UnFaithful

UNFAITHFUL

I woke up this morning....my head was killing me. I fell asleep in my robe. As I slowly sat up and it all came back to me....everything. Suddenly I felt like my whole world had come to a loud, crashing halt. I can still hear the harsh words InuYasha spat out at me........I cried as if I didn’t deserve every word he said. I shut my eyes, only to see the way I threw myself to the ground, refusing to let go of him when he tried to leave. I begged and pleaded with InuYasha as he peeled me off of him, yelling at the top of his lungs how my very scent made him ill.
“Let go of me....don’t you ever touch me again!” That was it.....the last thing he said to me before jumping down the well.

As I got up to walk around, I noticed scratches on my hips........they did not belong to him. Dammit!......What have I done? The minute I stepped into the shower, the warm water hit my face, my eyes closed.....thoughts, flashes of the crime I committed against my InuYasha, resurfaced. ‘Damn him!’ I thought, wanting so badly to blame him for my mistake. I knew it was not his fault. My feelings of guilt overwhelmed me as I curled into a ball in the tub, with my head leaning against the wall.....I cried seven oceans of tears.

InuYasha and I have been having serious relationship issues for months now, always fighting, hurling curses at one another...it hurt. He told me, ever since my little brother’s death, I’ve done nothing but push him away. Perhaps he was right....no, he was right, no doubt about it. Things got to where we went days without speaking. I couldn’t go to Sango, she and Miroku are in that sickening stage in their relationship when everything is beautiful...happy, like me and InuYasha used to be. I soon found myself confiding in the one man I had no business confiding in......Koga. Believe it or not, he is a very sweet, kind person....so quiet and patient. I soon learned that cocky, all knowing attitude the ookami prince carried, was a mask, a way of protecting himself. Late at night while everyone else slept, I met up with him. We talked for hours about our dysfunctional love lives. He to belonged to another, a beautiful ookami princess by the name of Aaliyah. She was from another pack, half way across the world. Aaliyah, defiantly a fiery one with her long dark hair, full lips and skin the color of rich caramel. I never understood why she was so insecure about me, she had a body I could only pray to have some day. I know she hates the very air I breathe, every time my name is mentioned, her light-brown eyes look as if they could kill. Maybe that why she and InuYasha got along so well.....they hated that fact that Koga and I are....were friends. I remember him telling me how she treated him at times, the way shes so quick to accuse him of being untrue, how she curses him out in front of his pack brothers when angered. When asked why he is still with her, his only reply is,
“I love her.....she needs me.” Ginta told me it’s the sex as well, all I could do was laugh. I couldn’t blame him.....everybody knows how InuYasha can be, loud, crude and the lists goes on but like Koga, I stay because I love him. We always cleaned things up be saying we couldn’t see ourselves with anyone else.......now I’m wondering, who was it we were trying to convince, the others or ourselves?

I never once thought I was doing anything wrong. All we did was talk, give each other for advice or at least that is what I kept telling myself. I can still recall the night Sesshomaru approached me before I could slip back into Keade’s hut.
“There is nothing going on and how did you even......what, are you following me now?”

“Mark my words Kagome, you are going to find yourself in a situation you cannot correct.”

“I can’t have friends now?” I was growing irritated with him.

“You mortals never listen.....you need to tell InuYasha your feelings, not that ookami.”

“When did this become your business?”

“When my little brother made the decision to give his heart to yet another mortal”

“Oh....now you want to play big brother huh? Where were you when it counted?” I stepped back, that was a low blow. What was it that made me say that? He sighed as he shut his eyes. I knew that was his way of keeping calm. His eyes fixed on me once more.
“Do not be foolish girl...end this now”.

“I only have one father and he died many years-“

“Listen to me”. He growled while grabbing my wrist. “I know of what I speak and deep down, you know that I am right.....you would not be so angry if I was wrong.” He let me go. Before I could blink, Sesshomaru was gone. He left me there, alone with my thoughts. To think, that altercation happened only a few weeks ago.

Last night.....if only I could go back.....InuYasha and I had a terrible fight. I shiver each time I think of the things I said to him. All he wanted, was to love me....I pushed him away. While it was true that I saw him with Kikyo, I knew nothing was going on. I’ve been over their past relationship for some time now.......besides, the bitch was dead anyway! Why didn’t I let him explain? He looked so hurt....so sad and I still picked a fight with him. I pushed and pushed....he almost hit me. I remember the way he pulled me to him and held me, whispering in my ear how lucky I was that he was in love with me. Why didn’t I hug him back? God, all I had to do was embrace him.....tell him what I was feeling....what I was going through. My family cannot get passed Sota’s death, mom is so depressed, all she does is sleep and cry, I’m failing ALL my classes....my grampa is stressed out, worrying himself sick....why couldn’t I break down.....InuYasha knew all this and yet, I still pushed him aside. I squirmed out of his grasp and told him I was going home. I swear I was really going home.......I just decided to take the long way back to the well. While strolling through the woods, thinking about running back to InuYasha and jumping into his loving arms, I saw him.......the “trouble” Sesshomaru spoke of.


Koga was sitting near a small pond, his hair was down, as if he were trying to hide something. His back was to me but I knew he was upset. Sesshomaru’s words came to my mind almost instantly, I started to turn away and head for home. ‘No, Kagome, he is your friend’. I thought....god, I can be so damn stupid sometimes. Slowly, I walked up behind him.
“Hey you.” I tried to sound as cheerful as I could. He said nothing. I noticed him wipe his face with his arm. I gently placed my hand on his shoulder.
“Koga, what’s wrong?”
He sighed as he placed his thick, black hair behind his ear. My eyes widened at the scratches I saw on his face. I sat down next to him.
“I hope those are mating scratches.”
He let out that hearty laugh of his. “Why hell no......Aaliyah just lost her damn mind is all.”
I did not respond....I wasn’t sure how to. I’ve always heard of how scary youkai women can be when it comes to relationships.

“I don’t know how long I can continue to deal with her shit!” He paused. “You know, I understand she had a hard life but hell, so have I....dammit, I can’t think straight.”

“What happened?” I finally said something.

“Lets just say, she now knows where I’ve been slipping off to at night.....not to mention to whom.” He added as he leaned against a large tree.

“Oh.” I felt my face get warm. I turned away so he didn’t see me blushing. “Let me go talk to her, it’s the least I can do.” He pulled at my arm as I started to get up.

“No.....absolutely not. Are you nuts....that woman is crazy!”

“Koga, I can’t let her think we’ve been.....that you still have feelings for me.” I whispered the last part, like it was some big secret. The way his blue eyes were fixed o me, I knew he still felt something for me.....he didn’t have to say a word. I should have said ‘goodbye’, right then and there. Something was holding me there.....why couldn’t I just leave? He looked away as he cleared his throat.

“Look, Kagome, I’ll take care of her. Shit, the last thing I need is for something to happen to you.... I’d- I would never forgive myself for that.”

“Oh....yeah, thank you for caring so much.” What was I doing there? I had no business here.....things were getting a little to sticky. “If it makes you feel any better, InuYasha almost hit me.” I cursed myself deep down for spewing that out. Kouga’s eyes darted towards me.

“What the fuck?” He was about to get up....I pulled his arm before he did.

“No...no, before you get all crazy on me, he didn’t. Although, the way I pushed him, I would have deserved it.”

I jumped when he caressed my face. “Thats not true. I could care less what was said, he better not ever in his life, raise his hands to you.”

I was blushing again....god, I was acting like a dumb school girl.....oh, well lets see, I’m in school and failing.....hmmmm. I knew then, the way his eyes were locked on me.....Sesshomaru was right. I had no damn business with Koga, not when I was so messed up in the head. Hell, the both of us were messed up. I knew what Sesshomaru was getting at....Kouga was/ is way too much for me, I had no clue of how powerful his youkai presence was. Still, I stayed there.

Our silence was almost haunting. I sat across from him, doing everything I could to avoid his gaze. Really, I thought I was doing the right thing....being there for my friend. He looked so tense, so hurt. I knew how he felt, like no matter what he did, the woman he loved would find something wrong.....the same way I made InuYasha feel. I scooted over next to him and gently traced the scratches Aaliyah left on his face. I smiled as he turned to face me.
“Its not as bad I thought.” I whispered to him. Our eyes met, I didn’t possess the power to look away from his piercing blue eyes. He said nothing as he leaned in to kiss me. I should have back away the minute....the second his lips touched mine, I pulled him close instead. My mouth opened, allowing his tongue entry. The tighter he squeezed me....the more I wanted his strong kiss. I gasped, grabbing a handful of his hair as he sucked on my neck....oh god he has the strongest lips I’ve ever felt in my life. I threw my head back, closing my eyes, it felt so good to be kissed and sucked on like that. He slowly glided his tongue across my neck, sending chills up and down my spine. Thoughts of InuYasha flooded my mind.
“K-Koga.” I whimpered to him. “Koga.....stop, we can’t.....I can’t do this.” I told him, all the while, I wasn’t able to let go of him. His eyes called to me.
“If it is what you want, I will stop.”

I didn’t know what to do....there was a part of me that needed him. It had been so long since InuYasha and I connected on such a level. Thinking back on it, I wanted him....I was too scared to say it. I was afraid of the outcome....my heart was sending me a message my body wasn’t trying to hear. The feeling of his body on me was louder then the cries of my heart.
“Take me.” I whispered to him, my eyes full of shameless lust. Nothing else needed to be said, leaned in to kiss me once again. My hands ran wildly through his hair. His lips never left mine as he removed my shirt. My body quivered at the feel of his bare hands on my skin.
“I won’t hurt you, Kagome.” He whispered to me. I shut my eyes, all I could see, was InuYasha’s face, knowing how wrong I am for letting Koga touch me this way. ‘Of all the men to give in to’ I thought. Tears ran down my face as he lightly kissed my neck.
“Sssh, please, don’t cry.” He said, while wiping my face gently. “I’ll make things better....trust me.” He finished, before capturing my lips. His kisses made my head spin.

I watched him remove his armor......damn, I forgot how beautiful his body was. So strong and toned. He smiled as he took in my scent, my body was calling for him. I gave him the signal to take off my skirt. The feel of his hands exploring my body, sent my heart racing, his soft lips sucking on my nipples set me on fire....all I wanted, was for him to be inside of me. I could feel his hand sliding down passed his naval. He parted my legs, making sure we had eye contact as he placed his two fingers into my dark world. His deep, blue eyes full of unrelenting hunger for me. I let out a soft moan as he slowly moved his fingers in a circular motion, he was careful not to scratch me. I rocked my hips to his rhythm...his pace grew faster, just has I was about to climax, he removed his fingers. I swallowed hard while watching him licking my taste from his hand. A sneaky grin flashed across Koga’s, I knew where this was going as he slid down , licking his lips before consuming my deep sensitivity. His grip on my hips was tight as his warm tongue entered me. Oh god....he felt so...so amazing, the more I moaned, the faster he flicked his tongue. The way he took in my taste....the way he pulled me to him when tried to squirm away.....the very feel of him sent a wave of ecstacy all through me. I had to call to him.
“Koga....I can’t..” I was so dizzy, I couldn’t finish my sentence. I felt beads of sweat pour down my face. I didn’t want him to stop but I was going to explode, my legs were shaking. Just as I was about to unleash a scream, I shut my eyes....again....visions of InuYasha haunted me. My emotions were a mix of pleasure and pain as I screamed out to Kouga, more tears fell from my eyes.

Koga faced me once more, his lips still dripping with my taste. The passion in his kiss told me he felt the same guilt...the intoxicating sensation of pleasure and emotional pain. My body longed to feel him..it longed for him to put out the fire he set inside me the second his lips touched mine. It was my heart that screamed for us to stop.....that sent the overflow of tears each time I violated InuYasha’s trust. I wrapped my legs around Koga as he entered me, his eyes never left mine. I prayed to every god I knew that he would silence the cries of my heart but....it didn’t work. He was deep inside me, the feel of him moved me in ways I never knew existed. Every time I whispered in his ear....I cried for InuYasha, as he cried for Aaliyah. Feelings of guilt overwhelmed us as he slammed himself deeper, harder into my world. He growled with twisted pleasure as I dug my nails into his skin, sliding them intensely, across his back, not giving a damn about the marks I made. His sweat dripped all over me....my body wanted more, to be devoured by him. However the images of InuYasha would not leave me alone. Images of Aaliyah invaded Koga’s mind as well....I could tell the way he squeezed me. Our heads were spinning as he thrust himself inside me one last time. My entire body shook when I cried out from cumming so hard. My tears of ecstacy soon turned to tears of shame...of fear and intense guilt. What did I just do? I threw on my clothes and left Kouga sleeping near the pond. I knew he would understand.....he would soon have to face his mate also.

I was an emotional, nervous wreck, once I got home. Mom was asleep as usual, grampa was stirring around somewhere. Quickly, I slipped up the steps....my hair was a wavy mess, my cloths were on crooked and tears were falling on and off. I walked into my dark bedroom. As I made my way towards the bathroom, my lamp suddenly turned on. I quickly turned my back, knowing it was InuYasha. His silver hair covered his face, was he sitting on my bed waiting for me all this time? I stood as far as I could from him, praying he wouldn’t pick on Koga’s scent.
“Kagome......we really need to talk things out.”

‘Oh god, I so don’t deserve him’ I thought. ‘Hes going to leave me’. Was all I kept thinking, I wanted to cry out loud, to took all I had to let go.

“Kagome, I love you.....we can’t keep goin’ like this.” He stood up and began walking towards me. I placed my hand on the bedroom door knob. ‘Pull yourself together’. I told myself.


“I know.....c-can I just.....I need to take a bath.” I managed to get out.

“Kagome.”

“P-Please.....InuYasha. I’ll be out soon, okay....I love you to.” Before he could answer, I shut the door and threw those cloths in the trash can. I can remember how scalding hot the water was and how hard I scrubbed my skin. My eyes were blinded by steam and tears. My skin was red from all the harsh scrubbing, I poured the whole bottle of shampoo in my hair, my eyes stung from the soap. Never had I been so desperate to be clean before. Frustration set in....I couldn’t smell Kouga anymore but that didn’t mean InuYasha would not smell him.......’damn those InuYoukai’ I thought. I was so scared, I couldn’t loose him....not now! I couldn’t hold it in any longer, I cried a loud like a newborn baby, not thinking of how keen InuYasha’s hearing was. My heart stopped at the sound of my door opening.
“Kagome......why are you cryin’?” His tone was so loving, full of concern. ”And don’t tell me its nothing.” I continued to cry and scrub my skin, I must have bad a quick breakdown or something....why didn’t I answer him? He grew quiet, as if he picked up on something........I jumped up as he violently pulled back my curtain. I never felt a fear like this, my heart sank once I saw my discarded clothing in his clawed hands. His golden eyes burned a hole right through me as he noticed the marks on my hips....they did not belong to him. I couldn’t even look his way, my tears told on me.....I was indeed untrue to him. He let out a threatening growl as he jerked away from my reach. I could feel his heart breaking and I wanted to die. He was speechless, he stormed out of my bathroom. I grabbed my robe, didn’t even bother to dry off...I followed him.
“Inu...Yasha.” I whispered his name. His back was turned to me. “InuYasha, I....words can’t-“
I was stumbling all over the place with my words, the sound of my voice angered him even more.
“Its just that...I-I was going through so much......I miss Sota and-“

“You bitch!” His tone was threatening, a tone I’ve never heard from him. “How dare you use him as an excuse to fuck Koga!”

I was quiet, all I could do was cry....he was right. My hands dropped to my sides, my head was down, I couldn’t look at him. He walked up to me.
“So tell me Kagome, was it good? Did he turn you out?” I turned away, he was being so cruel...Why did I even act like I didn’t deserve his treatment?

“InuYasha, I-“
“Tell me, did you scream his name......TELL ME!” He finally screamed out at me. I grabbed his hand, he jerked away from me again. He was beyond angry. “And to think, I tried to make love to you earlier and ya didn’t want me.”

“Please....InuYasha.....its not like that.” I whimpered out between my tears.

“Its not like that she says....” He whispered. He unleashed a scream that could have awakened Sota and InuTaishou. I whimpered as his fists rammed through my window. Blood dripped from his hand and onto my carpet. I ran to stop the bleeding, he pushed me.
“I don’t want your fuckin’ help”. He growled My tears meant nothing to him. “I’m outta here.”

“No!.....No....please don’t leave me!” I threw myself to the floor, clinging into his leg as if my life depended on it.

“Get the fuck up off me you slut!” His glare was evil.....ice dripped from the words his spoke.

“InuYasha.....I’m sorry.....I’m so sorry.....please don’t go”. I was yelling and crying and who knows what else. My mom ran in my room, her eyes in disbelief of what she saw. She knew then, our relationship was deeper then she imagined.

“What is going on here?”

He managed to free himself from my grasp and jumped out into the night. I ran past my mother, heading for the well, in a desperate race to beat him there. I tried to block him, all the while begging him with all I had, not to leave me...not to end things. I threw myself into his arms...squeezing him, refusing to let go. His chest soaked with my tears. He grabbed me, I felt his wet cheek on my forehead......my god I never wanted this......I never wanted to hurt him.
“Kagome” He whispered. “Kagome”. He called me again. I raised my head.

“Let go of me...don’t you ever touch me again!” That was it.....I watched him jump down in the well. My life was over.....the one I loved, hated me.

I bent over, screaming his name into the well. “INUYASHA!” My mom pulled me away and I sobbed in her arms.....just like I did when I was a little girl. She walked me back into the house, didn’t even ask me what happened. All I know now is that I have to get him back.......I cannot be in this world without him.


A/N....Ok, well I hope you all liked that one, I thought I'd make Kagome that bad one this time...lol