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Sickness
Nicky123: Don't worry it really doesn't remain like that, it seems stale for the moment, but it changes. Trust me. This story is currently at chapter 26 at other websites, just I'm posting it for the first time. It doesnt remain hopeless Kagome, and big mean Sesshy. Just need to hold on a little longer ;)
Blood Stained
Chapter 12: Sickness
For a second, her whole body forgot how to work, and everything ceased to function. His words echo in her mind, as she watched him turn his head to face her. She hated those red eyes; she despised them. Ever since he started having trouble, she had to pay for everything. Why did she have to be punished because he wasn’t strong enough to control his own beast? He had taken away every single mean of defense she had, leaving her helpless, and alone. Kagome’s breathing was sharp, as the memories of his previous actions flooded her mind. Nothing she had ever done was enough to justify the pain he had inflicted on her. Why did he always have to come back? Why couldn’t Sesshomaru be around her without giving in? Before him, she had a life, before him she knew happiness, and he had coldly ripped everything from her.
Every time things hit a new level, it just had to show its face, and it made her sick. He was staring right back at her, almost as if he was expecting a reaction from her. He had taken everything away except her anger, and her voice. Kagome took a deep breath, before walking closer to him, knowing she was about to make a big mistake. She raised her hand, and smacked him across the cheek. “I hate you.”
Everyone had a breaking point, and she had hers a while ago, except, instead of blowing up, she had broken down to piece, but now, he had pushed a new limit. He had abused her, humiliated her, and pushed her pain to a limit she had not known before, and now he had dragged an innocent being into the mess. She had hidden herself from the world for days now, wishing it all away, but the life inside of her proved that all of this was real. Once again, she hit him on the cheek, the other one this time. “I despise you, I wish you had never taken me. I DON’T WANT TO BE HERE! I’m not happy, and I won’t pretend to be.” Tears were rolling down her cheeks as her anger came through for the first time in a while.
Kagome was aware of what he would do to her because of her actions, but right now, it did not matter. The fact that Sesshomaru hadn’t been able to keep his beast under control for even five minutes while he was around her proved the beast was there to stay. When he had left her alone for a few days, she had hoped that it was the start of something better and that she could hide away from him but he had showed her different. He had no control over the beast, and she couldn’t endanger anybody to come and save her. She was alone, and she had to deal with him herself, because nobody could save her.
She couldn’t deny that she was terrified, and more scared than ever, but his reactions, and the recent news had brought chaos inside of her head, and she was unsure of what to do. Once again, suffering had taken over her whole heart, and she was unable to stop anything from happening. Kagome held her head high as she stared at Sesshomaru, her heart beating like crazy inside of her chest, almost breaking free. The whole time she had spoken, and hit him, he had remained still as a statue, which was almost scarier than him angry. Kagome bit her bottom lip slightly as he remained in his position, looking as if he was not breathing. Then she suddenly jumped when he moved, and she couldn’t help but slightly back away from him.
Sesshomaru did not care about her fear, and immediately he put his hands on her hips, and bent down to go down on his knees. Kagome took in a deep breath as he pressed his nose against her exposed stomach, nuzzling against her skin. She couldn’t help the confusion that took her over, as he did not react to her words or actions, which was unusual. Of course, she decided to remain silent for the moment, waiting for some sort of reaction from him. Sesshomaru ran one of his hands over her flat stomach, sighing. “You are pupped, yet you are unhappy. You wish for pups do you not?”
Kagome opened her mouth, before closing it. It was obvious he had never listened to anything she had ever said, or he wouldn’t have said such non-sense. Who would want to get pregnant in such a way, by such a person? “I want to be a mother one day, but not like this, and not with you as the father.”
He pulled away from her before standing up straight in front of her, worry flashing through his eyes. He had done this to please her, so that her sadness could go away, and yet, she did not want the pup? “You will not love the pup?”
She couldn’t stop the shock look that appeared on her face, a lump appearing in her throat. She despised his tone; why was he talking to her so normal as if nothing had ever occur between them, as if she loved him? Plus, she was still on her guard, expecting him to punish her for her previous words. His words hurt her; did she seem like such a horrible person? “I’m not a monster, I’m not like you.” Tears came to her eyes, as her words became harder to say. No matter what he had done to her, it did not affect her infant in any way. “I will love my child, no matter what.”
Kagome quickly backed away, and sat on the edge of the bed. Her child. Those words hit her harder than she expected, and the realization came harsh. She was still so young, and unprepared and now, she would have to raise a human being. She couldn’t help the fear that took her over; would she be a good mother? She had taken care of Shippo, but it wasn’t quite the same, he had been able to somewhat take care of himself when she found him… but this baby would depend on her in every way. She was not sad over the fact that she was pregnant, but her fear was growing with the second, as if she was scared she wouldn’t be able to provide enough for the child.
“You refuse happiness. I have given you pleasure, I have given you status, and a pup. “ No females were ever this difficult. Some of them might have struggle at first when they were taken by force, but they eventually would realize their privilege. But, no matter what she refused to feel happiness, and joy. Even now, she had dared to raise her hand on his person, and attack him, yet, he had not punish her just yet. He was being more kind then she deserved, but she could not see it. “Why do you deny my attentions?” His fangs were sticking out of his mouth as his rage increased. “No other males will care for you like I do, none of them will devote, and provide for you like I can.”
Kagome resisted the urge to scoff at his words. “Your hurt me, you mistreat me, and you call that devotion and care?” Sometimes she found herself wondering if he lived in the same world as she did, because never had she seen him express any type of regrets for his actions. It was as if he didn’t realize what he was doing, or how hurtful his actions were.
Sesshomaru titled his head slightly, as if he looked confused. “I do not mistreat you. You choose to refuse my actions. If you accepted this, you would not be miserable. I do not try to hurt you, you bring it upon yourself.” He did not wish to punish her again or hurt her, especially considering her new conditions, but she was making it hard for him.
For a second, she was completely speechless. If she accepted his touch, she would be happy? “You took everything away from me without my permission, and you think I will accept it?” Her own eyes were bloodshot, but because of her lack of sleep, and the fury he was creating in her. It seemed impossible to even argue with his beast, as if he could not see things the way they really were.
Sesshomaru rushed towards her, and grabbed her wrists tightly, hurting her in the process. “You belong to me, I will never let you go.” His heart was being destroyed again by her words, causing him pain. The beast knew the pain was caused by her rejection of the mating. Their bond wasn’t strong, and its weakness was bringing him pain, and probably hurting her too. As long as she kept fighting their union, the pain would not cease. Her stubbornness was annoying him even more since she was causing them both useless suffering.
Kagome’s eyes were tearing up, as his words echoed in her mind. She was well aware that the beast had no attention to give her up, but Sesshomaru was another story. As much as she despised him, he was her only chance out of this unfortunate situation. All they needed was for the beast to be locked away to give her enough time to run away. Unfortunately such opportunity seemed impossible at the moment, which meant they had to find a solution. Of course, it was hard for her to talk with Sesshomaru since every time she was around him, the beast would take over. “I will escape you one day.” Her words did not sound like a threat, but a promise. Kagome didn’t care how long it would take, one day, she would be free from him hold, and she would never look back.
Until then, she would fight him when she could, although it was useless, because every fiber of her body refused to give in his abuse. No matter how much he crushed her, she refused to let go of her spirit, and her freedom. As long as she refused to give him her mind, he didn’t own her. Kagome stared into his angry red eyes, tears almost escaping her; it was impossible for her to look at him, and not see the monster he truly was. “I won’t be yours.”
The beast’s eyes seemed to grow wider, before he growled at her. He released his hold on her, by violently throwing her against the nearest wall. “YOU WILL SUBMIT!” As Kagome’s body limped to the ground, Sesshomaru punched through her door, leaving it in pieces. “You will learn your place.” He lingered his gaze on her, as she refused to look him in the eyes. His breathing was shallow, as he turned his head, and walked out of her room, leaving Kagome almost shocked, as if to say that’s all? In the past, he had shown her much worst behavior.
Although, she could not help but feel relieve as he exited her room, leaving her alone. Her back slightly hurt from the hit, but it wasn’t anything that would affect her. Her head was resting against the nearly destroyed wall, as she moved her hands to her flat stomach. A life. She wrapped her arms around her waist, and sighed heavily, tears rolling down her cheeks. It was now to late to completely erase these events, or act like he never existed; there would always be proof of his existence. But, that did not mean she wouldn’t love the child; her feelings towards Sesshomaru would never interfere with the love she would feel for her baby. Plus, the real Sesshomaru would never feel anything type of emotions towards her, and he would despised the child, which meant she was the only one who could protect it.
Kagome closed her eyes, as her head began to feel heavy. The tears were blurring her vision, or at least she blamed it on the tears, and her face was slowly heating up. She released her stomach and pressed her cold hands against her heated skin, trying to cool herself up. She couldn’t help but blame her current predicaments on Sesshomaru, and she silently cursed him. It had felt good to release some of the steam she had kept inside, but it had truly gotten her nowhere, the only positive side was that she had gotten away with it. It wasn’t as if she couldn’t take his punishment, but her body needed a break, or her bruises would never go away. The marks he had left on her the first time still remained, and she wondered if they would ever disappear.
As time passed, the fever that had come over refused to leave, and only increased. Kagome had never been one to get sick; yet, she had multiple symptoms that would indicate she was indeed suffering from some sort of illness. At first she thought the nausea might have something to do with her pregnancy, but now she wasn’t so sure. Lately, she had been feeling extremely drained, and her body had refused to cooperate in every way.
She wanted to blame it on the stress, but she had doubts.
Or maybe her mind was playing tricks on her.
Maybe.
***
Pregnant.
Sesshomaru had always despised his half-brother because he had ruined their bloodline, and not because he had something against humans. As long as they did not produce offspring together, and it did not bother him that youkais and humans lived on the same lands. Rin his own ward was a human, and she was traveling with him, and it was not a problem, but Inuyasha who represented strength mixed with weakness was repulsive. All those years, he had felt a rage towards his father for the sacrilege he had done to their family by taking a human mate, and producing a child with her, but he was now in the same situation. The miko would bear him a hanyou.
Nothing in the world disgusted him as much as a hanyou.
Naraku, and Inuyasha were both in that category, and they were the filthiest things walking on these lands. Females had never been of great interest to him, since they were all back stabbing whores, and he had no need for them, but eventually, he would have picked one to bear him an heir. At least one of those useless females would have given him a full-blooded son, not a hanyou. It was not as if he hadn’t expected the miko to eventually be pupped with the way things were going, but he had hoped to find a solution before it happened. Now there wasn’t much he could do to change the situation, except kill the miko which he still didn’t know if it was the wisest decision, which meant in approximately 7 months, she would give birth to a hanyou.
He knew her feelings towards such creatures such she had been so fond of his half-brother, so she would not have a problem with it. For obvious reasons, Sesshomaru would assure that the child would not die, but he would not care for it, which meant the miko would be the one to do so. Although it would be its first-born child, he refused to consider it his heir; he eventually would find a way to break this bond, and he would have proper full-blooded sons. He could have a whore bore him one while he remained mated to the miko, but they were often too conniving, and he would not take any chances.
Sesshomaru was aware that his beast was pleased with the news since it thought it would make the miko happy, but he knew better. She shared the same feelings towards him as he did for her. It was obvious neither of them wanted to be in such a situation, although, it almost surprised him that she did not consider herself blessed. After all, never would she have been given the chance to obtain such luxury and status if it hadn’t been for his beast. Many females would have lined up for the opportunity to become his mate. Once again, she showed how different she was, but he mostly assumed it came from the way she had been raised in the future. Although, there was much he could gain from her knowledge, but she would probably refuse to speak at the moment. After all, she hadn’t given in to his beast, yet he had more than mistreated her, which meant she wouldn’t easily submit to him and his power.
Mate is hurting.
Sesshomaru’s features became annoyed as he rubbed the side of his head, his rage slightly rising. He could not even get a moment of peace in his own head anymore; it was getting very irritating.
This Sesshomaru does not care.
She had been hurting the moment they encountered that fatal night, and if he did not care then, he would not now. She was of very little importance to him, at what happened to her meant very little.
You ignore mate’s feelings. Can you not feel her pain?
Sesshomaru could recall his beast’s pains, but he had never encounter them when he was in full control of his body, and assumed it was because his beast was different from him, and it was its feelings that were bringing the pain. Since Sesshomaru felt nothing towards the miko, he was not trouble with the same suffering.
You are concerned with the miko, not this Sesshomaru.
I let you be in control. If you do not take care of mate, I will take over.
He couldn’t stop himself from growling at his beast. It was very frustrating that the only person who could oppose him was himself, since he could not defeat it. Since his beast was what made him a youkai, it was hard to fight the very essence that made him. Sesshomaru growled one more time before getting up from his chair, clearly annoyed.
This Sesshomaru will only check on the miko.
The beast remained silent, which Sesshomaru had grown to understand that it meant the beast was satisfy with his decision. Sesshomaru sighed heavily before pushing the door open, almost knocking Jaken out in the process. The toad almost refused to leave his side, and the Lord knew it had something to do with the miko. It was obvious that Jaken did not understand his decision to take the miko has his mate, but Sesshomaru refused to explain himself to anyone, so Jaken was left in the dark. Sesshomaru could hear Jaken screaming behind him, but he decided to ignore him. His beast was much more annoying, and he would deal with it first.
Soon enough he reached her room, which now did not have a door since his beast destroyed it, and quickly entered her bedroom. To his almost surprise, he found the miko exactly where he had left her; against the wall. He had easily been able to sense she was sleeping, which left him to wonder why his beast was so worried about her. Slowly, he approached her unconscious body, until he noticed the sweat dripping from her forehead. Her face was extremely red, and her breathing was shallow, which he recognized as fever symptoms, if he was not mistaken. He closed his amber eyes, his anger still on the rise; she only brought him troubles.
Help mate.
Sesshomaru growled at his beast before picking up the miko off the ground, even though it repulsed him, and transporting her near the bath. He carelessly dropped her into the cool water, knowing it would probably bring her fever down. But, even though she had been dipped into the water, Kagome’s eyes were still close, as if she still in her slumber.
You do not care for mate.
Sesshomaru’s actions were obviously upsetting the beast, since he growled inside. Kagome refused to submit to him, but he cared for her, and her sickness worried him. Sesshomaru refused to take care of her properly, and he would not stand for it. Quickly enough, Sesshomaru’s amber eyes became filled with red, and a deep growl could be heard through the castle as Sesshomaru’s annoyance reached a new level. He could not bring himself to care for the miko, when her death would mean nothing to him, but it angered him that his beast took over simply to care for her. She was not worthy of his attention.
As all of this happened Kagome still did not awake. Her face was still red from her fever, as if the water was not doing anything to help her. The beast was worried since, there was no reason for her to feel ill like this, since she seemed to be free from any type of disease. He ran his clawed fingers through her bangs, pushing them away from her face. If he did not hold her in place, her body was slowly sinking into the water, so he had to make sure she would not drown. He decided that he would be able to help her better if he was inside the bath with her, so, while always holding her with at least one hand, he undressed himself completely.
Sesshomaru quickly released her for an instant as he entered the water, not even flinching at the temperature of it. He moved Kagome so that he was behind her, and her positioned her in between his legs, making sure to keep most of her body emerge in the water. He protectively wrapped his arms around her, making sure her back was pressed against his tone chest. The fact that she remained asleep even when he was touching her worried him about her current state. He knew she was still alive, and strong, since he could hear her heartbeat, but it did not prevent him from worrying about her.
He reached out for a yellow cloth, which was near the edge of the water, and dipped it before resting it against her heated forehead, trying to bring her temperature down. His red eyes seemed to be fill with sadness as he looked down at her unconscious form, tightly secured in his arms. He nuzzled his face against the crook of her necks, before sounds of pain escaped his mouth, as pain reached his heart. This time it wasn’t caused by her rejection of their mating bond, but because he feared for her life, and for the one growing inside of her. He had no real experience with hanyou, and was unsure of how strong they were meant to be. He licked the mark he left on her, trying to soothe her pain by connecting with her, which he quickly found was impossible. Until she accepted him, there was not much he could do for her, which only pained him even more.
Although he felt his cock stiffen by her round ass pressing against it, sexual thoughts were the last thing on his mind. His worry for her was more important, and even though she kept disobeying, and she deserved to feel some pain as a punishment, it was hard for him to watch her suffer. Sesshomaru wouldn’t care less if she was dying, outside, bleeding to death, but he could not assume the role of alpha as much as he did. Although he had punished her actions in the past, he had never been able to carry it through until the end. Perhaps it was because her suffering caused him pain too? Nonetheless, he cared for the little fragile human, and he wanted to protect her.
It brought him great despair that she would reject his affections every time he tried to get close to her. Also, he could not help but often let his mind wander about her and his half-brother, and it only made him jealous. All these times were she had willingly let Inuyasha touch her while he had to fight her every time. It was not fair; he was the one who was only devoted to her, while his half-brother had another love. He could recall her being hurt by Inuyasha’s actions, but she had always forgiven him, so why could she not love him back?
He growled in frustration before resting his head on the edge, still holding the cloth to her forehead. Her body was slowly cooling down, but it wasn’t enough. Sesshomaru pressed his lips against the side of her head, and softly kissed her. It was nice to not have her struggle in his arms for once, and it brought him happiness, and he wish she could always behave in such a way. He ran his claws down her arm, being careful not to hurt her, and noticed the goose bumps his action created. It pleased him that even though she despised him, or so she claimed, that her body could react to his touch, and that he could bring her pleasure.
Sesshomaru rarely slept since he did not need much rest to be able to function, but right now, with his mate’s body, not struggling, pressed against him he found himself very comfortable which did not occur very often, and for once, and wished for some rest. Although her body was still warm, her face was not as red anymore, and he knew the fever had gone down slightly, and he made the decision to take her out of the water. Carefully, and while making sure she still had the wet cloth pressed against her forehead, he picked her up and stood up, while handling her as if she was a porcelain doll.
He was somewhat pleased with her unconscious state, since it allowed him to touch her, but he couldn’t help the feeling of worry, which ruined it all. He carried his mate in his arms, while both of them were naked, and exited her bedroom; her door was broken, and he did not wish for her to rest in such a room while she might be sick. As he walked down the hall, he could feel the servants trying to not stare at him, but he ignored them at the moment, making Kagome his number one priority. Her face, and the cloth were pressed against his tone chest, as he hurried to get her to his own rooms. It didn’t even make sense to him in the first place that she was not sharing his bed, since she was his mate, so he would kill two birds with one stone.
When he was near his bedroom, he could spot Jaken sitting beside the door, waiting for him to come. Of course, the toad was unable to hide his shock to the scene presented to him. He had traveled with Sesshomaru-sama for years, and never had his Lord expressed any type of interest towards humans, it was actually quite the opposite. Any time he came close to asking questions, Sesshomaru ignored him, causing his curiosity to grow. Although this time, Jaken hadn’t failed to notice Sesshomaru’s red eyes as he carried the naked miko towards his bedroom. At loss for words, and questions, Jaken simply stood up, and watched his Lord come closer to him. It was hard to miss the glare Sesshomaru was sending him, and in fear, Jaken squealed, before eying the door. Of course. He hurried to grab the handle, and opened the door for his Lord and his mate.
Jaken’s eyes were open wide as he closed the door behind them, confusion written all over his face. There was a different aura to Sesshomaru-sama, and the toad blamed it on the beast’s presence. Even he could tell its presence by his master’s red eyes, and he had a feeling there was something very wrong happening under his very eyes. He had only seen Sesshomaru with such an expression when he was about to transform, which was clearly not the case at the moment. Jaken pressed his back against the door, holding on tightly to his staff; had something happened to his beloved Lord?
On the door side of the door, Sesshomaru was lying Kagome down the silk sheets of his bed, being careful not to cover her and increase her fever which had slightly came down. He fixed the towel on her forehead before deciding to join her in the bed. Sesshomaru laid on his side, before wrapping his arms around her waist, and bringing her body against his, so he could bury his nose in the crook of her neck. He closed his red eyes, enjoying the warmth and softness from her body against his. Sesshomaru was aware that such an occasion would probably not happen again, since she did not enjoy his presence near her, so he was going to enjoy this moment as long as he could.
This was right; this was the way things were supposed to be.
***
Headache.
Kagome opened her eyes with extreme difficulty, her head pounding like crazy. She had to blink a few times before her vision completely cleared up, allowing her to observe unknown surroundings. As she tried to move slightly, she realized something was holding her, and aggravated she looked down at her waist. She gasped slightly when she saw an arm snaked around her waist, two magenta stripes decorating the skin. Without thinking, she started to fight and struggle against his hold, desperate to escape him; how had she found herself in such a situation?
Suddenly, the arm left her body, and she almost felt like letting out a sigh of relief. “Miko, will you cease your useless struggles. You are annoying this Sesshomaru.”
Kagome dared to turn her body so she could take a look at him, and almost immediately regretted it, when she was graced with a full naked view of his body. There was nothing to cover his nakedness, as he slowly left the bed so he could stand up, his back facing her. Quickly, Kagome looked away, a feeling of nausea taking over. There were no good memories associated with his naked body, and the thought of him taking her was enough to make her feel sick. It was also at that moment that Kagome took conscience of her own situation; she was also naked. Quickly, she grabbed a blanket, which was at the foot of the bed, and tried her best to cover her body.
She found herself unable to recall the events that had occurred during the night, and it troubled her. Surely if he had forced himself onto her, she would remember? The pain and torment he could cause her would be enough to wake her! Kagome bit her bottom lip, tears coming to her eyes, as she tried her best to remember what happened between them. Sesshomaru, who was still naked, turned around to look at her naked back, and sighed in annoyance. Unlike her, he could remember everything that happened, and found it quite disgusting. His beast had made them seek the miko’s presence, and it was degrading. Even if she had not sleep with him, her fever would have gone down, so what had been the point to drag her in his room, when all she did was soil his bed?
“Miko, dress yourself and leave this Sesshomaru’s bedroom,” he said as he walked toward his own closet so he could proceed to dress himself.
At the sound of his voice, Kagome raised her head, as if she had been brought back from dreamland. She had been so focus in her own little world, trying to remember that for a few instants she had forgotten about him. “What happened?” she asked, completely ignoring what he had told her. It could seem pointless, especially if he had raped her again, but she couldn’t help but ask.
“You had a fever, and it took care of you,” said Sesshomaru, never once looking at her. He had made sure to make a distinction between him and his beast. Never would he have done anything for her if it hadn’t taken over his body. If he had been able to stop it, he would have left her against the wall to deal with her fever on her own.
When he had felt the miko moved against his body, he had woken from his slumber, only to find himself repulsed by their positions. He hadn’t slept in a long time, and the slumber had gotten the best out of him, causing him to forget about what had occurred before they fell asleep. It seemed his beast enjoyed doing things with the miko that only brought disgust to him. As if he wish to provide comfort and care for the useless woman, she truly didn’t bring him anything but headaches.
Kagome couldn’t help but feel disgusted by the beast’s attentions towards her. The way he cared about her while doing all those horrible things was not only confusing, but also repulsing. He thought he cared about her, but truly he was simply a sick monster. She turned her head slightly to catch a glimpse of him, and found herself staring at dress Sesshomaru, who couldn’t care less about her. If she had a choice, she would rather have the cold-hearted Sesshomaru instead of the beast. She sighed heavily before wrapping the blanket tightly around her body, and getting up from the bed. All her clothes were in her bedroom so she would have to walk around like that for the moment being.
If it had been anyone else, she would have thanked them for taking care of her, but in his case, it didn’t even start to make up for everything he had done against her. With one last lingering look on his person, she proceeded to exit his bedroom, her body feeling a little weak. She took small steps as she made her way towards her bedroom, as it felt it was the only thing her body could handle at the moment. The more she walked, the more Kagome felt breathless, as if she was out of energy, which was strange since she had just woken up.
For once, she pushed the Sesshomaru issue in the back of her mind, to focus on her current state. She had never been one to be very sick, and now, for two days in a row, she had been feeling extremely strange. The more time passed, and the more things occurred, the least she put it on her pregnancy. The furthest she could be along was near a week, which was not enough to be feeling this bad, although this wasn’t a human pregnancy. Kagome had no knowledge about hanyou pregnancy, and she was now starting to worry. What if her body wasn’t able to sustain a half-youkai child? What if there was something wrong with her? What if she was causing the child harm with her sickness, which resulted in her feeling more pain?
As her body was slightly shaking, she still managed to keep walking down, almost reaching her bedroom. While one of her hand was pressed against the wall, her other one was resting on her stomach. Now not only did she worry for herself, but she had to worry for someone else. Kagome felt her eyes tear up, as she finally reached her destroyed bedroom. She hurried to lay down on her own bed, enjoying the fact that Sesshomaru was nowhere near her for once. She wanted to scream and cursed Sesshomaru to the top of her lungs, but it seemed too much effort at the moment. First there had been nauseas, then fever, and now she had no energy? If only she was in her own time, she could see a doctor, but here, a simple disease could bring her death…
Thoughts of worries filled her mind, as her eyelids became heavy, even though she had just woken up. For a few moments, she tried to fight against the urge to sleep, but eventually, slumber claimed her, and she fell into the darkness.
***
Blood Stained
Chapter 12: Sickness
For a second, her whole body forgot how to work, and everything ceased to function. His words echo in her mind, as she watched him turn his head to face her. She hated those red eyes; she despised them. Ever since he started having trouble, she had to pay for everything. Why did she have to be punished because he wasn’t strong enough to control his own beast? He had taken away every single mean of defense she had, leaving her helpless, and alone. Kagome’s breathing was sharp, as the memories of his previous actions flooded her mind. Nothing she had ever done was enough to justify the pain he had inflicted on her. Why did he always have to come back? Why couldn’t Sesshomaru be around her without giving in? Before him, she had a life, before him she knew happiness, and he had coldly ripped everything from her.
Every time things hit a new level, it just had to show its face, and it made her sick. He was staring right back at her, almost as if he was expecting a reaction from her. He had taken everything away except her anger, and her voice. Kagome took a deep breath, before walking closer to him, knowing she was about to make a big mistake. She raised her hand, and smacked him across the cheek. “I hate you.”
Everyone had a breaking point, and she had hers a while ago, except, instead of blowing up, she had broken down to piece, but now, he had pushed a new limit. He had abused her, humiliated her, and pushed her pain to a limit she had not known before, and now he had dragged an innocent being into the mess. She had hidden herself from the world for days now, wishing it all away, but the life inside of her proved that all of this was real. Once again, she hit him on the cheek, the other one this time. “I despise you, I wish you had never taken me. I DON’T WANT TO BE HERE! I’m not happy, and I won’t pretend to be.” Tears were rolling down her cheeks as her anger came through for the first time in a while.
Kagome was aware of what he would do to her because of her actions, but right now, it did not matter. The fact that Sesshomaru hadn’t been able to keep his beast under control for even five minutes while he was around her proved the beast was there to stay. When he had left her alone for a few days, she had hoped that it was the start of something better and that she could hide away from him but he had showed her different. He had no control over the beast, and she couldn’t endanger anybody to come and save her. She was alone, and she had to deal with him herself, because nobody could save her.
She couldn’t deny that she was terrified, and more scared than ever, but his reactions, and the recent news had brought chaos inside of her head, and she was unsure of what to do. Once again, suffering had taken over her whole heart, and she was unable to stop anything from happening. Kagome held her head high as she stared at Sesshomaru, her heart beating like crazy inside of her chest, almost breaking free. The whole time she had spoken, and hit him, he had remained still as a statue, which was almost scarier than him angry. Kagome bit her bottom lip slightly as he remained in his position, looking as if he was not breathing. Then she suddenly jumped when he moved, and she couldn’t help but slightly back away from him.
Sesshomaru did not care about her fear, and immediately he put his hands on her hips, and bent down to go down on his knees. Kagome took in a deep breath as he pressed his nose against her exposed stomach, nuzzling against her skin. She couldn’t help the confusion that took her over, as he did not react to her words or actions, which was unusual. Of course, she decided to remain silent for the moment, waiting for some sort of reaction from him. Sesshomaru ran one of his hands over her flat stomach, sighing. “You are pupped, yet you are unhappy. You wish for pups do you not?”
Kagome opened her mouth, before closing it. It was obvious he had never listened to anything she had ever said, or he wouldn’t have said such non-sense. Who would want to get pregnant in such a way, by such a person? “I want to be a mother one day, but not like this, and not with you as the father.”
He pulled away from her before standing up straight in front of her, worry flashing through his eyes. He had done this to please her, so that her sadness could go away, and yet, she did not want the pup? “You will not love the pup?”
She couldn’t stop the shock look that appeared on her face, a lump appearing in her throat. She despised his tone; why was he talking to her so normal as if nothing had ever occur between them, as if she loved him? Plus, she was still on her guard, expecting him to punish her for her previous words. His words hurt her; did she seem like such a horrible person? “I’m not a monster, I’m not like you.” Tears came to her eyes, as her words became harder to say. No matter what he had done to her, it did not affect her infant in any way. “I will love my child, no matter what.”
Kagome quickly backed away, and sat on the edge of the bed. Her child. Those words hit her harder than she expected, and the realization came harsh. She was still so young, and unprepared and now, she would have to raise a human being. She couldn’t help the fear that took her over; would she be a good mother? She had taken care of Shippo, but it wasn’t quite the same, he had been able to somewhat take care of himself when she found him… but this baby would depend on her in every way. She was not sad over the fact that she was pregnant, but her fear was growing with the second, as if she was scared she wouldn’t be able to provide enough for the child.
“You refuse happiness. I have given you pleasure, I have given you status, and a pup. “ No females were ever this difficult. Some of them might have struggle at first when they were taken by force, but they eventually would realize their privilege. But, no matter what she refused to feel happiness, and joy. Even now, she had dared to raise her hand on his person, and attack him, yet, he had not punish her just yet. He was being more kind then she deserved, but she could not see it. “Why do you deny my attentions?” His fangs were sticking out of his mouth as his rage increased. “No other males will care for you like I do, none of them will devote, and provide for you like I can.”
Kagome resisted the urge to scoff at his words. “Your hurt me, you mistreat me, and you call that devotion and care?” Sometimes she found herself wondering if he lived in the same world as she did, because never had she seen him express any type of regrets for his actions. It was as if he didn’t realize what he was doing, or how hurtful his actions were.
Sesshomaru titled his head slightly, as if he looked confused. “I do not mistreat you. You choose to refuse my actions. If you accepted this, you would not be miserable. I do not try to hurt you, you bring it upon yourself.” He did not wish to punish her again or hurt her, especially considering her new conditions, but she was making it hard for him.
For a second, she was completely speechless. If she accepted his touch, she would be happy? “You took everything away from me without my permission, and you think I will accept it?” Her own eyes were bloodshot, but because of her lack of sleep, and the fury he was creating in her. It seemed impossible to even argue with his beast, as if he could not see things the way they really were.
Sesshomaru rushed towards her, and grabbed her wrists tightly, hurting her in the process. “You belong to me, I will never let you go.” His heart was being destroyed again by her words, causing him pain. The beast knew the pain was caused by her rejection of the mating. Their bond wasn’t strong, and its weakness was bringing him pain, and probably hurting her too. As long as she kept fighting their union, the pain would not cease. Her stubbornness was annoying him even more since she was causing them both useless suffering.
Kagome’s eyes were tearing up, as his words echoed in her mind. She was well aware that the beast had no attention to give her up, but Sesshomaru was another story. As much as she despised him, he was her only chance out of this unfortunate situation. All they needed was for the beast to be locked away to give her enough time to run away. Unfortunately such opportunity seemed impossible at the moment, which meant they had to find a solution. Of course, it was hard for her to talk with Sesshomaru since every time she was around him, the beast would take over. “I will escape you one day.” Her words did not sound like a threat, but a promise. Kagome didn’t care how long it would take, one day, she would be free from him hold, and she would never look back.
Until then, she would fight him when she could, although it was useless, because every fiber of her body refused to give in his abuse. No matter how much he crushed her, she refused to let go of her spirit, and her freedom. As long as she refused to give him her mind, he didn’t own her. Kagome stared into his angry red eyes, tears almost escaping her; it was impossible for her to look at him, and not see the monster he truly was. “I won’t be yours.”
The beast’s eyes seemed to grow wider, before he growled at her. He released his hold on her, by violently throwing her against the nearest wall. “YOU WILL SUBMIT!” As Kagome’s body limped to the ground, Sesshomaru punched through her door, leaving it in pieces. “You will learn your place.” He lingered his gaze on her, as she refused to look him in the eyes. His breathing was shallow, as he turned his head, and walked out of her room, leaving Kagome almost shocked, as if to say that’s all? In the past, he had shown her much worst behavior.
Although, she could not help but feel relieve as he exited her room, leaving her alone. Her back slightly hurt from the hit, but it wasn’t anything that would affect her. Her head was resting against the nearly destroyed wall, as she moved her hands to her flat stomach. A life. She wrapped her arms around her waist, and sighed heavily, tears rolling down her cheeks. It was now to late to completely erase these events, or act like he never existed; there would always be proof of his existence. But, that did not mean she wouldn’t love the child; her feelings towards Sesshomaru would never interfere with the love she would feel for her baby. Plus, the real Sesshomaru would never feel anything type of emotions towards her, and he would despised the child, which meant she was the only one who could protect it.
Kagome closed her eyes, as her head began to feel heavy. The tears were blurring her vision, or at least she blamed it on the tears, and her face was slowly heating up. She released her stomach and pressed her cold hands against her heated skin, trying to cool herself up. She couldn’t help but blame her current predicaments on Sesshomaru, and she silently cursed him. It had felt good to release some of the steam she had kept inside, but it had truly gotten her nowhere, the only positive side was that she had gotten away with it. It wasn’t as if she couldn’t take his punishment, but her body needed a break, or her bruises would never go away. The marks he had left on her the first time still remained, and she wondered if they would ever disappear.
As time passed, the fever that had come over refused to leave, and only increased. Kagome had never been one to get sick; yet, she had multiple symptoms that would indicate she was indeed suffering from some sort of illness. At first she thought the nausea might have something to do with her pregnancy, but now she wasn’t so sure. Lately, she had been feeling extremely drained, and her body had refused to cooperate in every way.
She wanted to blame it on the stress, but she had doubts.
Or maybe her mind was playing tricks on her.
Maybe.
***
Pregnant.
Sesshomaru had always despised his half-brother because he had ruined their bloodline, and not because he had something against humans. As long as they did not produce offspring together, and it did not bother him that youkais and humans lived on the same lands. Rin his own ward was a human, and she was traveling with him, and it was not a problem, but Inuyasha who represented strength mixed with weakness was repulsive. All those years, he had felt a rage towards his father for the sacrilege he had done to their family by taking a human mate, and producing a child with her, but he was now in the same situation. The miko would bear him a hanyou.
Nothing in the world disgusted him as much as a hanyou.
Naraku, and Inuyasha were both in that category, and they were the filthiest things walking on these lands. Females had never been of great interest to him, since they were all back stabbing whores, and he had no need for them, but eventually, he would have picked one to bear him an heir. At least one of those useless females would have given him a full-blooded son, not a hanyou. It was not as if he hadn’t expected the miko to eventually be pupped with the way things were going, but he had hoped to find a solution before it happened. Now there wasn’t much he could do to change the situation, except kill the miko which he still didn’t know if it was the wisest decision, which meant in approximately 7 months, she would give birth to a hanyou.
He knew her feelings towards such creatures such she had been so fond of his half-brother, so she would not have a problem with it. For obvious reasons, Sesshomaru would assure that the child would not die, but he would not care for it, which meant the miko would be the one to do so. Although it would be its first-born child, he refused to consider it his heir; he eventually would find a way to break this bond, and he would have proper full-blooded sons. He could have a whore bore him one while he remained mated to the miko, but they were often too conniving, and he would not take any chances.
Sesshomaru was aware that his beast was pleased with the news since it thought it would make the miko happy, but he knew better. She shared the same feelings towards him as he did for her. It was obvious neither of them wanted to be in such a situation, although, it almost surprised him that she did not consider herself blessed. After all, never would she have been given the chance to obtain such luxury and status if it hadn’t been for his beast. Many females would have lined up for the opportunity to become his mate. Once again, she showed how different she was, but he mostly assumed it came from the way she had been raised in the future. Although, there was much he could gain from her knowledge, but she would probably refuse to speak at the moment. After all, she hadn’t given in to his beast, yet he had more than mistreated her, which meant she wouldn’t easily submit to him and his power.
Mate is hurting.
Sesshomaru’s features became annoyed as he rubbed the side of his head, his rage slightly rising. He could not even get a moment of peace in his own head anymore; it was getting very irritating.
This Sesshomaru does not care.
She had been hurting the moment they encountered that fatal night, and if he did not care then, he would not now. She was of very little importance to him, at what happened to her meant very little.
You ignore mate’s feelings. Can you not feel her pain?
Sesshomaru could recall his beast’s pains, but he had never encounter them when he was in full control of his body, and assumed it was because his beast was different from him, and it was its feelings that were bringing the pain. Since Sesshomaru felt nothing towards the miko, he was not trouble with the same suffering.
You are concerned with the miko, not this Sesshomaru.
I let you be in control. If you do not take care of mate, I will take over.
He couldn’t stop himself from growling at his beast. It was very frustrating that the only person who could oppose him was himself, since he could not defeat it. Since his beast was what made him a youkai, it was hard to fight the very essence that made him. Sesshomaru growled one more time before getting up from his chair, clearly annoyed.
This Sesshomaru will only check on the miko.
The beast remained silent, which Sesshomaru had grown to understand that it meant the beast was satisfy with his decision. Sesshomaru sighed heavily before pushing the door open, almost knocking Jaken out in the process. The toad almost refused to leave his side, and the Lord knew it had something to do with the miko. It was obvious that Jaken did not understand his decision to take the miko has his mate, but Sesshomaru refused to explain himself to anyone, so Jaken was left in the dark. Sesshomaru could hear Jaken screaming behind him, but he decided to ignore him. His beast was much more annoying, and he would deal with it first.
Soon enough he reached her room, which now did not have a door since his beast destroyed it, and quickly entered her bedroom. To his almost surprise, he found the miko exactly where he had left her; against the wall. He had easily been able to sense she was sleeping, which left him to wonder why his beast was so worried about her. Slowly, he approached her unconscious body, until he noticed the sweat dripping from her forehead. Her face was extremely red, and her breathing was shallow, which he recognized as fever symptoms, if he was not mistaken. He closed his amber eyes, his anger still on the rise; she only brought him troubles.
Help mate.
Sesshomaru growled at his beast before picking up the miko off the ground, even though it repulsed him, and transporting her near the bath. He carelessly dropped her into the cool water, knowing it would probably bring her fever down. But, even though she had been dipped into the water, Kagome’s eyes were still close, as if she still in her slumber.
You do not care for mate.
Sesshomaru’s actions were obviously upsetting the beast, since he growled inside. Kagome refused to submit to him, but he cared for her, and her sickness worried him. Sesshomaru refused to take care of her properly, and he would not stand for it. Quickly enough, Sesshomaru’s amber eyes became filled with red, and a deep growl could be heard through the castle as Sesshomaru’s annoyance reached a new level. He could not bring himself to care for the miko, when her death would mean nothing to him, but it angered him that his beast took over simply to care for her. She was not worthy of his attention.
As all of this happened Kagome still did not awake. Her face was still red from her fever, as if the water was not doing anything to help her. The beast was worried since, there was no reason for her to feel ill like this, since she seemed to be free from any type of disease. He ran his clawed fingers through her bangs, pushing them away from her face. If he did not hold her in place, her body was slowly sinking into the water, so he had to make sure she would not drown. He decided that he would be able to help her better if he was inside the bath with her, so, while always holding her with at least one hand, he undressed himself completely.
Sesshomaru quickly released her for an instant as he entered the water, not even flinching at the temperature of it. He moved Kagome so that he was behind her, and her positioned her in between his legs, making sure to keep most of her body emerge in the water. He protectively wrapped his arms around her, making sure her back was pressed against his tone chest. The fact that she remained asleep even when he was touching her worried him about her current state. He knew she was still alive, and strong, since he could hear her heartbeat, but it did not prevent him from worrying about her.
He reached out for a yellow cloth, which was near the edge of the water, and dipped it before resting it against her heated forehead, trying to bring her temperature down. His red eyes seemed to be fill with sadness as he looked down at her unconscious form, tightly secured in his arms. He nuzzled his face against the crook of her necks, before sounds of pain escaped his mouth, as pain reached his heart. This time it wasn’t caused by her rejection of their mating bond, but because he feared for her life, and for the one growing inside of her. He had no real experience with hanyou, and was unsure of how strong they were meant to be. He licked the mark he left on her, trying to soothe her pain by connecting with her, which he quickly found was impossible. Until she accepted him, there was not much he could do for her, which only pained him even more.
Although he felt his cock stiffen by her round ass pressing against it, sexual thoughts were the last thing on his mind. His worry for her was more important, and even though she kept disobeying, and she deserved to feel some pain as a punishment, it was hard for him to watch her suffer. Sesshomaru wouldn’t care less if she was dying, outside, bleeding to death, but he could not assume the role of alpha as much as he did. Although he had punished her actions in the past, he had never been able to carry it through until the end. Perhaps it was because her suffering caused him pain too? Nonetheless, he cared for the little fragile human, and he wanted to protect her.
It brought him great despair that she would reject his affections every time he tried to get close to her. Also, he could not help but often let his mind wander about her and his half-brother, and it only made him jealous. All these times were she had willingly let Inuyasha touch her while he had to fight her every time. It was not fair; he was the one who was only devoted to her, while his half-brother had another love. He could recall her being hurt by Inuyasha’s actions, but she had always forgiven him, so why could she not love him back?
He growled in frustration before resting his head on the edge, still holding the cloth to her forehead. Her body was slowly cooling down, but it wasn’t enough. Sesshomaru pressed his lips against the side of her head, and softly kissed her. It was nice to not have her struggle in his arms for once, and it brought him happiness, and he wish she could always behave in such a way. He ran his claws down her arm, being careful not to hurt her, and noticed the goose bumps his action created. It pleased him that even though she despised him, or so she claimed, that her body could react to his touch, and that he could bring her pleasure.
Sesshomaru rarely slept since he did not need much rest to be able to function, but right now, with his mate’s body, not struggling, pressed against him he found himself very comfortable which did not occur very often, and for once, and wished for some rest. Although her body was still warm, her face was not as red anymore, and he knew the fever had gone down slightly, and he made the decision to take her out of the water. Carefully, and while making sure she still had the wet cloth pressed against her forehead, he picked her up and stood up, while handling her as if she was a porcelain doll.
He was somewhat pleased with her unconscious state, since it allowed him to touch her, but he couldn’t help the feeling of worry, which ruined it all. He carried his mate in his arms, while both of them were naked, and exited her bedroom; her door was broken, and he did not wish for her to rest in such a room while she might be sick. As he walked down the hall, he could feel the servants trying to not stare at him, but he ignored them at the moment, making Kagome his number one priority. Her face, and the cloth were pressed against his tone chest, as he hurried to get her to his own rooms. It didn’t even make sense to him in the first place that she was not sharing his bed, since she was his mate, so he would kill two birds with one stone.
When he was near his bedroom, he could spot Jaken sitting beside the door, waiting for him to come. Of course, the toad was unable to hide his shock to the scene presented to him. He had traveled with Sesshomaru-sama for years, and never had his Lord expressed any type of interest towards humans, it was actually quite the opposite. Any time he came close to asking questions, Sesshomaru ignored him, causing his curiosity to grow. Although this time, Jaken hadn’t failed to notice Sesshomaru’s red eyes as he carried the naked miko towards his bedroom. At loss for words, and questions, Jaken simply stood up, and watched his Lord come closer to him. It was hard to miss the glare Sesshomaru was sending him, and in fear, Jaken squealed, before eying the door. Of course. He hurried to grab the handle, and opened the door for his Lord and his mate.
Jaken’s eyes were open wide as he closed the door behind them, confusion written all over his face. There was a different aura to Sesshomaru-sama, and the toad blamed it on the beast’s presence. Even he could tell its presence by his master’s red eyes, and he had a feeling there was something very wrong happening under his very eyes. He had only seen Sesshomaru with such an expression when he was about to transform, which was clearly not the case at the moment. Jaken pressed his back against the door, holding on tightly to his staff; had something happened to his beloved Lord?
On the door side of the door, Sesshomaru was lying Kagome down the silk sheets of his bed, being careful not to cover her and increase her fever which had slightly came down. He fixed the towel on her forehead before deciding to join her in the bed. Sesshomaru laid on his side, before wrapping his arms around her waist, and bringing her body against his, so he could bury his nose in the crook of her neck. He closed his red eyes, enjoying the warmth and softness from her body against his. Sesshomaru was aware that such an occasion would probably not happen again, since she did not enjoy his presence near her, so he was going to enjoy this moment as long as he could.
This was right; this was the way things were supposed to be.
***
Headache.
Kagome opened her eyes with extreme difficulty, her head pounding like crazy. She had to blink a few times before her vision completely cleared up, allowing her to observe unknown surroundings. As she tried to move slightly, she realized something was holding her, and aggravated she looked down at her waist. She gasped slightly when she saw an arm snaked around her waist, two magenta stripes decorating the skin. Without thinking, she started to fight and struggle against his hold, desperate to escape him; how had she found herself in such a situation?
Suddenly, the arm left her body, and she almost felt like letting out a sigh of relief. “Miko, will you cease your useless struggles. You are annoying this Sesshomaru.”
Kagome dared to turn her body so she could take a look at him, and almost immediately regretted it, when she was graced with a full naked view of his body. There was nothing to cover his nakedness, as he slowly left the bed so he could stand up, his back facing her. Quickly, Kagome looked away, a feeling of nausea taking over. There were no good memories associated with his naked body, and the thought of him taking her was enough to make her feel sick. It was also at that moment that Kagome took conscience of her own situation; she was also naked. Quickly, she grabbed a blanket, which was at the foot of the bed, and tried her best to cover her body.
She found herself unable to recall the events that had occurred during the night, and it troubled her. Surely if he had forced himself onto her, she would remember? The pain and torment he could cause her would be enough to wake her! Kagome bit her bottom lip, tears coming to her eyes, as she tried her best to remember what happened between them. Sesshomaru, who was still naked, turned around to look at her naked back, and sighed in annoyance. Unlike her, he could remember everything that happened, and found it quite disgusting. His beast had made them seek the miko’s presence, and it was degrading. Even if she had not sleep with him, her fever would have gone down, so what had been the point to drag her in his room, when all she did was soil his bed?
“Miko, dress yourself and leave this Sesshomaru’s bedroom,” he said as he walked toward his own closet so he could proceed to dress himself.
At the sound of his voice, Kagome raised her head, as if she had been brought back from dreamland. She had been so focus in her own little world, trying to remember that for a few instants she had forgotten about him. “What happened?” she asked, completely ignoring what he had told her. It could seem pointless, especially if he had raped her again, but she couldn’t help but ask.
“You had a fever, and it took care of you,” said Sesshomaru, never once looking at her. He had made sure to make a distinction between him and his beast. Never would he have done anything for her if it hadn’t taken over his body. If he had been able to stop it, he would have left her against the wall to deal with her fever on her own.
When he had felt the miko moved against his body, he had woken from his slumber, only to find himself repulsed by their positions. He hadn’t slept in a long time, and the slumber had gotten the best out of him, causing him to forget about what had occurred before they fell asleep. It seemed his beast enjoyed doing things with the miko that only brought disgust to him. As if he wish to provide comfort and care for the useless woman, she truly didn’t bring him anything but headaches.
Kagome couldn’t help but feel disgusted by the beast’s attentions towards her. The way he cared about her while doing all those horrible things was not only confusing, but also repulsing. He thought he cared about her, but truly he was simply a sick monster. She turned her head slightly to catch a glimpse of him, and found herself staring at dress Sesshomaru, who couldn’t care less about her. If she had a choice, she would rather have the cold-hearted Sesshomaru instead of the beast. She sighed heavily before wrapping the blanket tightly around her body, and getting up from the bed. All her clothes were in her bedroom so she would have to walk around like that for the moment being.
If it had been anyone else, she would have thanked them for taking care of her, but in his case, it didn’t even start to make up for everything he had done against her. With one last lingering look on his person, she proceeded to exit his bedroom, her body feeling a little weak. She took small steps as she made her way towards her bedroom, as it felt it was the only thing her body could handle at the moment. The more she walked, the more Kagome felt breathless, as if she was out of energy, which was strange since she had just woken up.
For once, she pushed the Sesshomaru issue in the back of her mind, to focus on her current state. She had never been one to be very sick, and now, for two days in a row, she had been feeling extremely strange. The more time passed, and the more things occurred, the least she put it on her pregnancy. The furthest she could be along was near a week, which was not enough to be feeling this bad, although this wasn’t a human pregnancy. Kagome had no knowledge about hanyou pregnancy, and she was now starting to worry. What if her body wasn’t able to sustain a half-youkai child? What if there was something wrong with her? What if she was causing the child harm with her sickness, which resulted in her feeling more pain?
As her body was slightly shaking, she still managed to keep walking down, almost reaching her bedroom. While one of her hand was pressed against the wall, her other one was resting on her stomach. Now not only did she worry for herself, but she had to worry for someone else. Kagome felt her eyes tear up, as she finally reached her destroyed bedroom. She hurried to lay down on her own bed, enjoying the fact that Sesshomaru was nowhere near her for once. She wanted to scream and cursed Sesshomaru to the top of her lungs, but it seemed too much effort at the moment. First there had been nauseas, then fever, and now she had no energy? If only she was in her own time, she could see a doctor, but here, a simple disease could bring her death…
Thoughts of worries filled her mind, as her eyelids became heavy, even though she had just woken up. For a few moments, she tried to fight against the urge to sleep, but eventually, slumber claimed her, and she fell into the darkness.
***