upright and as her eyes became accustomed to the dark night she saw the stars
shining down on her.  She felt safe.
She turned her head to look at the sleeping form of a human Inu
Yasha. He looked so peaceful.  'Well, he looks more than peaceful', she
thought to herself.  'He looks
tempting.  Those beautiful lips. He looks like he needs to be kissed.
 That's how I would want to wake up.'

She couldn't help it.  She scooted closer to him and laid her head on his
shoulder.  At her movement, he turned his head slightly, bringing those
lips even closer to hers.  She reached up and slightly brushed her lips
against his. His lips were warm and inviting.  She ventured one more kiss
and was about to back away when his violet eyes opened.  She gasped.
 His eyes betrayed the fact that he had been awake the whole time.
 Yet, she could also see love and passion mixed in with the
mischief.  

He just looked at her for a moment, wondering if she had just meant to tease
him or if she was ready to give into him completely.  He was delighted to
see the blush on her face as well as the determination it took to keep looking
at him.  She wanted both.  He was willing to oblige. Slowly, he turned fully towards her and
lifted one shoulder up so that he was leaning over her. He brought his head down, as if to kiss
her. Her lips parted slightly, awaiting
his kiss. At the last possible moment,
he veered off and put his nose down close to her temple, sniffing in her warm,
wonderful scent. He rubbed his cheek
against hers and made his way down her face and onto her neck, caressing her
skin with his, but never stopping to actually kiss her. When he got down to her collarbone, he looked
up at her.

 

She looked as if she was
asleep. Kagome had her eyes shut and had
a peaceful look on her face. He had
expected her to look annoyed or even curious.
He leaned in closer to her, peering at her. That’s when she attacked. She put both her hands on his shoulders and
pushed as hard as she could. They rolled
a few times before stopping, with Kagome on top. She looked down at him sweetly before
extending her tongue out and brushing it across Inu Yasha’s lips. He sighed and parted his lips to let her
in. Her tongue delved into his warm
mouth, finding his tongue. He was
surprised by this, but utterly thrilled!
His hands reached up and encircled Kagome as their passionate kiss
deepened.

 

She was
straddling Inu Yasha and coyly repositioned herself to be directly above his
waist. She knew that she would have
total control over him as long as she stayed in that position. She wiggled around just a bit to reaffirm
that fact. He groaned at the feeling of
her pressing up against his manhood. His
mind was blank; all he could think about was the goal of making her his,
forever. Leaning down again, she started
to remove his fire rat coat and shirt, her fingers splayed out on his muscular
chest. She loved the feel of his
skin. She grazed her fingernails over
his nipples and felt his body jolt beneath hers.

 

Inu
Yasha pushed himself up, Kagome still straddling him, and caught her lips in a
searing kiss. Neither of them knew
exactly what to do. They were both new
at this and had no past experience to draw from. All Inu Yasha could do was let his body take
over. He moved his hands up to the
collar of her shirt, unbuttoning the lavender blouse. As soon as her shirt was open he got a whiff
of her scent, stronger now from the lack of clothing. Her natural smell was making his head
spin. Imagine what it would be like to
smell her naked body when he was in hanyou form again!

 

Kagome
moved her hands up to his shoulders. She
could feel his silky hair against the tip of her fingers and ached to run her
fingers thru it. She slowly intertwined
her fingers into his hair. Inu Yasha
broke off their kiss, but began lightly kissing Kagome’s cheeks and then down
her neck once again. This time, however,
he didn’t stop at her collar, but kept getting lower and lower. She tilted her head back and moaned with
pleasure as he reached her bra.

 

“There’s
a clasp in the front, Inu Yasha”, she whispered to him. Her voice was raw with passion, making her
usually sweet voice sound deeper and more sensual.

 

He found
the clasp and released her perfectly formed breasts from the garment. For a moment he just held her tight,
marveling at the feel of their bare chests pressed together, their hearts both
racing. He looked down at her chest and
smiled as he rubbed his knuckles along the sides of her breasts, then proceeded
to return the favor by grazing his fingernails over her nipples. Kagome groaned and her nipples immediately
hardened. Inu Yasha was quite pleased
with his work, but he needed more. He
pushed the blouse and bra off her shoulders and they fell behind her, then he
pushed her back gently until she was on the ground. Now he was practically lying on top of her,
her knees in the air with him in between her legs.

 

He moved
back slightly, dragging his body across hers until his head was almost level
with the top of her rib cage. He put his
head, face down, between her breasts and for a moment
he just let everything sink in. He
couldn’t believe that she was finally going to be his. He turned his head and reached over to grab
her left nipple with his mouth, gently pulling it in. He let his tongue roll over her hard peak and
was about to release it when he heard her cry out his name in sheer
delight. He felt his blood start to heat
and instead of letting go, he started sucking on her hard nipple, nibbling on
it now and again. He switched back and
forth between the two breasts, giving both equal time.

 

Kagome
couldn’t think. She had never even
imagined that something so simple could feel so good. They didn’t even have all their clothes off
yet! Inu Yasha had been caressing her
sides, but she began to notice that he had tightened his grip and had left his
hands at her waist. He was biting softly
on her nipples and gently tugging at them, and now he was moving his lower body
up and down against her. She could feel
how hard he had gotten and wondered if he even realized it. He had just moved his mouth away from one
breast and was seeking out the other when she managed to gather her thoughts
and speak again.

 

“Don’t
you think it would work better with our clothes off?” He looked confused for a moment and she
giggled at him. She stopped, though when
she saw that he was beginning to remove his pants and undergarment. She couldn’t move. It was like she was under a spell. She had never seen anything so masculine, yet
so beautiful. His body was perfectly
fit. Not too muscular, but lean and
sleek. She gasped and then realized that
he was tugging at her skirt.

 

Inu
Yasha began growling, not knowing how to get the infernal thing off of
her. He wasn’t familiar with
zippers. She reached her hands down and
undid the skirt, but left the job of removing it for Inu Yasha. He pulled it down some then realized that he
would have to either raise her legs and have her feet
on the top of his shoulders, to remove the rest of her clothing, or move from
his position on top of her. Not willing
to loose that precious place, he did the former. Both skirt and panties came off rapidly. He had jerked them off in his hurry to
continue making love to her body.

 

Kagome
took the hint and moved her legs back to their former position. Inu Yasha looked at Kagome. His eyes caressing every
single inch of her body. She was
like a masterpiece. And she was all
his. He dipped down again and placed wet
kisses all over her stomach as his hands stroked her thighs. He was careful not to touch his manhood to
her; knowing that would be the end of his control. He went further down with his kisses and then
looked up briefly for her reaction before he went any further. She seemed to have sensed his trepidation and
stopped moaning long enough to painfully whisper yes to him.

 

He bent
his head down and slowly licked her between her legs. She was so hot and wet, he couldn’t believe
he had been the one to do this to her.
He licked again. They both
groaned now, Kagome thinking about how good it felt and Inu Yasha thinking
about how good she tasted. She was
driving him insane with her taste and smell.
His tongue dove into her and she arched her back, lifting her thighs off
the ground. The feel of his rough tongue
inside her was almost too much for her.
He lapped at her, delighting in her softness. He could feel her tensing up, but didn’t want
her to climax just yet. He guided her
hips back down and then ran his hands up her body and around to the back of her
head. He moved upwards and claimed her
mouth once more, letting his tongue glide over lips. She opened for him instantly and her tongue
joined his. She could taste herself on
him and somehow that was oddly pleasing to her.

 

He
raised his head once more, silently waiting her approval. The sun was almost about to rise and in that
pre-dawn light he could see her acceptance in her eyes. He thought the easiest way to break her
barrier was to just thrust into her, getting it over with quickly. And that’s just what he did. She had gotten so wet from the foreplay that
he easily slid right into her. He waited
a moment before he continued, making sure she had adjusted to him. She was so tight and hot, he almost couldn’t
stand it. Kagome nodded her head
slightly and he began to move his body back and forth, gliding in and then
almost out of her. At first it was a gentle
rhythm, and she was keeping up with him, but that was before the sunrise.

 

As soon
as the first ray of the new day hit Inu Yasha, he was transformed back into his
hanyou form and with it came the animal lusts of a demon. He was still fairly gentle with her, but his
thrusts became harder and faster. Kagome
couldn’t keep up and finally just let his passion roll over her in waves. He was growling and panting as he came closer
and closer to his climax. He had grabbed
both her wrists and had pulled her hands behind her head. She looked so beautiful like that, her whole
body glistening in the sun, sweat pooling at her neckline and right above her
navel.

 

This was
so much different from the sensual feelings she had gotten from Inu Yasha’s
human side. This was down right primal,
but she loved it just the same. Once
again she was getting what she wanted. Lust and love. That
was the last clear thought she had before they both climaxed together. Inu Yasha spilled his seed inside her with a
sharp howl. He tilted his head back down
and bit her neck, right below her hair line.
That now marked her as his and the last piece of the puzzle fell into
place. Everything she had ever known
came back to her, flooding her with memories.
Kagome simply gasped.

 

Inu
Yasha collapsed on top of her and tried to catch his breath. Kagome had been silent since her climax and
when he finally could breath again he rolled off of her and gathered her into
his arms. She had a calmness about her,
not one that worried him, but one that he wondered about.

 

“Kagome,
my love, are you okay? I had to bite you
to mark you. You did want to be my mate,
didn’t you?”

 

Kagome
turned to look at him. Because he had
been her first love and only love and he had not deceived her about the nature
of their relationship, she knew that what he had just done was exactly what she
wanted. She just smiled at him and
brushed his silver hair away from his eyes.
She curled up next to him and watched as the new day came to life. This was the beginning of their future
together.

 

____

 

The End