The painful scars underneath
Ch-1
Ch-1: A MISPLACED
CONVICTION
Eight years ago “Think again, do you
really wish to use the Jewel to save this girl? You may be damned yourself and the
girl for whom you are sacrificing your soul
will no longer remember you”, the spirits inside the Jewel warned
Inuyasha as he intended to use the Shikon-no-tama to
restore Kagome back to life. “Keh,
I will not regret this decision, I want her alive. She is too little to
die.” Inuyasha managed to say though the
words choked his voice as he looked at the lifeless Kagome in his arms, yet he
knew he has to be calm and not break down in front of Miroku
and Sango.
I promised to protect YOU with my life!
“Young boy, we aremoved by your true feelings, so we will make another of your
wish come true after which you will become a human and you two will
share the complete life cycle of a human.” “Hah! That’s more
than enough…means I won’t die before a human’s complete lifetime!” Inuyasha was quite surprised; he couldn’t
fathom using the Jewel would be so easy. My only wish would be to see all your wishes
come true…
Now that Naraku is defeated
and the Jewel finally disappeared, they have no other work at hand which means
restoring Kagome’s memories won’t be a tough job at all. A very frail girl
opened her eyes and looked childishly at the figure enwinding her tightly, “You
must be Inuyasha, but why are you…”her eyes suddenly seemed so cold and
distant, filled with an unrecognizable expression, “let go of me.” A pang of an equally
painful yet unknown emotion passed through him and then a strange relief: Kagome remembers me!!!!!!!
. . . .
. . . . . . . .. One month later. . . . . . . . . . . .
------------Flashback-------------
“Y-you are to blame yourself for this”,
Inuyasha gritted out as anger as well as helpless drug of passion overtook him,
hardly able to utter any syllable properly.
effectively wound around Kagome’s both wrists blocking any of her
remonstrations and his legs tightly
trapped her thighs, his other hand busy in shredding her clothes. His passion heated
kisses showered relentlessly onto Kagome’s neck and shoulders, his rough hot
tongue licked her cheeks and lips.
“Get away from me, YOU
MONSTER…I - I... NO DON’T, I am to get married to Hojo,
Pl-please don’t d-do this to me”, Kagome screamed hating these unwanted
attentions.
The words affected
him just as Kagome pain-stricken tear stained face did…but that didn’t prevent
the ever swirling increasing heat to pool in his groins, in response he roughly
ground his rock hard member on her inner thighs, a taste of what comes next- the inevitable consummation.
Inuyasha backhanded her hard enough to draw a thin line of blood in the corner
of her tiny lips. His expression
flickered for a moment and he hated for putting her in so much pain for this
moment though he is certain that the outcome will be for the best of her, of them…
He licked off the blood stain from her lips; Kagome flinched.
His hand sensuouslymoved up her body as he grunted something that sounds like, “Just relax”
and he dipped his fingers into her love-lips and tried to start a soothing
rhythm, as much soothing as Kagome’s weak protests would allow him…Kagome found
herself getting wet though she despised the thought of responding to such a Monster’s touch.
“This will reduce your pain”, he murmured
and with expert ease stroked inside of her in circles onto that spot where she
is most sensitive, “Trust me”.
Within a matter of
minutes she reached her peak and cried out, tears of shame raining down her eyes.
Inuyasha licked them away and mounted her suddenly before she recovered from
her first climax, quickly rupturing her hymen. The pain caused her to scream
helplessly and she cursed him, the only response she got was a faltering kiss
on her lips. He moved into her slowly at first, though giving her no time to
get adjusted to his size. As his tension intensified, he thrusted
harder and faster into her newly de-flowered body…it took him only another
dozen thrusts before he came hard inside of her, his seeds mixing with Kagome
un-welcomed juices.
“None can separate us now, not even that
stupid well. YOU BELONG TO ME”,
he wrapped her sobbing little body in his haori,”Lets return to our home,” he gentled a bit towards her after ravaging
her soft still blossoming body as he carried her to his world from her home.
never stop such a vicious demon…
---------End of flashback---------
Oh Gods, what have I done!
Inuyasha ponderedover all the recent events…
Kagome remembered
everything about their friends and journeys but she avoided being close to him,
at first he contributed that to her shyness and ill health but following her
closely he noticed many changes; Kagome would study in her spare times and
rarely chat with the group, she would preclude any form of physical contact
with him which they both previously cherished in secret, her arousal wont
glimmer when she stayed in his close proximity, and worst of them all, she
preferred to stay in her home and spend time with that human bastard. When he
asked why she is being so intimate with Hojo, she simply glared at him and said
he is a good boy. Of course, his
little Kagome isn’t in love with that scum but even then she agreed to marry
him. The very thought simply infuriated him which increased infinitely when she
attempted to seal the well when he forced her against the marriage, so the only
thing that came into his devastated mind was to use the Jewel and make Kagome
his so that he may truly bring her to where she really belongs.
of all thoughts he didn’t anticipate the outcome, couldn’t in all of his dreams
believe her rejection of him to be so intense and her stubbornness to hold out
this long…
A very naked
Inuyasha couched onto the cold floor, his back pressed to the wall of the tiny
hut they so regarded as their home…a strange sort of numbing feeling overwhelming
him, his ponderings becoming strained just as his mind after the day’s toil,
his body hurting due to the super condensed coils of unresolved sexual tension,
his tautness a constant remainder of his pain.
His eyes moved to
trace Kagome’s body affectionately covered by a thin blanket, leaving her
shoulders bare to his not-at-all sated gaze, the fire light imparting his black
hairs a glazed appearance further emphasizing his human form as well as
debilities.
girl…a part of his mind filled with self-disgust as recognition of just what
she said dawned in.
‘I HATE YOU, YOU RAPIST!
DON’T TOUCH ME.’
just a child…what can she possibly know about RAPE; and besides she probably
doesn’t understand how close they really were, that’s why she is so revolting.
In the deeper planes
of his mind, he realized exactly that her first time was non consensual, but it
can’t be rape…how can union between any lovers be called rape?
‘But I don’t love you!’
Surely, she will understand why I acted likethis; had she not always understood me, besides she used to be a virgin…she
just needs some time…
Present time
wants to see you this evening for a very special guest. Lots
of money and audiences too!” one of the local pimp’s guard addressed to a
ragged and fatigued man.
The man wore
tattered clothes, his body carefully covered by white dusty looking sheets
resembling a bandage. His black hair unkempt and thin in certain patches…hair
covering his face thus revealing only one eye. His thin shriveled up face
giving the impression of a very old man although he is barely in thirties!
“Oh! The special
guest is the Lord of the West…you
must recognize him, after all, he himself has ordered your presence”, the
guards nasty taunting exposed his other major interest.
The so-less-man like
creature slightly raised its head hesitantly and gave the barest of all nods.
-------------------An old
recollection--------------------
“You abomination,
what have you done to Kagome?” Sango screamed.
choose a worthless hanyou over her. Give her back to us.”Miroku
said hatefully, his love for his friend evaporating as Inuyasha’s
unacceptable deed is revealed to him, “I hate that time when I even considered
you as a friend” “You can do nothing
to stop me…you can never violate the mating bonds of Inuyokais
unless of course you kill me,” Inuyasha
said, malicious smirk gracing his features, “Guess what, being a monk
you can’t even kill a youkai turned human.” He left that Kikyo’s village with Kagome to escape from any surprise
attacks and forced her to stay in a tiny hut with him.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
“Inuyasha,
how can you be so evil? I never harmed you so why are you doing this to me “the hurt look on her face overpowered
his strict-appearing façade.
overwhelmed him and all that he could manage to say is: “Don’t disobey me,
Kagome…you must have already realized how
EVIL I truly can be!” Anguish filled her; she
moved her face away from him and wailed as if her last opportunity of survival
is shattered.
But it is my only opportunity to find
happiness…
shook from her soreness of heart, mind as well as body. The unforgivable throb in between her legs
has stilled into a dull ache, but the astounding act of betrayal by someone
whom she once considered as a friend left her speechless…
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End of recollection---------------------
“What is it, you whore…why are you staring at the wall?” Miroku taunted at the creature lost in its thoughts finding it
squatting in a corner of the street,
“I have known ogling at walls for long times
often reveals strange faces, both the yearned ones and the feared ones!”
his mockery apparent in his suggestive tone.
The creature shook
slightly as if in trepidation.
…so whose face did you just
saw…
A/N: This is originally made for
adult-fanfiction.org, so its
not a fluff though it will have soft & fluffy chapters too. Both the anime
and manga mostly speaks from Kagome’s view, so this one will highlight Inuyasha
more (yay, even in fictions we rarely get his POV!)
Inuyasha due to his
obstinate nature (as is shown in the anime) will lose everything that is
precious to him…even his love can do very little to bind Kagome with him; also,
this has been my 1st writing put out for others to see & I
personally feel this story is very difficult to write (phul-eeze
be a bit nice!)
is very much dark & would include a variety of fetishes at certain places
and is presented in the form of flashbacks (what happened 8 years ago and what
is happening at present)…keep reading & please do leave lots & lots of
reviews…R & R