Lust or Love

Lust or Love


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Lust or Love?   

 

An alternative fanfic created by
Phlie.

 

Chapter 10 – The Switch

Kagome finished off her lunch and
went outside to greet her friends.  They were so glad to see her and that made
her wonder why they hadn’t come inside the hut to check on her.  She
hadn’t seen anyone but Inu Yasha since she had awoken.  As Shippo ran to
her, she bent down to grab up the kitsune.  She absently petted his head
as she looked around for her care giver.  Inu Yasha was no where to be
found.  ‘That’s just like him to
leave me here, wanting’, she thought.  ‘There are still questions that need to be answered.’

 

Shippo’s squeals of delight
captured the girl’s attention and she looked down at him.  She had been
scratching him behind his ears as she would have done to Inu Yasha, had he only
stuck around.  “Shippo, I am glad to see that you are back to normal now.”

 

The child frowned and jumped out
of her arms.  “I just got the rest of the group to stop teasing me, and
now you drag it all up again”, he said, feigning hurt and rejection.

 

“Oh, Shippo.  I’m so sorry.  I
didn’t mean to upset you.”  She truly was sorry, too.  She knew it
couldn’t have been easy to have Miroku and Inu Yasha teasing him.  She just
hoped that Miroku hadn’t tried to grope the poor child.

 

“Got ya”, cried Shippo as he
dashed away from her.

 

“Oh!  And to think I was
feeling sorry for you”, she shot back at him.  The kitsune turned long
enough to stick his tongue out at her. 

 

“What’s with Shippo?  I’m
used to him teasing Inu Yasha, but he’s never really acted this way towards me
before”, she asked to no one in particular.

 

Miroku stood and turned to help
Sango up.  He had really changed since he and Sango had finally given into
their true feelings for one another.  She was so happy for the
couple.  She was also a bit envious.  ‘To think Sango used to be envious of me’, she thought.

 

“I think it’s because we were all
really tense, worrying about you”, replied Sango.  She walked the short
distance over to her friend and gave her a big hug.  “For the first 2 days
it was really touch and go with you.  We are all so relieved.  Guess
he just needs to blow off some steam.”

 

“Yah, I can see how relieved Inu
Yasha is.  He didn’t bother to stick around long.”

 

“Speaking of Inu Yasha”, began
Miroku, “I might as well go collect some supplies since we’ll be here in the
village for a few days.  I know he won’t be back for awhile.”

 

Sango hissed slightly to grab the
thick headed monk’s attention and then shot him a glance that urged him to keep
quiet.  ‘All Inu Yasha needs right now is for Kagome to find about
his human form’, she thought to herself.

 

“What do you mean, Miroku”,
Kagome asked.

 

“Why don’t we go down to the spring
and get you washed up.  Surely you would like to relax and get clean, and I’ll explain it to you on the way”, Sango broke
in before Miroku could make things worse.

 

“Oh, yes.  I feel like I
haven’t washed in a week.”  ‘Oh,
jeez, I haven’t washed in a week’, she thought to herself.  ‘I must really smell, no wonder Inu Yasha left.  I’m sure with his great sense of smell I really reeked.’

 

The girls walked down to the
spring, Sango talking the whole way, trying to get Kagome to understand about
the reaction Inu Yasha had to Kagome right before ‘her time of the
month’.  The two stripped and got into the spring.  The water felt so
good to Kagome.  It was as if it was the first bath she had ever
had.  She swam about for a bit and then slowly made her way over closer to
where her friend was.

 

“So he really freaks out when I’m
‘in heat’, huh?”

 

“Oh, yah.  And I’m sure that it
didn’t help that the smell had probably kept building up on you, since you
weren’t awake to do anything about it.”

 

“That’s true.  But then why
did he stick around long enough to see that I woke up?  He just doesn’t
make sense to me sometimes.”

 

“Don’t worry, we get just as
confused.”  Sango thought for awhile.  “I told you, Kagome.  You
two used to be as close as any two people can be - and not be lovers”, she
amended.  “I noticed that you didn’t throw yourself on him this time after
a kill.  Congratulations.” 

 

Kagome didn’t say anything. 
She just smiled weakly at her friend and swam off again.  She was deep in
thought and didn’t realize that her friend had gotten out to
dry off and redress.  Kagome was thinking about the events that had
occurred around this time last month and realized that Inu Yasha had indeed
abandoned the group then as well.  ‘I
was left to my own defenses then too’, she thought.

 

“Kagome!  Kagome!  Hello, earth
to Kagome!”

 

Kagome suddenly heard her friend
calling to her and turned to face the bank of the spring.  “Yes?”

 

“Are you okay, I’ve been calling
to you for awhile now?”

 

“Yes, I’m fine.  Just thinking about our favorite dog demon.”

 

Sango grinned.  Maybe Kagome
would finally realize that she could have a good thing going with Inu
Yasha.  “I’m going back to Kaede’s hut.  Will you be okay by
yourself?  There’s no moon tonight, you know.”

 

“Yes, I’ll be fine.  I’ll be
back before dark.”

 

Sango turned to leave and Kagome
went back to her swim.  Her muscles needed the stretch that the long swim
was giving her.  She stopped for a moment, remembering what Sango had said
to her. “No moon tonight”, she whispered.  She suddenly remembered what
happened the last time there had been no moon.  She had all but forgotten
her ‘mystery man’. 

 

“Ugh!”  She dipped her head
back into the water long enough for her face to dip into the cool liquid and
then brought it upright once again.  She had been so excited about him at
first, but now she was having other thoughts.  She hated to admit it, but
she had really enjoyed her time with Inu Yasha.  Now she was back at
square one, not really knowing who or what she wanted.

 

* 
*  *  * 

 

When Kagome got back to Kaede’s
hut, she found it empty.  Everyone had left her.  She went over to
her pack to grab some aspirin and found the note that Sango had written to
her. 

 

Went to help Kaede with some sick
villagers.  We may not be back
tonight.  Kaede said to stay here and rest, she doesn’t want you getting
ill again.

Love you, sis.

 

‘Well, I guess I’ll have to fend for myself tonight’, she thought to
herself.  She lit the candles that she could find, preparing for the
upcoming sunset.  With no moon out tonight it would get dark without the
lights.  She sat down and grabbed her diary out of the pack and opened to
a clean page.  She was deep in thought, pouring her sole onto the page,
and didn’t really notice that the light from outside had completely gone. 


 

She finally got up and went over
to the fire.  Kaede or Sango, she didn’t know which, had left her some
stew.  Of course, she also had her ramen.  She went back over to her
bag to dig out the cup of instant noodles.  She was about to go back over
to the fire to put on some water when she happened to look towards the doorway
and was startled to see a figure standing there.

 

“Don’t look so surprised, you
gave me permission to come visit you”, the figure said, stepping into the
light.

 

Kagome panicked and dropped the
package.  It wasn’t that she didn’t want to see him, but she wasn’t sure
of what she wanted to do, how she should react towards him.  “How did you
find me”, she finally asked.

 

He was glad to see that she
didn’t recognize him.  Sango had borrowed some clothes for him.  He
hadn’t wanted to wear someone else’s clothes at first, but she reminded him
that Kagome would certainly realize it was him if she had enough light to see
his kimono this time.

 

“I began at the other side of the
village and asked about you until I found someone that knew you.  Seems
that you are popular, it didn’t take me too long”, he chuckled.

 

“Oh.”  She didn’t say
anything else.  She didn’t know what to say.

 

Inu Yasha frowned at her. 
He now understood that he was going to have to do drastic things tonight to get
her out of her shell, and to pick who she wanted.  He was still trying to
formulate a plan in his head.  He wanted her to pick his hanyou form, but
he was uncertain as to how to do that without making her hate his human
form.  He was also still at a lose as to how to
finally tell her his secret.

 

“Aren’t you glad to see me? 
You seem as though you would have me leave”, he stated.

 

Kagome snapped out of her
silence.  “No, no.  I’m actually really glad to see you.”  She
reached down for the ramen and then put it to the side.  She started to
bowl up some stew instead.  “Would you care to eat with me?  Then you
can tell me about your adventure.”

 

“Yes, that would be nice.” 
He had to think about what he would tell her.  Maybe an adventure he had
been on with her, before she had lost her memory.  Yes, that would do
nicely.  He could tell her about a lost memory and not be lying to her.

 

They sat down together and ate,
all the while Kagome questioned him and Inu Yasha answered.  She was
having a good time with the boy, but her thoughts kept trailing back to the
hanyou.  She even called the boy Inu Yasha by mistake at one point, and
then she realized that she didn’t even know his name.

 

“Is it really important for you
to know something as trivial as that”, he asked her.

 

‘Not unless I want a relationship with you’, she thought.  She
was silent for a moment and then replied, “No.  It can wait.”

 

* 
*  *  * 

 

After they were thru eating,
Kagome took his bowl and went over to the small tub that Kaede put her used
dishes in to soak.  She was about to turn around when she felt two hands
on her arms.  She stiffened at his touch and then slowly turned
around.  “You don’t find it necessary to tell me your name, but you think
you can be so familiar with me as to come up behind me like that”, she
questioned him.

 

“You said it wasn’t
important.  Besides, the only time it’s necessary to know my name is when
you are ready to scream it out in ecstasy.”

 

Kagome’s head shot up as she
looked at him.  She didn’t have to look long to find the thing she feared
most.  It wasn’t the same situation as her dream.  It was
worse.  In her dream it had been Inu Yasha with that look of lust in his
eyes, not a total stranger.  And of course, it was worse because this was
real.  She couldn’t just wake herself up.

 

She backed up, but he held her
arms tightly, not allowing her to go far.  ‘Where’s Inu Yasha when I need him’, she thought.  She panicked
and then did the first thing that came to her mind, something she had seen
Sango do to Miroku once when she needed to get away from his lecherous
advances.  She smiled sweetly at the boy and brought her hands up to rub
the upper part of his arms.

 

Inu Yasha had seen the panicked
look in her eyes and was reluctant to carry on this charade, but he needed to
know how she felt.  One way or another, he needed to know.  He
certainly wasn’t expecting her to warm to him.  That was worrisome. 
Did she really want him as his human form, or worse, did she just want anyone
but the hanyou?  He relaxed his grip, ready to turn and walk away.

 

She felt his grip on her arms
relax and she snuggled closer to him, drawing him closer.  “You are not
what you appeared to be”, she whispered.  She lifted her hands to his head
and turned it until his left ear was right next to her soft lips.  A chill
ran down his spine as his body enjoyed her warm breath, but his mind was
troubled.  “I would rather be with the hanyou than you”, she screamed into
his ear.  She brought her knee up to make contact with his mid section.

 

Inu Yasha doubled over on the
floor and Kagome took the opportunity to run from the hut, into the dark
night.  She ran, not looking back, until she had found her friends. 
One look at the frightened girl told Sango what she needed to know.  ‘He better stop this game before everything falls apart’, she
thought to herself.  

 

 

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