UnFaithful

Chapter 9 :Turning Point: The Confession Continues.


I couldn’t even set my eyes on her, my mouth open.....not a damn thing came out. Shiori squeezed my hand, for the first time, she felt nothing......I felt her heart drop to her stomach. I felt like the low-down dog I really was. See, I had this way of twisting things in my mind, you know, like when ever someone hurt me......I returned the favor, ten times over. It’s a nasty little habit I developed over the many years of having to survive by myself. My mother was the only one to really pick up on it, even as a little pup......she knew. I should have never used Shiori in such a way. I wanted to break Kagome down.....there was a part of me so cold, so evil.......I wanted to make her suffer. Sessh told me, it was the youkai in me.....that’s how we deal with those who betray us.
My guilt took over as I watched Shiori, let go of my hand. She slowly slide to another corner as she slipped on her Kimono. Those beautiful, deep, lavender eyes that usually sparkled at the mention of my name, watered. She looked as if someone took the very air from her. She swallowed hard.
“So.....Sango was right huh? You really don’t give a damn about me., do you?”

Finally, I looked into her eyes. “Shiori.....its not like that at all.” Ironic, isn’t it? The same explanation I screamed on Kagome for, was the one I gave Shiori........I didn’t know what to say. Shiori shut her eyes as she cleared her throat.
“Tell me, InuYasha, what exactly was it then?” She was hurt and thoroughly pissed off.

“I....I don’t know.” I whispered out, hoping she wouldn’t ry......I couldn’t have lived that down.

“Oh....you don’t know.” Shiori then cleared her throat. “You know damn well what the fuck it was like!”

My eyes widened. ‘Aww Shit!’ I thought. Shiori was about to go off on me, she had the same damn look in her eyes when she unloaded on Sango. Okay, I thought I could try some of the smooth shit I saw Sesshomaru do to calm his ladies. I walked towards her slowly, I caressed her face, ever so gently while placing my free arm around her waist.
“Shiori....I know, I was wrong. Gomen, let’s just sit down and talk......we can work this all out.” I thought I was really doin’ something. My tone was nice and low, my movements were slow...gentle, just like Sessh. She smiled, ever so sweetly as she backed away. As soon as I released her, she slapped the taste outta my damn mouth....my old man coulda felt that shit!

After I picked myself up from the ground, Shiori laid into again.
“Do I look like some foolish mortal bitch to you? Did you really think I was going to go for that line of bull?!”

With my hand still on my face, I called to her. “Shiori.....I-“

“You what? I didn’t fall for it when Sesshomaru laid it down and I’m not falling for your shit either!” She fired back at me. I raised an eyebrow.

“Sesshomaru...?” I paused as I scratched my ear. “You know him?”

“Unfortunately, I do. Some InuYoukai I dealt with a year after I ended things with Naraku. He sort of helped me when Naraku made his attempt to devour me.”

A smile started to form as I was all too ready to tell her he was my brother. “Well, I-“

“Yeah, just like you, that ass-hole burned his candle at both ends. He was the one who got burned however. He tried to come at me with all that smooth talk, with that tired, overly dramatic base voice of his......pissed me off!” Shiori just hurled these vivid insults at my brother....part of me wanted to laugh, I couldn’t wait to tell him.

“Well, I have something to-“

“Ugh, the more I think of him, the more it angers me! I mean he really puts it on thick, the way he struts around with that damn fur wrapped around him.......give me a break!” Shiori rolled her eyes as she continued to bash him.

I decided to keep her goin’ about him, hell, that meant I was off the hook. “So, what did he do to mess things up?”

“Well, things were okay, we learned a lot from each other. He just......he started to pull away from me. He grew so cold, I walked up on him, rutting some Inu-wench in the forest.”

“Hey!” I snapped at her.

“Gomen, really, I don’t hate Inuyoukai....just him, and you at the moment” She hissed out.

“First, the woman he was with acted as though she wanted a fight. I didn’t back down for her. Sesshomaru just dismissed her.”

“Oh, well...its just.....you were getting too close. He does that to anyone that gets close to him.”
I blurted out.

“Hmm, I don’t know.....he tried that same tired line that you just spat out.” She sighed as she ran her fingers through her wavy tresses. “You know, its almost like you two are.....” Her voice dropped as her eyes darted back and fourth. “Oh...Kami! “ She started to cry. “You, him....you two are brothers....aren’t you?”


I stood there in silence, watching this poor girl cry.........I didn’t think I could feel as bad as I already felt until then. Sesshomaru must not have mentioned me, if he did, he never revealed my identity to her. I said nothing as I bit my lower lip, my eyes fell to the floor. Before I could part my lips to say a word, I felt the sting of her enraged hand across my face. It was like I could hear her heart breaking. Her eyes full of tears, she looked at me with such disgust. Before she turned her back to me, she glared at me.
“I’m going for a long walk......don’t be here when I get back!”

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I had no idea how long I was in this bed nor in this room. All I had done in the past few days is cry. I couldn’t sleep....all I saw was, InuYasha and that girl. I opened my eyes, I saw Koga’s piercing blue eyes....glaring at me with such hate.....such judgement. Like he has any idea what its like to be a pregnant teen in my era, hell, he doesn’t even know what its like to carry a child! He wasn’t the one jumping up in the middle of the night....still hearing the sounds of an infant cry. Mom and gramps thought I was having a nervous breakdown, Yumi did to......perhaps I was. I felt like pulling my hair out, I couldn’t even bring myself to take a shower everyday.......didn’t see much point to it. It got to the point where I stopped eating, couldn’t keep anything down. I was breaking the hearts of those that cared for me and I couldn’t think to snap out of it.
“Kagome, you really have to....I mean, just eat something.......Onegai, I can’t stand seeing you like this.” Yumi had tears in her eyes, it didn’t phase me. I just turned my back to her tears, for the life of me, I could see why she gave a damn about me anyway. Yumi was fed up. She yanked the covers from me, pulled up the shades and dragged me out of the bed. It wasn’t like I had the strength to fight her. She pulled me up in front of her, pushing my hair back....forcing me to look in the mirror.
“DAMMIT, KAGOME! Look at yourself, looks like hot shit in the middle of August....all because of some no-good, misfit hanyou? Some neanderthal ookami who has no clue of this era or how it works? Fuck them both!” I never heard her yell like that. “Daisuke way too much to let you kill yourself over some Feudal Era freaks!” She was crying. It bothered her that I had no reaction what so ever. I shook my head as she pulled me towards the bathroom.
“No” I whispered. I wasn’t worth the trouble......I really did believe that at the time. Yumi was furious, she threw me over her shoulder and dropped me in the tub. My body was jolted at the feel of ice cold water. She quickly removed my clothing.
“Gomen, Kagome.” She whispered. “You stink anyway.”

As the water turned from cold to warm, I felt tears spring from my eyes. The feel of Yumi’s hands.....’Was she actually bathing me?’ To this day, I’m amazed by the love she had for me. I was unable to speak, I just cried.
“Just let it all out Kagome.” She whispered in my ear. She dressed me in a nice, fresh pear of pajamas. My mom was finally able to change my bed. I climbed into the bed, still crying......it was as if I didn’t know how to stop. I was so broken, completely unable to function. Yumi climbed in the bed next to me, her eyes watering as I cried myself to sleep.

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“ Yumi.” I heard the voice of an older female. Kagome resembled this woman, must be her mother.

“Hai, Higorashi-chan.” A young girl about Kagome’s age answered.

“ Tomorrow, I.....my father and I had decided that maybe we should-“ The woman stopped as tears fell from her eyes. “We are placing Kagome in the hospital, I- I think that is best for her. You know, for her state of mind.” She finished softly. I don’t even know this woman but I knew that was the hardest sentence she had to make.

As I sat there out of sight, on her roof, my mind wandered. ‘Hospital....could it be where mortals in her time go when......Kami,..... Kagome’s havin’ some sort of mental breakdown!’ I always thought she was so strong, that she could take whatever people threw at her. She just some ordinary mortal.....she’s a miko! I jumped from her roof with lightening speed. A fire surged through me as I quickly made it back to the well.
“Damn that dirty-“ I cut my sentence short. Suddenly it hit me like a sudden attack from Naraku, I was just as much to blame for this. If only I would have listened, I called her out for being what I am deep down.......SELFISH. Perhaps she did terminate our pup for InuYasha, it ain’t like she didn’t have other reasons. Truth is, she wasn’t mine, never was....never wanted to be. I knew it, I made the choice to lay with regardless, knowing what could happen. I pushed her too far, Ginta warned me of my harsh ways.....told me one day, I’d live to regret my attitude. I hated to admit it but the boy knew exactly what he was talkin’ about. I stepped out of the well, never happier to see the forest I knew so well. I unleashed a long, deep sigh.
“Like it or not, the mutt is who she loves........I gotta find InuYasha.”

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The night seemed to be longer then usual, no matter........the night and I got along quite well. I walked along side Jaken, closely watching Rin as she played near the water. It never ceases to amaze me....the life force of that child. My mind drifted far in thought as Jaken continued on talking my ears off......he never closes his mouth to think before he speaks. On and on he chatters, still feeling the need to kiss up to me after all these years. If he knew how much that vexed me, perhaps he’d shut up! I stopped short as a familiar scent welcomed my nose. It was sweet, inviting. ‘Could it be?’ I pondered to myself.
“My lord....you stopped.” Jaken stated.

“Stay here, watch Rin.” I ordered as I walked away.

“But....But, my lord”

“If anything happens to her, you will pay with your life.” I warned. I was on longer in Jaken’s sight.

I was unable to believe the vision my eyes saw. Shiori, her beauty, still as breathtaking as before. Her silver waves seemed to flow in harmony with the midnight breeze. I knew she was in distress, I could sense it. I stood quietly behind a large tree, watching her as if she were prey. To my disgust, Naraku’s scent soon followed. I despise him with every fiber of my being, the sight of his cold hands on Shiori’s face brought my golden eyes to a dangerous crimson hue....my anger was rising....I could feel the heat within my blood. He laughed at the feel of her spit on his face.
“I loath your very presence, Naraku.” She hissed out. He grabbed her, wrapping his filthy arms around her waist.

“Hmm......you seem to feel that way about quite a few males now, isn’t that right, my Shiori.” His smug demeanor made my blood boil. Still, I waited behind the tree. Naraku was too arrogant, unaware of my presence. Shiori unleashed a scream at the feel of his tongue, pressing against her neck.

“Let me go.....unhand me you bastard!” She yelled. Naraku let her go, unleashing an unsettling laugh as she struck his face. He walked towards her, as if stalking her. I knew this vile look of lust in his maroon eyes.
“Mmm....tastes just the way I remembered.” He pounced on her, tearing at her clothing like a common animal. I had seen enough. I leaped from my hiding place, my sword at his throat.
He laughed once more. “Ah, lord Sesshomaru.......I knew you would come to her rescue.”

With my sword still at his throat, I informed him.
“Then you know tonight, your life is mine.”



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“Dammit InuYasha!” I cursed myself out loud. What the hell was wrong with me?
I betrayed Shiori in the worst way......yet, Kagome was on my mind, more then ever. Sango was right, I could not live, not without my little miko. My life would never be full without her love. It was time to swallow every bit of my selfish pride and go to her. There was an all too familiar scent in the air......made my blood run hotter then any fire. My fists clinched at the whirl of wind in front of me. I reached for my Tetsaiga at the sight of those ookaim blue eyes.
“I let you live the last time I saw you Koga. Don’t expect the same consideration tonight!” I growled at him, my hands on my sword. What the hell was this? He just stood there, no smart remark, no type of defensive stance or anything.
“Feh.....if ‘ya think I still won’t take your worthless life, you’re dead wrong.”

“Do what you feel is best, InuYasha.” His tone was broken, completely. He walked towards me, what, was he giving me his life? “Maybe I deserve it.”

I damn near dropped my sword. “Koga, just what the hell do you want......Kagome ain’t with-“

“I know where she is. I saw her at her home.”

“Oh, so now she lets you come see her......I guess I’ve been fuckin’ replaced. ‘Ya know what....I don’t even know why I’m listening to this shit....I’m out-“ I growled at the feel of Koga’s hand griping my wrist. “ You better have a damn good reason for puttin’ your filthy mitts on me, wolf!”

Koga sighed as he let go. “ Its Kagome.....she’s- she ain’t well. Not at all.”

“What the hell do you mean, she ain’t well?” My heart was at a pace I’ve never felt before.

“Look, InuYasha, you can hate me all you want. Kagome, she needs you.....she’s just a mess without you.”

“Feh....I doubt that.” I snorted back at him. Before I could say anything else, that damn wolf jacked me up against one of the trees.

“Dammit, you stupid dog! “He yelled. “Let us not act like you ain’t on a self destructive path! Everybody knows what you did to Shiroi. That ain’t you at all. You’re a lot of things but a cold hearted user ain’t one of’em.”

I turned away from him, I couldn’t let that ookami see me break, blind to the fact that he already did.

“InuYasha, if you don’t go to her now......eventually, she will die inside and you will to.”


A/N : PHEEEWWWWWW....took me long enough! I hope you all enjoyed it. Please stay tuned for the next chappie:0)