Who is he?

Sesshoumaru sat up and yanked the blanket off of me. I saw what he smelled. I realized I am sitting in blood and start to panic. I yelled for Minna. When she enters the room she smells the blood and says she will fetch the things we will need and will send Kagome to our room. Sesshoumaru held my hand as the pain increased. This can’t be happening. It’s too soon and I know that the pups won’t survive. Sesshoumaru actually looks worried and that frightens me a little more. Minna came back with her arms filled with blankets, herbs and water. Kagome and Sango both followed her into the room. The pain is getting more intense and makes me pant and moan a little. Kagome sat on the bed and grabbed my free hand. Sango helped Minna prepare a bed for the pups. I looked in to Sesshoumaru’s eyes and let my tears flow freely. He let go of my hand and ran his fingers through the front of my hair then leaned in kissing my forehead. Minna told him he needed to leave so the women could do their work. He stood staring in my eyes as if to ask if I wanted him to stay. I closed my eyes and nodded my head. Letting him know he could leave. I can hear the males pacing the hall outside our room. I feel a burn low in my abdomen and I know the end of the physical pain is almost done but the emotional pain hasn’t even begun.

“Enzera, its time to push now.” Minna spoke to me softly.

I cried and begged. “I can’t do this. I know what will happen if they come now. Please Minna don’t let them come now. They can’t survive yet. They’ll be too small,”

“We are going to be there for you through this.” Kagome said.

“You have to do it.” Sango strongly. “ If you don’t push you’ll die too.”

I knew I had to do it but I don’t want to watch them die. They are innocent they don’t deserve to die. I feel the urge to push I cannot fight it. I push hard and scream out loud.

“ Again Enzera push!” Minna coached.

Kagome and Sango held my hands as I pushed again and then again. I feel the first born escaping my body and I start to sob.

“It’s a boy. He looks like Lord Sesshoumaru. He’s alive but barely.” Minna said.

“Do you want to hold him?” Kagome asked.

I just shook my head and whispered. “No.” The burn is returning again. I know what to do and get ready to push again. Sango took the tiny male out to his father and came right back to my side. Holding my hands again all three women told me to push. I did over and over several times then felt the other small life escape just like the last. Minna tells me it is a girl. Again I am asked if I want to hold my infant and again I whisper no. Sango takes the newborn out to her father and Minna and Kagome start to clean me up. Minna says something about a bath then I feel the two women leading me down to the hot spring. I am so empty inside. I can only thing of how small they were. “ So small, so small.” I repeat over and over as they wash my hair and help me out of the water when I am clean.

“ I want to go to the garden.” I say ever so quietly.

“The garden?” Minna and Kagome say in unison.

“I need to be alone for awhile.” I say flatly.

“Are you sure you don’t want to see the pups before you go out to the garden.”

“No.” I reply in monotone. “ I can’t face him and the pups.”

“Do you want me to stay?” Kagome tenderly asked.

Again I reply in a lifeless voice. “NO.”

They take me out to the garden and seat me on the marble bench under the blooming tree with the softly scented flowers petals fall around me as a light breeze blew. I look up at the stars thinking how empty the sky would be without them in it. I guess as empty as I feel now that I am going to lose my little stars. This is his fault, damn that Naraku. He caused this now he will die. He needs to pay. Pay for all the unnecessary pain and death he has caused. Mother and now my pups.


(Back in our room)

Sesshoumaru held both pups in one arm speaking something to them so quietly.

“ Lord Sesshoumaru, can I do anything else for you?” Minna asked with a bow.

“ Where is Lady Enzera?” He whispered.

“ She went to the garden to be alone, I think she is having trouble with all of this, she even refused to hold them when they were first born. I think her heart is broken. I will go check on her now I guess I should not have left her alone.”

“ Let her know I want her to come see them before their gone.”


(just outside)

I am walking outside the barrier into the forest going to seek my revenge.THe numbness has filled me completely now. Minna goes to the garden and runs back to Sesshoumaru when she realizes I have left. The others are all in the main hall talking about what has happened. Trying to figure out what to do next.


(back in our room)

“Lord Sesshoumaru she is gone! I can’t find her!” Minna exclaimed fearful of his response.

“I know Minna I sensed her as she past through the barrier. Where she is going I can only guess. I am to assume she is going to Naraku’s castle. I could feel a great emptiness when she left and she knows I will not follow her and leave our heirs alone to die.” Sesshoumaru calmly replied.

(In the forest)
I am over taking by the despair in my heart and run demon speed to Naraku’s castle. I know he will be able to feel me coming but I just don’t care. I have nothing to lose. My pups are with their father dying. I lost my own mother at birth. I will not let him live to take anyone else from me. He must be stopped. I feel weak from blood loss. I am almost there.


(Naraku’s Castle)
“ Kagura, we are going to have a guest.” Naraku said.

“ Yes and who would that be?” Kagura smoothly asked.

“ You’ll find out soon enough. Stay out of her way when she gets here or you might not live another day.” Naraku explained.

“ I understand.” And with that she left. (Of course not far enough so she won’t be able to hear what is about to transpire.)


I rush through the gates noticing his barrier wasn’t up. He is expecting me. Waiting for me? I find my way to what looks like a throne room. Just to find him waiting for me sitting their staring right at me.

Still without emotion I ask. “What are you looking at Naraku? Don’t act surprised to see me, you knew I would come. Why did you do it? Why did you make them come early? You must have known they’d die. You killed them.”

“Enzera, I did nothing to make them come early. Why would I kill something I wanted? Do you not find it strange you have come to me to ask these questions? Did I not tell you that you would come to me? Why do you think your really here? Revenge? Help? What is it Enzera that has brought you here?” Naraku asked slyly.

“ I want you dead you fucking bastard. I want you to feel nothing ever again just like I feel nothing anymore. I am hollow inside. Because of you I had no mother and now I have lost my offspring. You deserve to die for it. You cause nothing but pain and anguish. You deserve to feel empty like me. I don’t hate you anymore. I just want you to feel what I feel. It’s the least I can do for you.” I said calmly and emotionless.

“ But my dear you can’t do that to me you can’t hurt me. Your mother was not able to control her power and drove herself mad. I just put her out of her misery. As for your pups I had nothing to do with that. I wanted them alive. Don’t you wonder how I could still connect with you in your dreams? Do you ever wonder what happened to your father? Do you want to know about him? Think hard Enzera. He hasn’t ever been talked about till right this second. Do you want to find the truth? You won’t be able to kill me.You have already lost the rest of your family. Would you really be able to kill your father?”


“ You liar. You can’t be my father.” I still haven’t any feeling to anything I say or think.

I step closer to him hoping he’ll just end it all. End the numbness. I can’t stop picturing those two tiny lives. I failed them. I failed Sesshoumaru. I have to protect everyone from this bastard. I wish he’d just do it and get it over with. He isn’t moving from the spot he’s been in since I got here. Why won’t he start a fight with me?

He told me. “Go home Enzera go to your pups before it’s too late. We will finish this another time. I wanted my grandchildren to help me. I wouldn't have killed them.Go to them. Remember who I am. Remember how I let you live. Twice I let you live. Your weak from losing blood I could finish you now easily.”

“Then do it, I don’t care to live anymore.You have made me this way. Fix it father. End my pointless existance. Kill me.” I said with empty eyes.

Naraku jumped at me knocking me back I stumbled and hit my head hard on the floor. I was knocked out. He called for Kagura.

“Take her home she is losing tons of blood. Take her back before she dies.I will not let Sesshoumaru blame me for her death.” Naraku ordered.

He picked me up and tossed me onto her giant feather. We flew off into the night. It didn’t talk long for her to get me back.I am to weak to even sit up.

“LORD SESSHOUMARU! I have your mate.” She yelled then kicked me off her feather and onto the ground. " I hope you die dear sister it's better then being Naraku's puppet."

Inuyasha was about to attack but Kagome stopped him. She saw how close to death I was and pleaded with him to get me inside. They bought me to Sesshoumaru who was still holding our pups. I didn’t want to look at them or him. He grabbed my chin and looked in my inexpressive eyes. He knew I had given up.

He spoke to me kindly. “They won’t let go. I think they have been waiting for you to say goodbye. They have this Sesshoumaru’s stubbornness. You need to hold them and tell them it’s all right for them to go. Would you let them suffer longer then they need to?”

He placed them in my arms as we lie on the bed. I didn’t know what to say to them. I didn’t want them to go. I didn’t want to fail my mate. The hollowness in my chest was slowly being replaced my sadness. I think the empty, numb feeling was better. This hurts too much. Tears filled my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. The pups’ breathing was so slow and labored. I hoped they felt no pain. Sesshoumaru stroked my hair. I thought about what they would have looked like if they had been born on time. They both looked like tiny little Sesshoumaru’s. White hair and golden eyes. They even bear his cresent moon. I am so glad they are as they are that they don't have any of my father in them. So innocent. So small. They are so beautiful. How could I have failed these two perfect little creatures? I am so tired. I ask Sesshoumaru to let them lay between us till they have gone. I want them to be with me till the end. It’s so cold and I need to rest. Sesshoumaru lay down on the opposite side of the bed and we looked at each other and then at our pups.

“How do you feel?” He asked with concern.

“I am fine now.”

“Enzera you have lost a lot of blood are you sure your fine?”

“Just tired.Everything will be fine.”

“You should try to sleep then.”

“Sesshoumaru, promise me that you’ll name them before they are buried.”

“I promise. Sleep now.”

“Okay.”

“Enzera, I love you.” He whispered.

I closed my eyes and went to sleep. Just like my pups i am destined to sleep forever. I finally found the love I had been looking for my whole life. I could sleep peacefully now. Knowing Kagome, Inuyasha, Sango and Miroku would stand along side my mate against my father and win.


The end......

Thank you for reading... Love Enzera